It seems as though days pass and I'm still in this pitch black void searching for a way out and a way towards an afterlife if there is one. But what if this was what awaits after death, if this is all that we go to when we die and we can't even see our loved ones than this is miserable. I don't want this and I'm damn near positive that no one else wants this type of life after death. Yet I feel a cold breeze pass through me like if I'm still conscious and alive. Or am I and I just entered a stage of coma? Whatever it was I don't want to live like this any longer, all this aimlessly walking around hoping to find something, anything is enough to drive anyone insane. All of a sudden I feel like a magnet is pulling to something, I don't know what but a strong force is pulling me somewhere and fast, I don't even have time to react when I jolt awake and I'm sitting up in the same forest I died in. Or at least I think I died, that's what it felt like
"I'm alive?" I say to myself looking down at my hands.
Trying to comprehend everything I open and close my hands then touch my cheeks and place one of my hands over my chest to feel for a heartbeat. There it was, a heartbeat only it's beating fast like I ran a mile or something. I begin to look at my surroundings and notice that the sky is getting colorful and the sun is setting causing the sky to look orange and red with a hint of pink.
"How long was I out for?" I ask to no one in particular.
Slowly I stand up using the tree as support for my very shaky legs. I let my legs gain it's strength as I stand there still learning onto the tree tracing my fingers around the symbol that's permanently engraved into the old wood.
I walk back to Varian's house occasionally stumbling and tripping over my own feet. I open the front door and accidentally slam it trying to lean on it to which it didn't work and it slammed open throwing me on the floor in the process.
"Fuck" I whisper to myself hopefully not alerting anyone.
"(Y/N) is that you?" A very concerned Varían asks from a different room.
"Yeah it's me" I reply back while standing up
"Where have you been it's been a whole day since you left and you haven't come back?"
"Has it really been a full day?" I ask to no one in particular
I walk towards the stairs to go to mine and Varian's shared room but before I can step on the stairs a gentle hand grabs onto my arm preventing me from going upstairs. I slowly turn my head and stare at him with cold, tired eyes.
"Look Varían, I'm not in the mood to talk or anything I'm really tired and in so much pain. So can you please let me go so I can rest" my tone being a little too aggressive than I intended it to be
He lets go of my arm without another word but his eyes are now filled with concern and pain at the way I talked to him. I face forward and begin my walk upstairs and to the room. I lean back on the door to close it my eyes feeling heavy and my body aching so much still.
"I swear, why won't this pain go away it's so annoying" I groan rubbing my eyes to stay open long enough to make it to my bed and get some actual sleep.
I'm standing in an alleyway holding my chest as it's in pain and I had to hide before anyone could get hurt. Ever since the night at the woods my newfound powers have been a little out of control occasionally sending balls of explosive green light everywhere. I'm still trying to research on them and figure out everything I can so each day whenever that happens I write it down in a separate journal and figure out way to make them stop and be controlled. And so far I haven't thought of a way to control my powers.
I feel a tingling sensation on the palms of my hands and I know a ball of green light is going to emit from my hands again, I try to ball my fists as hard as I can to see if that helps, the sensation becomes stronger and stronger the harder I ball my fists so I stop and as soon as my hands are limp by my sides a big ball of green light shoots out of my hands and the light hits a small house exploding it into millions of pieces. I gasp and immediately run towards the damage hoping there was no one in the house. Unfortunately there is a woman laying limp and lifeless beneath rubble not making a single sound of pain. My eyes grow wide in terror and I cover my mouth my both my hands to prevent me from screaming, all though that didn't work.
"FUCK FUCK FUCK WHAT HAVE I DONE!!?" Screaming to myself I run from the scene I just caused.
This can't be happening, I can't believe I actually killed an innocent person because of these powers. My promise, I was supposed to keep my promise and make sure I never killed an innocent person with my own hands. That lifelong promise now broken because of my own doing. How are these powers not strong for it being only one of the drops but strong enough to kill a person, how strong is the Eclipse with both the sun and moon drops combined? Why was I never warned about this by my own parents, they had to know something as they also had the marks on the exact same spot I have mine so wouldn't they have at least known something the isn't mentioned in the book I took from the castle? Does the town know something about these markings and powers?
I fall to my knees as my mind clouds itself with questions and guilt. Gripping at my temples I try to get my guilt and the voice reminding me of my broken promise to leave my head. My heavy breathing increases as the pressure on my head.
"I-.... I'm a- m-murderer, fuck fuck what have I done"
My chest tightens and my throat goes dry while I'm still hyperventilating on the ground on the verge of tears. I jerk my head towards the night sky and I let out a Shriek of pain and guilt to the sky above and the tears finally begin flowing from my eyes like waterfalls.
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