It's Complicated (boyxboy)

The Sleepover

*Prepare to cry*
This is the a month after meeting Jenny, Luke, and Jamie.
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Nik's P.O.V-

I am flipping out. I am so nervous. I'm in my room flipping out over today. I hear the door unlock and my mom walk into the kitchen. "Hey mom. How was your day?" I say trying to figure out how I can convince her to let me go. 

"Hey honey. It was good. How was your day? Was it okay?" She says. 

"Yeah it was. Um, I actually..got invited to go to a um small sleepover at a 'friends' house tonight." I say casually. 

"Your going right? Please tell me your going?!" Mom says excitedly. 

"Really, but we were su-" 

"No, honey you should go. I'm tired anyways. We'll go tomorrow." She interrupts me.

"When do you leave" she gets excited and starts running around all happy for me and I stop her before she goes to find something out of a box and I look her in the eyes and then hug her. When the time to leave is finally here I grab my bag and hug my mom. 

"Are you sure you want me to go? I can stay and tell them I can't go. I just don't want to leave you at home alone tonight."I say while I still have her in a hug. 

"I will be fine Nik. Now go. Shoo. Out. And remember I love you." She says basically pushing me out the door. 

"Love you too." I say as I close the door. Here I go. I take a deep breath and drive to Jamie's house. Wow. I really made it. I walk up to the door but before I can knock Jamie opens the door. "Hi." I said standing there probably looking like a nervous idiot. 

"Hey. Come in Jenny and Luke aren't here yet but you can make yourself at home." He says with a smile. 

"Honey. Who's here?" His mom? I'm assuming asks. 

"Mom this my friend Nik." Jamie says with a really awkward smile. His mom doesn't seem to notice. 

"Hi. It's so nice to meet you Nik. I'm Kathy." She says in a 'omg it's so nice to finally meet his friend'kinda way. I smile and shake her hand and say 

"Nice to meet you Kathy." And then Jamie walks off to his room with my bag by the straps as soon as my hand let's go of hers. *Jamie's phone dings.* he sits on his bed and then he says "well Jenny and Luke are going to be late so. What do you wanna do?" 

"I don't know. You pick." I say trying to casually make conversation. 

"Can I ask you something?" He says randomly. 

"Um sure." I say kinda skeptical. 

"Why were you crying the second day of school for you? Did I come off wrong or something?" He says

"Oh. Um. No it was not you. I just. I had been thinking about some things. *breathe* um. Okay, I don't like to bring this up but, I want to tell you. I was just thinking alot. Soo, As soon as I met you I felt like you would be someone I could open up to. And it got me thinking about something. I had finally been able to feel an emotion other than pain. Just your nervous smile and embarrassed look on your face when Jenny and Luke were walking back to the table that night. It made me smile, which is silly but I hadn't been able to do that since... my ex. Him and I dated for around like two and half years. I broke up with him because I found out that he had been cheating on me with my girl best friends brother which was awkward because she was the one who found them.. together. She called me when she seen and you know at first I thought she was kidding. I really hoped she was kidding.. she wasn't. She interrogated her brother for a week until he told her that they had been 'hooking up' for about six months. SIX months. I just can't believe I was being cheated on for six months out of a 2 and a half year relationship. Then um. I fell into a bit of a depression for a while. My mom was worried I never smiled, I never laughed, I just stopped feeling anything. I actually. Never told my mom but I thought about suicide alot. I thought about how easy it would be to just down the bottle and it would be over. I thought about the razors in the bathroom while shaving I could just slit my wrist and it would be done. I never thought I would be able to feel anything again. Then one day me and my family were going on a vacation and the car spun out of control my dad tried to regain control but we ended up in ongoing traffic and and transfer truck slammed into my dad's driver side and they said he died on impact. I just remember screaming no over and over. I guess I was feeling something. It was horrible and I still wake up sweating crying silently. But when I seen how you and Jenny and Luke made me smile and laugh and feel something other than just nothing or nothing but sadness. It's just not something I want to lose. Sorry I didn't mean to." I say as the tears are welling up in my eyes burning, begging to escape my eyes, eventually the tears win when I blink.