Infuriated

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I listened to my new mashup that I made last night and I really like it.

I love the songs of Fifth Harmony. They make me feel free. I don't really care what song I have to listen to from them, I can listen to all of their songs. Take "miss movin' on" as an example. That song is about moving on and leaving the past behind you. Should I do that too? Move on, walk away from home? I immediately shake away that thought. It's not that bad. My father is mad at me because of my bad grades in math and Spanish. So what? I mean, my father is always mad at me when I'm not as good as he was at math. Because of a little fight, I shouldn't walk away. That's stupid. I shouldn't be thinking about all the fights between me and my father. I'm upsetting myself with that and Jesse already called me a zombie the other day. According to him it was a joke but I know he meant it. I need to give myself a boost because my friends are going to ghost me if I don't act a little happier. Maybe I should make a mashup for Chloe, but I have no idea what kind of songs she likes. I don't know much about her, but I'm going to try and catch her attention today. I have a new sweater. I had to do a lot of chores at grandma's house to get enough money to buy it, but it's the perfect sweater to impress Chloe! I open my wardrobe, but I don't see the sweater. That's impossible! My eyes scan the row of clothes, but the sweater isn't there. Did I lay it somewhere else? No, I know I hung it in here. I take all my clothes out of the closet. I don't get it.

,,Lauren?" I walk over to my sisters bedroom. ,,Have you seen my new sweater?"

,,Dad had it." She says and I run into my fathers bedroom. Where is he? Not my father, but my sweater. I get down and look under his bed. There he is! I return back to my room with the sweater and pull it over my head. I look into the mirror and smile proudly, but then I startle. At the front there's a big brown stain. When I get out of the sweater and look closer, I notice it's a coffee stain. How did that get there? I don't drink coffee. I look at the sweater again. I can't get that stain out. Worthless! I wanted to impress Chloe. I walk into the kitchen. Jesse told me to have a big breakfast but I don't have an appetite. I make a simple sandwich for myself when I hear my father in the hallway. With my sweater in my hand, I walk into the hallway.

,,What did you do to my sweater?"

,,Just put it in the washing machine. Then you can wear it in a few days."

,,I need it now."

,,Stop whining about that sweater, Beca."

,,I don't want you to touch my sweater ever again."

,,Watch your tone!" He yells but I'm angry. That sweater was the only thing that could give me a chance to impress Chloe today and he ruined it. I want to say something, but when I see the anger in his eyes, I shut my mouth. I don't want any more bruises.

I'm still angry when I arrive at school. Jesse talks about a lot of things but I barely say something back. The whole sweater thing is stuck in my head.

,,Are you going to act like this the whole day?" Asks Jesse.

,,I'm sorry. Everything just didn't go to plan today."

,,Well you're not making a great appearance looking like this. You know that Finn, Marley and Stacie are waiting for us, right?" I nod. ,,And Chloe will probably walk by. You don't want to scare her away. Smile." I give him a fake smile and we walk inside. Finn, Marley and Stacie are indeed waiting by my locker.