Infuriated

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•Quinn's point of view•

Lately, Chloe and I have been texting a lot. Not only because Beca is missing, but also just to talk. She was brave enough to do an abortion because she got pregnant unplanned. Tom Wilson raped her and I think Chloe made the right decision about the abortion, since she's in love with my best friend. Chloe is becoming a close friend and I like it. I asked her for advice about Mr. Schuester and Rachel but she didn't really have advice. She only told me to follow my heart. I love being in the Glee club, close to Rachel but I hate that Rachel and Finn always have to sing romantically. Mr. Schue knows that I'm in a relationship with Rachel and Finn with Marley. I don't understand that Marley is okay with this whole thing. I sigh. My feelings are all over the place. I miss Beca and I didn't have a moment with Rachel to make up.

,,Quinn, are you ready?" Mr. Schuester comes into my hotel room.

,,Mr. Schue, can I talk to you for a moment?"

,,What's on your mind?"

,,Honestly?" He nods. ,,I'm not okay with Rachel and Finn being all romantic. I'm Rachel's girlfriend. Don't you think I should sing and kiss her instead of Finn?"

,,Quinn, the judges will never allow two girls to get romantic. If I allow you two to do this, we won't win." I get angry inside.

,,That's so fucked up! It's 2023 for Christ's sake!"

,,I'm sorry Quinn, but I don't have a choice. We need to win."

,,Ugh fine, but I'm not happy about it." He smiles apologetically and walks out of the room. I take a deep breath. Am I going to do this? Can I watch my girlfriend and best friend kiss? The performance will be awful to watch but the kiss will be the worst. I hope that my anger doesn't ruin my voice. Everyone in the Glee club is counting on me, especially Finn. He is my best friend and I don't blame him for kissing Rachel. He's only doing what Mr. Schue tells him to do. I'm sad about the fight Rachel and I have but I can't help it. She's going to move to New York, following an education at NYADA. She will leave me and Beth behind. I know this University is her dream so I won't stop her but it will be very hard. I never loved anybody as much as I love Rachel. She's everything to me. I put on my dress and walk backstage where the rest of the group is too. Rachel looks beautiful. Our eyes meet and we smile at each other but just when I'm about to walk over to her, Mr. Schue tells Rachel and Finn to get to their places. They obey and I sigh. Brittany comes towards me with a worried look.

,,Are you okay?" She asks me.

,,Not really." Now Santana walks over.

,,You know what? We get it. You're pissed about Finn and Rachel having to kiss on stage. Get over it!"

,,I don't want to get over it! Okay?"

,,The only person you're sabotaging here is yourself. You love to sing and you can't stop over some fake stage kiss. We will win this competition."

,,I don't care about some stupid choir competition!"

,,Well, you should! Because this is the one chance that we have to actually feel good about ourselves." I get tears in my eyes.

,,Rachel is the only one who can make me feel good about myself." A tear slips out of my eyes. ,,I love her and tonight I have to watch her kiss my best friend." I sigh and sit down on a chair. ,,I don't want to lose her." Brittany pulls her arms around me and comforts me. I can always count on them and that's never going to change. Santana, Brittany, and I will always be the cheerleader musketeers.

It isn't too long that the performance starts. Mr. Schuester is forcing us to watch Rachel and Finn and it literally kills me. They take their part very seriously but I still wished that Mr. Schue wasn't so closed off by the idea of me singing with Rachel. I should be the one singing romantically with Rachel! It's not fair and I strongly believe that we won't win or even qualify ourselves for the next Regionals. People must see this is all fake, right? After two minutes or so, we had to get on stage but I refused. How am I supposed to watch them kiss when I'm standing on the same stage as they are?