Keeping a secret love | Juan Gomez de Liano

Kabanata 17

It was a peaceful Wednesday Morning, but I didn't had enough sleep last night. I replied to Juan's messaged last night.

juangdl: I know you're still awake.

kaelahdlg: Sure. Yes, I am.

Saan nya nakuha ang number ko? Bakit nya pa kailangan mag text though I already told him na we will see each other on the next day? I patiently waited to his reply but he replied instantly.

juangdl: Dinner, then?

Dinner huh? Probably he knows that hindi ako palakain ng gabi. He still know.

kaelahdlg: Not a dinner type of person, but your choice. Sent me the deets.

juangdl: You didn't change at all. Well then, see you tomorrow?

Napapikit ako ng mariin. I didn't change, perhaps you changed.

kaelahldg: See u.

juangdl: Take care.

Hindi na ako nag reply. Wala, I don't think may dapat pa kong isagot.

That night didn't give me hope to sleep. I think I fell asleep around 5 AM. I think my body clock is still adjusting.

When I go to U.S. I maintain all my social media accounts. Instagram, Twitter, Facebook and Snapchat. This accounts made me feel alive and updated. I remember, when I move in to the states I read an article about Juan and Javi's sitting out for season 83. Though I got sad about that, I can't sent messaged to Juan. I already blocked him to all of my accounts and I want him to forget about me. That why even I can send message to Jave, I didn't. I don't want to interfere with their personal reasons's though Juan would love to, but I'm still holding to my decision.

I woke up at 11 AM, because there's something strange about Cassie. Siguro, hindi pa rin siya gising kaya ganon. My poor little sister always wake up me in the morning. Because she wants to have a jog, tho I'm a little lazy. It's good for my health. But this morning wasn't for us. Siguro mas okay nga na mag rest muna kami. But I got thirsty that's why I need to go down.

Got my all morning routine, toothbrush, washing my face and all. I'm not comfortable of not having that on a morning. Anong malay natin kung sino ang makakausap natin sa ating pag baba?

Habang kinukusot ko ang mata ko pababa ng hagdan. Naamoy ko ang mabangong ulam.

"Manang, ang bango naman ng..." I stuttered.

Juan look to me like he wasn't surprised.

"Juan? Why you're here?" My eyes widened as he throw some smirk on me.

"What? I'm currently cooking your favorite food."

Oh, my favorite sinigang. Kelan pa siya natutong mag luto?

Juan starred at me and look at me from head to toe.

"What?" Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.

"I think you should get some dress."

Doon lang ako tinablan ng hiya. WTF? I'm just wearing my racerback sando and a really short shorts without my bra under it.

"Shit." I ran to my room really embarrassed of what I wore. I also saw Juan smiled.

"Ah!!! Fuck!!!!!!!!!!" Napadapa na lang ako sa kama at nagsisigaw.

What the hell was that Kaela? Are you out of your mind?! But I suddenly stop questioning myself about that. Bigla bigla siyang susulpot dito ano bang malay ko? It's okay, Kae. I'm really convincing myself that it's okay.

Fuck! What should I wear!!!! My mind is screaming! Ugh, natataranta talaga ko!

Suddenly someone knock on my door.

"Kae? Can I enter your room?" It's Juan

My god! This really can't happening!!!!!! Pero bago pa ko nakapagsalita he entered my room. Okay? Do you really need my permision to enter? Buti nalang nakapag suot na ko ng bra, pero nakatakip pa din ako ng kumot.

"I missed you." you can see that he's really true to his words. He suddenly hugged me.

"Juan, are you okay?" I asked him ng naramdaman kong may tumutulong luha galing sa mata nya.

"Yes. But please... stay still. God knows.. how long I waited for this." He said and I don't know what to do..

We're at peace but I need to cut this.

"Hey, calm down. Are you okay now?" I asked him.

Napaupo siya ng maayos, pinupunasan ang mga natirang luha. He nodded to answer.

"Come on, let's eat." He immediately stood up para hindi ko siya matanong.

That quick, Juan huh. That quick.

"Hey, what's the problem. Are you alright?" I asked him.

"I'm fine, just missed my home." He said then leave the room.

Home? Okay, my heart is really beating so fast. I almost forgot that I need to go downstairs to eat.

juangdl: Let's eat.

kaelahdlg: I'm taking shower first.

I stared at myself at the mirror.

juangdl: Why? Let's eat first before you take a bath.

Okay, do I have a choice here?

Bumaba ako sa hagdan at unti unting naamoy ang niluto nya.

"Smells good huh?" I said while he was still preparing for our lunch. Nakita ko si Manang and I'm wondering where's Cassie?

"Manang, si Cassie po?" I seated on the front of Juan.

"Ay, Iha 'di nya ba nasabi sayo? May photoshoot daw sya." Manang answered

I nodded.

"Hindi man lang nag iwan ng message sakin." I said.

"Did you check your phone? I think you didn't" Juan said, habang nilalagyan ng kanin ang pinggan ko.

Napaisip ako, oo nga hindi nga.

"I texted you before I go here, cause I know di ka makakain ng dinner. You still don't change." Nakatingin siya sakin. Nag iwas ako ng tingin.

I nodded. Tahimik kaming kumain, he cooked well huh? Kelan nya kaya natutunan 'to? I didn't bother to ask. Kasi I feel awkward pag nag open ako ng topic 'di ba?

"What's your plan after this?" He was done eating.

"Uhm, wala naman. How 'bout you? Do you have?" I asked him.

"Let's go to arcade?" He stared at me, parang binabasa yung nasa utak ko.

Napaiwas ako ng tingin. Bakit ba kasi ganto na siya tumitig?

"S-sure. I'm gonna take a bath." Tumayo ako at umakyat sa kwarto ko.