Keeping a secret love | Juan Gomez de Liano

Kabanata 5

I'm in the middle of the sea, and still no one wants to save me.

I opened my eyes, and saw everything. That was a dream. A half good half bad dream.

But Juan is really courting Juliana. But I'm not sure if she was really inlove with Juan like I do.

"Jayne?" Someone's knocked on my door.

"Jayne? Still sleeping?" It's Juan. I know. His voice. The way he talks...

"Juan, I'm awake. Sorry, just wanna have my me time before the dinner came. Pero, gusto mo bang pumasok?" I asked. Ang rupok siz.

"What's with Juan? Do you have any problem Jayne?" He said while heading off my bed.

"Di ba ayaw mo naman din ng Gerardo? Okay lang naman sakin yung Jayne. Di na big deal." I look at the mirror of my room and...

"WAAAAH! JUAN GERARDO!!!!!!" I screamed. I. JUST. SAW. MY. FACE. WITH. CAKE. ICING!!!!
He just hold his tummy and laugh like this is the funniest thing he ever saw.

And that provoked me.

"What the hell Juan!? Do you even think na baka langgamin ako?!"

He was still laughing.

"Sh*t. Wala ka talagang pakielam eh no? Kung sa bagay, lagi naman!" Then I walked out going to my sister's room.

Nung lumabas ako, he caught me at my elbows.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I just taught of pranking you." He said while he was smirking.

"I know you so bad, that's why I didn't expect this. I thought you know me." I answered and walked away.

Sometimes, we just have to accept that not all the people you love can love you back like the way you want to.

I remember when Juan disappointed about their loss, we stayed up until night. Pinag uusapan lahat ng problema na maaring 'di mag patulog samin sa gabi. Sa paraan na 'yon gumagaan yung pakiramdam namin. Pero how can I spill the tea? Knowing na mahal n'ya si Julia?

"Jayne.. I'm sorry. You're having a bad day? Please tell me, let me help you." Tapos pinigilan n'ya ko sa siko.

"Juan, no. I'm just upset." Saka ko binawi ang siko ko sa kanya.

"Upset on what? Sorry about that kung dahil 'yon sa nangyari kanina." Mas okay talaga na english na lang yung ginagamit n'yang language pag ganto eh. He's not good in speaking tagalog, halatang mayaman pag nagsasalita eh.

"I'm just upset with myself Juan, 'wag mong sisihin sarili mo." Oo, Juan. 'Wag ka ng magtanong.

"Why?" He asked while we're having eye to eye contact.

"Nothing. I just don't feel myself right now." I looked away.

"You're hiding secrets today, Jayne. I can't believe you."

"Ate, Kuya Juan let's go na. Mom and Tita Anna is going to announce something daw." Buti naman may nagawang mabuti si Cassandra ngayong araw.

I walked to the seashore and as usual they're ready to eat, mukhang kami na lang iniintay.

Ang lagkit pa din ng mukha ko.

I go to restroom and get some wet wipes to remove the stickiness.

Okay, birthday dinner pero 'di ako nakapag ayos.

I went out of the restroom, and I saw Javi walking towards me.

"Happy Birthday, Jayne! Namumutla ka ata ah." Okay, minsan nalang kami mag kita, nalait pa 'ko.

"Di na ako nakapag ayos eh. Kasama mo si Einica?" 

Einica is Javier's girlfriend, she's also a student-athlete from UP.

"Hindi, may training sila eh. Happy birthday daw." Then he hugged me.

I grew up with this Gomez de Liano's. Kaya sobrang lapit namin sa isa't isa.

"Thanks, Javier!" then he sat down on the table.

My eyes is looking for someone.

Where's Juan?

"Jav, saan si Juan?" I asked Javi

"Ha? E 'di ko pa nakikita eh." 

Then I look at the moonlight.  It's really mesmerizing. Everything under this was beautiful.

"Jayne.."

Wait. I know that voice.

OHHHH, he's here too?

My Ex-boyfriend, Louis..