Keeping a secret love | Juan Gomez de Liano

Kabanata 16

"Hi!" Yes, the one who knock is Juan

He looked directly to me, ang lalim ng tingin n'ya para bang 'di nya papalagpasin tong araw na to na hindi nya ako kinakausap.

Kinakabahan ako, hindi ko alam sasabihin ko. Ganto, ganto pa rin dulot n'ya sakin limang taon ng nakalipas.

"Uhm, hello?" I said, tinitigan ko din sya sa mata pero hindi ako makatagal, nakakapaso yung tingin nya na para bang tutunawin ako.

"So you're here na pala?" He hold his pocket while standing outside our car.

Cassie looked to me, she's teasing me actually pero I need to focus. Baka kung ano masabi ko kay Juan.

"Y-yes, uhm? Mind if we can go already? We just you know, tired from the flight." Pag iiwas ko.

"Sure, catch up tomorrow?" He said with serious tone.

What do you want for me Juan? You have a child, bakit pa? To prove that I really ditch you?

"Yah, sure. Good bye." I said and Cassie say good bye too.

Hindi pa sana ako ready makipag usap. Like slowly after grieving to my parents, forgiving myself, and collecting what I should conceal, I need to make time and accept things.

"Ate, what's your plan?" Cassie open this thing and we're finally home!

I get my hand carry bag at lumabas ako ng kotse.

"We can talk about it later while we're having dinner." 

I went to my room, and fixed things.

I remember my Mom and Dad, when everything was so fine. It makes me so emotional. Bakit kasi nagkapatong patong pa lahat ng problema ko noon? Bakit hindi ko kinaya? Siguro, I wasn't that strong enough na kaya kong bumali ng promises just to fix myself.

It's already 3PM in the afternoon and I want to relax myself.

When I go to the bathtub, I know it will relax me.

My plan is to buy a condo near my office, and I will be here at our house on weekends.

Cassie will still study her masters to help our company.

I'm really proud of my Cassandra, naiintindihan n'ya lahat to? E when our parents passed away, she was 13 turning 14 lang, feeling ko nga mas mature pa siya mag isip sakin e. She always cheering me up when I feel like I didn't want to do it anymore. She was my bestfriend since day one. Pero syempre, when we was in US may nakilala din ako. Si Hashia, Filipino din naman siya and same kami ng age. She pushed me to enjoy life, wag daw puro ako aral. I easily adjusted to environment sa US because of her.

She was the one who hear all my heartbreaks and struggles in the past 3 years. And I think she will be here a few days from now. Aayusin nya din kasi yung company nila. We're in the same shoes that's why we fit together.

hashiakaile: Hey, are you in the PH already? Will be there on Thursday.

kaelahdlg: Yea, already in PH. Okay, safe skies. You want to stay here in our house?

hashiakaile: Sure sizzums, will save some money because of that. Missed Cassie already, hahahahahahahahalol. Miss u siz! 

kaelahdlg: Missed u too! See u! <3

I enjoyed the warmth of my water, I nap for like an hour then Cassie is already knocking on my door.

"Ate Kael!!!" She's knocking merciless on my door.

"Cassie, wait. I'm on the shower room!!!" I shouted, kahit alam kong malabong marinig nya yon.

I just send her message on her viber

kaelahdlg: Yes, Cass? I'm in shower.

cassfrancine: Tita Anna and Tito Bert is here. 

kaelahdlg: What? Are you throwing some jokes on me? Lol.

This can't be happening, OMG. I'm not prepared for this!

cassfrancine: Sent a photo

Cassie sent a photo of her with Tita Anna and Tito Bert sitting on our couch in the living room.

What the hell is this? 

Binilisan ko ang pag aayos. I just wear a plain maroon halter top and a maong shorts. I put some tints para di naman ako mukhang pale.

I'm running to our stairs and hugged Tita and Tito Bert.

"We missed you, Iha." Tita Anna said while I'm gesturing that they should be seated.

Walang pinagbago si Tita Anna and Tito Bert parang lalo pa ata silang bumata?

"We missed you too, Tito and Tita. You look good you two. Para pong mas lalo pa kayong bumabata." I said while Tita Anna is holding my hand.

"Ikaw talaga, bolera ka pa din. How are you?" Tita Anna said.

"I'm fine, Tita. Doing great." I said while smiling.

"You will be leading your company right, are you ready?" Tito Bert said while he was drinking coffee.

"Yes Tito, not really sure if I'm already good for the position but I will apply all the knowledge I got from my masters." 

Tito Bert smiled at me.

"You really grow well and wise, I'm so proud of you." 

Lumipas ang oras ganon lang ang usapan. I'm thankful na 'di nila binabanggit ang nangyari sa'min ni Juan. We ate dinner and after that they left our house.

"Cass, I'm planning to buy a condo unit for me. Malapit sana sa office." I said while we're on the living room drinking some tea.

"Ha? Are you sure ate? Maiiwan ako dito?" She askes me

"Why? You're responsible naman 'di ba? Should I worry? I'll be here on weekends and Hashia will be living with us."

Her eyes shine, halatang excited.

"Ate Hashia? Bakit di pa siya sumabay? Dito sya sa'tin titira? Excited na ko ate!" she was clapping on her excitement.

"I already know that you're excited, hun. On thursday, we will fetch her at the airport. Please, paki sabi kay manang paki linis yung guestroom sa tabi ng room mo. Hashia will use that one."

"Hindi pwedeng sa room ko na lang?" Really, Cass??

I just stared at her. Alam nya naman magiging sagot. Hashia also need her private time.

"Okay, at least." She said.

Umakyat na ko sa room ko, I always need this everyday. 

Silence makes me calm.

I dimmed my light, and stared at my ceiling.

"How I wish, I can turn back days."

While I'm at peace, my phone beeps.

You got a new messaged from juangdl.

juangdl: see you tomorrow?