Crawl Out of Love (COMPLETED)

Chapter 25

Chapter 25

Jealous

It was hard to open up.

I kept on reeling back in the words that are begging to be let out. Nang ikwento ko kay Iain ang nangyari ay nakinig lang siya. Hindi siya sumabat kahit pa sinabi ko na mali ang interpretasyon ni Pablo sa mga ginagawa niya. He completely understood... which really awed me. I expected he'd get irritated or annoyed somehow.

I left one bit of information out though... I didn't tell Iain how I admitted to Pablo that I like him. It still didn't feel right. Kahit pa alam ko sa sarili ko na gusto ko nga siya ay hindi ko masabi-sabi. I feel like there's a right time for that.

"Hindi ka talaga galit? O naiinis man lang?" I asked for the nth time.

He shook his head. "No. He doesn't know my intentions. Why would I get upset for something that's not true?"

I smiled because of that. Kahit pa naiyak ako nang nag-kwento sa kanya ay gumaan naman ang pakiramdam ko. I don't know how he does it. Nakinig lang naman siya pero parang nawala iyong bigat na nararamdaman ko. It's amazing how he unconsciously makes me feel better. Just his presence is enough.

Pablo didn't come back to talk to me again. He's back to putting space and high walls between us. Hindi na ako namilit pa dahil alam ko naman na nahihirapan siya. I just texted him that I'm sorry and that I still care about him so much.

Sa mga nagdaang linggo ay lagi kong nakikita ang tagged posts ni Pablo. He's always out with his friends. Kung hindi sa mga club ay madalas namang road trips at ibang getaways. I'm happy that he's having fun. I just wish he'd be fine soon so we could go back to being the best of friends that we were. Hindi ko ginustong saktan siya. Things were just so unexpected but some of it are really worth it.

Today is the last day of finals week. Sa susunod na linggo ay simula na ng bakasyon. I never thought it'd be this fast. I was just killing myself last week because of extensive reviewing and now I'm down to my last two exams for this academic year.

Hinihintay ko si Iain sa cafeteria para sabay kaming mag-breakfast. I went early to school because he said he wanted to see me. Ako rin naman. We didn't see each other much this week because of the exams. I still have exams today pero siya tapos na kahapon.

I checked my phone if he messaged me again. Ang sabi niya nandito na raw siya sa university. That was fifteen minutes ago... Ang tagal naman niyang maglakad papuntang cafeteria?

I shrugged it off and continued waiting. May isang oras pa naman ako bago magsimula ang unang exam ko ngayong araw. Tumayo ako para makabili na ng pagkain namin. It would take more time if I'd wait for him before we order. This way, we'd be able to be together much longer. Even if I just saved up two minutes.

Nakabalik na ako sa mesa dala ang pagkain pero wala pa rin siya. Maybe he's stuck somewhere? Tinawag ng faculty tapos inutusan kaya natagalan? But Iain would text me at least kung ganoon nga ang nangyari.

Maybe I'm just overthinking it. Darating din naman iyon, natagalan lang. Iain's not the type to ditch. He's always on the go. Never din siyang na-late. Ngayon lang...

Fifteen more minutes passed and I couldn't wait any longer. What could possibly stall him for that long? Lalo pa at sabi niya nandito na rin naman siya sa university. It's not like he parked his car in the high school department and decided to walk from there.

Tumunog ang cellphone ko nang tumayo ako. Halos mahulog ko na 'yon noong akala ko na si Iain na ang nag-text. I expected it was him and he'd apologize for being late. Instead, it was my Dad telling me to fly back to Cebu this weekend. Hindi na raw siya papayag na magtagal pa ako rito lalo na't bakasyon na rin naman.