Twelve Reasons.

Chapter Five.

"So you didn't even tell him yet his coming back tomorrow" Sam asks for the tenth time. We was in the car on the way to the cinema, the rest of Diversity plodding along behind us in their cars, Ashley said it would be a good team bonding moment, when in reality it was time for me and Sam to spend time together, but also for me to forget about the new member they were bringing with them. "That is correct" I mutter for the eleventh time. "I don't know why you didn't tell him" Sam states, pulling into a parking space. "Because I couldn't break his heart over the phone" I mutter. "And it's so much easier to do it in person" Sam mutters, getting out of his car, I roll my eyes and step out of the car. "Yeah, obviously" I reply, sarcastically. "I just, you're in love with him, we already established you cant lie to him because it would kill you, but keeping it from him another day the guilt is going to kill you, you should of just said that you drunkenly kissed me" He mutters, leaning his hands on the roof of his car. I shake my head. "You kissed Sam last night?" Jordan chuckles, walking over to us. I shake my head, looking at Sam in the process, his eyes wide. "Forget it, fuck you" I mutter, walking into the cinema, if I was going to have to sit here during an argument with my best friend and a guy I kissed that I now couldn't stop thinking about i'm damn sure I was picking the film I was going to have to sit through. I look at the screens with the films whilst I hear footsteps behind me, assuming its Sam come to apologise. "Sam, it doesn't matter okay just drop the conversation" I mutter. "I'm not Sam, but okay" The voice replies. I sigh, turning around to be met with the golden brown eyes, the eyes I couldn't get out of my head. "What do you want?" I mutter, turning around to face the screens again, trying to pick a film. I feel his hand on my arm as he turns me around to face him again. "What's your deal?" He asks, letting go of my arm. "Nothing" I mutter, looking down at the ground. "Is this about last night?" He asks, his voice dropping to a whisper. I shake my head. "I cheated on my boyfriend last night, I have to deal with that not you, don't let me stop you from kissing girls you injure" I mutter, turning around to face the screen again, hearing him sigh behind me. "I didn't know you had a boyfriend" He mutters, standing next to me now. "I told you right before you placed your lips on mine" I mutter, clicking a film that seemed to look good enough for all of us to watch. "Okay, maybe you did, but don't tell me you didn't feel what I felt" He whispers, turning to face me. I don't look at him, I keep my focus on the screen in front of me. "I don't know what you're on about" I mutter. I did know what he was on about, but he didn't need to know that. "I don't go around kissing just anyone you know" He whispers, his hand touching my arm. I shake his arm off, turning around to look at him. "Perri, I don't care, I really don't, right now I want to sit and watch a film with my best friend, he invited you lot, tomorrow I have to tell me boyfriend that I cheated on him, that's most likely two years of my life going down the drain, I know I wouldn't trust him again if this was the other way around" I mutter. "Look, I didn't want to piss you off, I just wanted to say sorry for upsetting you, it was just a dare" He mutters, walking off. Great.

I don't fully know what possessed me to walk after him, but I did, I followed him to the arcade on the other side of the cinema, not really sure what I would say to him when I caught up with him. "Okay why are you following me?" He asks, turning around and leaning against the wall. "A sorry wouldn't go a miss if im honest" I mutter, looking up at him, his damn brown eyes. "Sorry? for what exactly?" He asks, smirking down at me. I hated that he was taller than me. "Are you being serious right now? do you not think you should apologise?" I ask, my hands on my hip, he was really annoying me. "Sorry for kissing a pretty lady like you? no I don't think I am sorry" He mutters. I roll my eyes. "Fine, whatever" I say, turning on my heel ready to walk away, before he pulls me back and I have my back against the wall, with Perri in front of me. "Do you want me to say sorry?" He whispers, and I could feel his breath on my face. "Because I think that really your relationship was breaking down, you got drunk, we shared a kiss but you want to blame the relationship break down on the kiss that may not have even happened if you hadn't of been in my room" I look away from his eyes. "What do you want?" I whisper, as his hand runs down my face, turning my cheek softly making me look at him. "When I first bumped into you I never thought you would play on my mind, I never thought I would see you again" He whispers, a small smile playing on his lips. "But then I kissed you, I felt something I've never felt with someone else before" He whispers, his lips dangerously close to mine.

Just as I think his about to lean in, my phone rings, causing him to jump back, thank the lord for my phone once again. I look at the caller ID and see Harry, he sure did pick his moments to ring, I answer the phone, bringing it up to my ear. "Hey" I whisper. "Em, Sam said you was all at the cinema, i'm outside" I can hear the smile in his voice, as my stomach feels like it flips and then drops to the floor, weighing me down. "You're outside?" I whisper, looking up at Perri who was looking at me fairly amused, of course he would find this amusing. "I'm by the Arcade, i'll see you in a minute" I whisper, as I hang up the phone. "Just let me tell him yeah?" I say to Perri, as I start walking to the main entrance of the cinema, so now not only was I at the cinema with Diversity, I was here with my best friend who I was mid argument with, the guy who I cheated on my boyfriend with, and my boyfriend, as if this couldn't get anymore awkward than it needed to. 

"Emmie" I hear Sam shout, as i'm walking to the entrance. "Why didn't he tell me he was going to come to the cinema?" I mutter, hugging Sam, the emotions inside of me going wild. "I wish I knew Em, I wish I knew" He whispers, hugging me, letting my have my moment. "I'm sorry for what I said" I whisper, pulling away from him looking up at him. "We will get through this together, I told Jord it wasn't me who you kissed and said it was some random person from the party, his going to keep his mouth shut, i'll be here for you no matter what happens" He whispers, smiling at me. I nod my head. "I think, I think i'm going to miss the film and talk to him, i'll meet you back here ready for the ending?" I ask. He looks uneasy, but nods his head agreeing with me. "If you need me text me, i'll leave my phone on" He replies, kissing the top of my head. I smile up at him, Sam was honestly the best. I look across to the doors and see Harry stood there, smiling at me. "Now or never" I whisper, as I leave Sam and walk over to him.

"We need to talk" I say, I cant believe its the first thing I say to him, but he nods his head, his hands in his pockets, maybe he knew this was coming?. "I need to say something first, but I think we need to go away from here, I was thinking the café next door?" He asks, not even trying to hold my hand or hug me, this felt weird. I nod my head, and we walk to the café, making small conversation about the party obviously I left out the details I needed to tell him, Harry spoke about work, but I wasn't really taking it in, making me feel awful. "So, I said I needed to tell you something" He starts, we agreed that he could go first. I nod my head, motioning to him to go on. "So, there's this new team leader at work, her name is Samantha, she makes me laugh constantly because well you here with your Sam and i'm at work with my Sam" He starts, My Sam? His Sam? what did he mean? I look at him to continue, taking a sip of the water, I didn't order food because I honestly wasn't hungry. "So, there's no easy way to tell you this, but I've been keeping a secret from you, Me and Samantha have slept together, and I think this isn't working between us anymore, I know we both said we would try and make it work, and that we could get through anything, but I came home to get my things, i'm really sorry Em but I think we need to break up" He whispers, tears filling his eyes. He had cheated on me? how long had this been going on? I knew last time he had come back home he was speaking about a new team leader but that was months ago. "How long" I whisper, not wanting to look up at him. "Two months" He whispers, a tear falling from his eyes. I nod my head. "Okay, i'll stay at Sam's tonight, that'll give you enough time to be gone by tomorrow night right?" I ask, he nods his head. "I'm sorry Em I really am" He starts. "It's fine, don't worry about it" I say, walking out of the café and back to the cinema.

The world around me was spinning, I thought I was guilty but it was a drunken kiss, a stupid drunken kiss, I didn't sleep with Perri. I never intended on cheating on Harry, but it felt like his was intentional, it was something that was possibly never planned, but happened anyway. I walk straight into Perri in the waiting area for the cinema, not watching where I was going. "Watch where you're going" He mutters, turning around and looking at me. "Wait why are you crying?" He asks, turning me to look at him, I didn't even realise I  was crying. "Where's Sam" I whisper. "Over there" He says, pointing to the arcade. I walk over to him, not caring about the tears that were falling, not caring about the people looking at me. "Emmie, what's wrong?" Sam asks, pulling me into a hug. "You've been gone like fifteen minutes" He whispers, pulling away from me looking at me. "His been cheating on me for months" I whisper, as I burst into tears and bury myself In Sam's chest.