Twelve Reasons.

Chapter Twelve.

Monday 25th September.

I had a really good weekend with Sam, just enjoying his presence. He was slightly moody when he come back from rehearsals on Sunday but I knew from previous experience that too much testosterone in one room, Ashley working them hard and the stress would put Sam in a bad mood easily. Sam had the morning off this morning so he was helping me pack a bag to take with me to Alex's, but he wasn't exactly happy I was going house hunting over there, but like I had told him a million times over the weekend nothing was set in stone.

I hadn't really spoken to Perri over the weekend, or seen him like he had asked me to do, but it felt wrong sneaking off behind Sam's back knowing what had been said between them, so I was hoping to find something out before I left to go home for a day or two. But Perri had text me a lot, whether I had replied was the difference, he had asked me to do a list of things that I wanted to complete before the end of the year, which I found slightly amusing, I didn't really have anything I wanted to do. But so far I had got;

- Watch Diversity at one of their shows
- Spend the day at a fair
- Skinny dip on a beach
- Get intimate

I didn't really know why the last one was on there as I didn't feel like I wanted to just sleep with anybody, and I felt like if I was giving myself to someone it had to be someone who meant something to me, and well Harry was out of the window on that one.

"What are you thinking about?" Sam asks, coming in and sitting behind my, pulling me backwards so that I was sitting in his lap. He had a habit of doing this over the weekend, but I shrugged it off, we was always close. "Not really thinking of anything if i'm honest" I reply, sitting back on the floor. "Do you really have to go house hunting there?" He whispers, his eyes glossing over. "Sam it's not even an hour away, its forty five minutes at the most, if I chose a house there it's not like i'm miles away" I whisper, pushing his black hair from out of his face. "But it's still forty five minutes away" He moans, playing with his hands in his lap. I shaky my head "We both drive, plus its not set in stone" I mutter, standing up and packing the last of my clothes into the bag I was taking. "You'll call me when you get there right?" He asks. I nod my head, pulling him in for a hug. "I'm a phone call away if you need me" He says, resting his head on top of mine. "I know" I whisper, breathing in his scent, it was going to be weird not smelling his aftershave for a day or two, it was all I had smelt the last few days.

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When I pulled into my home town I felt slightly sick, I hadn't been here for a while, it was weird to drive through it. I looked at all the shops I used to go into as a child when I come to visit my nan and granddad, picturing all the smells, all visioning all the memories, everything that I loved about this place as a child. I pull up outside Alex's house and sit in the car for a moment, as my phone rings. I look at the caller ID and see Perri's name.

"Hello?" I question more than say. "Where are you?" He asks, his voice echoing around in my head. "I've gone to a friends for a few days, why?" I ask, why did he care where I was. "Because i'm here" He says, and I look outside my car, looking to see if I can see him anywhere, which I couldn't. "What do you mean?" I laugh, getting out of the car. "I'm in the town centre by the premier inn, come find me" He chuckles as he hangs up the phone. How did he even know where I used to live? let alone that I would be here.

I look at Alex's front door, part of me saying that I should at least go in there first and say hello, let her know I got here okay before running off to find Perri and find out what he was doing here, part of me just wanted to go and find Perri, but then I had Sam's voice flood my head, Perri telling me what he had said. I sigh to myself, and ring Sam, letting him know I got here okay. "Hey Emmie" He beams down the phone and I can hear the loud music booming, indicating he was at the studio. "Hey, just letting you know i'm at Alex's" I smile. "Okay great, let me know when you're on your way back, I thought we could do something different when you get home" He says and I can hear the smile in his voice. "Yeah, I have a question actually" I whisper, regretting saying it after I had said it. "Okay, whats up?" He asks, and I hear the tone in his voice change. "Did you tell Perri to stay away from me?" I ask, hearing him sigh after I said it. "Em, his just, I don't know how to put it" He replies. "The truth would be a good start if I am honest" I reply bluntly. "I told him to stay away, okay he has a long list of girls hearts that his broken, I just didn't want you getting caught up in it" He replies, his voice sounding truthful. I nod my head. "That's the only reason?" I ask, expecting there to be something more to it. "Yeah only reason I just don't want to see you hurt again" He replies. I nod my head. "Okay, well i'll text you when im leaving" I whisper, he sighs. "You're mad at me aint you?" He states. I shake my head. "No, i'm not I just wish you didn't go behind my back and said it to him" I whisper. "I'll speak to you later?" I ask, he was at rehearsals I didn't want to keep him from it. "Okay, ring me later" He replies, as I hang up the phone.

I lock my car up and head into town, the walk wasn't that long, Alex lived right near the town centre. I kept my eyes in front of me, looking everywhere for the afro headed male that had caught my attention, he knew exactly how to do it.

"Em" He whispers from behind me, I could of swore he said he was at the premier inn. I turn around and see him stood there, dressed head to toe in black, black skinny jeans and a black hoodie to be specific. His hair was placed perfectly into his black beanie, the smile on his face was there, but grew bigger when he said my name again. "Emmie" He whispers. He hadn't called me that yet, not everyone did. "What are you doing here?" I whisper, feeling his arms wrap around my waist. "I wanted to see you" He whispers, kissing the side of my head.

I never really knew where me and Perri stood now, it seemed his lips were always on a part of my body when he seen me, his hands always touching me whether it be my waist, my hands or my cheek. "We need to talk about what this is" I whisper as I feel his lips on my neck, kissing it slowly. "And we cant do this here" I whisper, sighing to myself, pulling away from his touch. "I've told you, I want you" He whispers, a small smile playing on his lips. "What's the deal with you and Sam?" I whisper, watching his facial expression harden. "He doesn't want me anywhere near you because I have a history of breaking girls hearts, but you're different" He states, the smile appearing on his face when he talks about me. "I don't want my heart broken again" I whisper, looking down at the ground, feeling Perri pull my face up to look at him. "I promise not to break your heart, you just need to trust me" He whispers, placing his lips on mine softly. "We cant tell Sam though, not yet anyway" He whispers as he pulls away from my lips.

Not telling Sam would break our friendship, especially since he didn't want Perri around me in this way. Was I really prepared to throw away a two year friendship for someone I had known two weeks, even if that person drove me crazy?