Twelve Reasons.

Chapter Fourteen.

Friday 27th September.

It was Friday evening, and at exactly 9:50pm Sam would go to bed, he would be out like a light due to the training and rehearsals he was doing, so I knew that at 10:10pm I would be able to sneak out. This had become a thing since me and Perri had got together that night back home. I would sneak out the house as early as I could, stay the night at Perri's and then climb back through my window in the early hours of the morning before Sam would be out of the shower ready for his next day of dancing.

The sneaking around was becoming harder and harder, it had only been a few days though, but I felt awful lying to Sam about where I was going, or why I was so tired, but in reality I knew I couldn't tell him right now about me and Perri, i knew he wouldn't take it well whenever I told him, but right now he needed to focus on the more important things and that was him and dancing. 

I look around my room, making sure I had my phone and my car keys, I tie my hair up quickly and grab an oversized hoodie, pulling over my PJ's before heading out of my room as quietly as I can, I always used the front door to leave, because it wasn't near Sam's bedroom so he wouldn't hear it, but I always had to sneak back through my open window because I didn't know where in the house he would be. I get in my car and begin the quick drive to Perri's house. The sneaking around felt wrong, and it made me feel guilty, but I loved being with Perri, falling asleep next to him at night just felt right, it made me feel whole.

When I get to Perri's I realise how cold it was, and run to the door, knocking on it softly, he was always waiting for me, and always pulled me into a warm hug, almost like he knew I would be cold every time, kissing the top of my head. "Hey Princess" He whispers, pulling away from the hug, taking my hand and walking me up to his bedroom, all we ever did was talk about our day, not that we already hadn't over text, but it was more detailed, it was more personal being next to him, seeing his facial expressions, seeing his reactions to my day.

"I missed you" I mumble into his chest. He was lying on his back, one arm behind his head, one arm around my waist, pulling me closer to him, I had my right leg draped over his legs, my head in his chest, listening to his heart beat. "I missed you too beautiful" He chuckles. I smile to myself, I loved how he complimented me without meaning to.

I sit up, and climb onto Perri's lap, watching him smirk. I lean down and place my lips on to his, feeling the buzz, feeling the sparks, everything you're supposed to feel in fairy tales. I pull away, and rest my forehead against his. "What's that for?" He whispers. I roll my eyes. "Not that i'm complaining just, yeah" He whispers, pecking my lips slightly. "I just missed you" I whisper. He smiles, and I smile back at him, connecting my lips to his again.

The kiss gets heated quite quickly, which wasn't unnormal for us recently, but nothing major had happened, we was both on the same page about that, and I was glad that he understood that I wasn't going to be just a name on his long list. I run my hands up his top, feeling the muscles I had seen earlier, smiling into the kiss, making him chuckle into it. I bit his lip slightly, and his eyes go wide as I pull away smirking. "When did you get cocky" He chuckles, pushing his top down that had rode up his body, giving me a good view. "I'm not" I whisper, connecting my lips back to his. The kiss again got heated and his hands were playing with the bottom of PJ top, I had threw the jumper off at some point. I pull away from the kiss, leaning my forehead against his again. "It's okay" I whisper. "Are you sure? He asks, his fingers still playing with it. "I'm sure" I whisper, connecting my lips back to his as his hands pull my top up. 

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I wake up to my alarm going off at 6:00am. I groan and turn it off, trying not to wake Perri up. "I hate it when you have to leave" He mumbles from behind me, his grip around my waist getting stronger, pulling me into him. "We do this every morning, you know I have to go, but i'll drop by the studio later" I chuckle, trying to get out of his grip. "I hate this part" He mumbles, eventually letting go off me. I sigh, nodding my head. "I know, I hate it too, but right now it's what we need to do" I whisper as he closes his eyes again. I look for my jumper that I threw off during the night, and my top for that matter. Me and Perri didn't go all the way, which I was happy about, i'm not sure he felt the same if I am honest, but he was understanding during the moment we shared before we fell asleep.

"Just put my jumper on" Perri states, sitting up on the bed, holding his jumper out for me. I shake my head. "If Sam see's it he will question it" I reply, finding mine at the bottom of the bed with my top. "You know you're beautiful right" He smirks, looking me up and down, making me blush remembering I wasn't wearing a top. "You don't ever have to cover up for me Emmie" He whispers, standing up from the bed. I nod my head, smiling, walking into his arms. "I'll miss you" He whispers, kissing my head. "It's just for a few hours, go back to sleep" I whisper, pushing him back to sit on the bed. I grab my phone and tie my hair up again quickly, making sure I had everything I needed. "I want a kiss" He says, pouting his lips, making me smile. "Fine" I whisper, kissing him quickly, before running out of the room, knowing full well if I stayed any longer he would have me back in the bed with him like the first time.

The drive back to Sam's apartment was quick. As I exit my car, being as quiet as I can, I realise my bedroom window isn't open by the fire exit. "Shit" I mutter, knowing I was going to have to go through the front door. I sigh to myself, and walk up the stairs to Sam's apartment. I mentally shout at myself as I place the key in the door and unlock it, trying to be quiet. I walk in and shut the door quietly behind me, tip-toeing to my bedroom door. "Em?" Sam's voice questions, coming out of the kitchen. "What are you doing out of the house at half 6 in the morning?" He laughs, looking at the time. I shake my head. "couldn't really sleep, went for a walk" I mutter, placing my keys on the counter in the kitchen, and turning the kettle on, so much for going back to bed, and trust Sam to be awake at this time on a Saturday. "If you couldn't sleep you should of woke me up, we could of watched a film or something" He chuckles, pouring the water for me for my tea. I nod my head "I'll remember that next time" I whisper, taking a sip of the boiling hot drink. "Well im going to grab a shower and head to the studio, see if Perri actually turns up to this early rehearsal" He mutters walking to the bathroom, I knew the reason Perri wasn't turning up, I was sending him back to sleep as I left his house. I roll my eye's and make my way to my bedroom, lying on my bed, looking at my phone.

'I hate it when you leave, just wish you could stay here with me all the time, can we tell him yet? xox'

I sigh to myself.

'We cant tell him yet, his already moaning about you being late for a rehearsal, you should turn up on time, i'll see you later xox'

I place my phone on the bedside table, closing my eyes drifting to the land of dreams that I much needed.

"Sam you don't know what you're talking about" I shout, crossing my hands over my chest, annoyed at him. "I know what i fucking seen Emily" He spits. He never called me Emily. The tears started cascading down my face. This wasn't how i wanted to spend my birthday. "Then what did you see?" I shout, throwing my hands in the air. "My ex best friend practically screwing someone i dance with in my house, i thought you had better taste" He replies, walking out of the bedroom. "It's not like that" I shout following him. "How long?" He asks, turning around to face me, tears falling down his face. I stand there silent, how could i tell him. "How Long" He repeats, his voice louder. "Two Months" I whisper. "Two months too long Em, i'm done" He shouts, walking out of his own house, leaving me in floods of tears on the floor.

and that's when I woke up.