Twelve Reasons.

Chapter Twenty Three.

Thursday 4th October.

I wake up that morning tangled in Perri's arms, his soft snoring filling the room, he looked so peaceful. I look down at the duvet that's pulled over us, noticing that i'm dressed in just his t-shirt which is covering nothing. I smile at the thought of last night, everything that we did. I look at Perri as his eyelashes flutter, and i think about what he could be dreaming of, a small smile on his lips. "Do you always watch me?" He whispers, opening his eyes slightly. "How did you know?" I chuckle, pulling myself out of his chest and sitting up, pulling myself out of his grip slightly, smiling down at him. He shakes his head smiling as my phone sounds from the other side of the room. I sigh and climb out of the warm bed, my eyes going wide at the time.

"Shit its nearly 9" I mutter, looking over at Perri who looked as if he could fall back to sleep. "You've got to go meet Sam haven't you" He whispers, opening his eyes again, placing his glasses on his head. "Got to sneak to my room first, i don't even know which one it is" I chuckle, looking to see if i could find the room key Ashley had given me as we arrived at the arena yesterday. "Your key is in my jacket, don't ask me how it got there, how are you feeling this morning? do you ache or anything?" He asks, his voice sounding caring, he genuinely cared about how i felt this morning making last night feel like it was worth it. "I'm fine, honestly" I chuckle, pulling the free dressing gown around my body. "I don't want you to go" He whispers, climbing out of bed and walking over to me. "I know, but i promised him i would spend the day with him" I whisper, pressing my lips to his cheek slightly. He sighs, but nods his head, taking my hands in his. "You know i said them three words, it's fine that you don't feel ready to say them back" He whispers, placing his lips to my forehead. I smile, putting my face into his chest, even though he had just got up, he still smelt so good. "I know" I whisper, pulling away from him and grabbing the items of clothing that had been thrown around the room last night. "Will you still be able to text me?" He asks, sitting on the end of the bed watching me. I nod my head "When i can i will, i promise" I whisper. He nods his head understandingly, but his face doesn't say that he understand which makes me sigh slightly, i hated that they were arguing over me, arguing over spending time with me, i never thought this would happen.
"your room 23, so it's just a few doors down, you should be fine with not being seen" He whispers, passing me my key card. I smile at him. I turn his face slightly and press my lips to his, just enjoying the feeling of his lips on mine. "Have a good day beautiful" He whispers as i smile at him, opening the door and running down the corridor.

Once i find my room i slip inside, dropping the clothing by the bed and running to run a quick shower, i needed to get the smell of Perri off me, not that i was complaining but i could still smell his cologne so there was a possibility that Sam would smell it too. Once i get out of the shower i grab some jeans and a nice top since it was slightly sunny outside, but i knew that i would need a jacket. I still looked nice, nice enough for a fancy restaurant Sam probably had in mind, i didn't know why he felt the need to take me out like this, i was happier with a McDonalds. I look at my phone that's ringing on the side as i place the hairdryer down on the bed, my hair could wait a moment. "Where are you?" Sam breaths down the phone. "I overslept im so sorry, i'm just drying my hair" I mutter, pressing my ear to the phone. "I knocked on your door last night, you never answered so i assumed you was asleep" He chuckles, yeah i defiantly wasn't asleep, but he didn't need to know that. "Well, i'm going to jump in the shower i'll meet you downstairs for breakfast in the hall?" He asks, i nod my head. "Yeah i wont be too long" I chuckle, looking over myself once more in the mirror, just my hair and make up to do. "Okay, i'll see you soon Emmie" He chuckles "Later Sammy" I reply, before throwing my phone on charge, it was going to need charge.

I put some music on and finish drying my hair, dancing around the beat of the song, i was no where near a dancer, i couldn't dance at all, and it was awkward being surrounded by people who could dance so effortlessly but it didn't stop me doing it, everyone could dance, just some people were better than others, well at least that's what i told myself. I hear a soft knock on the door and walk over, expecting it to be Sam. But when i open the door i see Starr stood there smiling at me. "Hey" She smiles. "Hi" I smile back awkwardly, i wasn't expecting this. "Can i come in?" she laughs. I nod my head, moving to the side for her to come in, i close the door behind her as she stands awkwardly in the middle of the room. "Not that i'm not thankful for you coming to see me, but why are you here?" I chuckle, as i sit back at the small chair where i'd placed my make up to do. "Can i do your make up?" she chuckles, i smile and nod my head as she sits in front of me. "You're seeing my brother aren't you?" She asks, her smile not leaving her face. "I am but no one knows so please keep it to yourself for the time being" I whisper, my eyes looking to the floor. "Your secrets safe with me honestly, i'm happy for the both of you, you guys look cute together" She smiles. I nod my head, we was cute together it was just a shame at the moment that it was all quiet and secretive. "Me and some of the girls are going out tonight, i'd really like to get to know you more if you want to come" she whispers. I smile and nod my head, i wasn't one for going out, but it felt right getting to know Starr, getting to know part of Perri's life.

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I walked into the hall for dinner and see Sam sat with some of the guys, some that i knew and some that i didn't. I walk over and take a seat next to Sam, taking a piece of toast from his plate and chewing on it, looking at his face that wasn't happy about it. I swallow what i'm chewing and laugh. "Problem?" I chuckle. "You took food off my plate, i swear i would kill you if i didn't like you" He chuckles back. I look around the table smiling at Warren and Jordan. "Oh, this is Theo and Adam, i don't think you've met, guys this is Emmie" He smiles, moving his hand around the table. "Hey" I smile as they both smile back. Theo looked like a younger Perri, Perri wasn't in the dining hall, which was weird as i knew he loved his food, maybe he had gone back to bed. "So what's the plan of action for today?" I ask. "Well, i was thinking shopping and then lunch" He smiles. I nod my head. "That would be good, Starr's just invited me out with all the girls so a new outfit wouldn't go a miss" I chuckle. "Look at Emmie all grown up, going out for a night out, now all we need is a new boyfriend" Warren chuckles, his eyebrows wiggling at me. I give a small smile, looking at Jordan who's eyes a firmly on me, he knew the truth.

The rest of breakfast was quiet, the guys going up and getting seconds, some even getting thirds, but Perri never entered the hall during breakfast, i didn't know if this was weird or something he just didn't do. "Right, the town center is a five minute walk so we can walk it, it's not too cold out" Sam smiles, as we stand up from the table. "Have fun you two" Warren smiles, but his smile was something different. I nod my head, saying bye to everyone who had sat at the table with us.

The walk into town consisted of Sam telling me about the shows, what i had missed, what gossip i had missed. But my mind still drifted to Perri, wanting to tell Sam the truth. Before we enter the shopping center, Sam pulls me to one side, leaning against the wall. "Can we talk?" He asks, looking down at me. I smile up at him. "We can talk about anything, you know that" I chuckle. "If you like someone do you think you should tell them even if you know it's going to potentially ruin your friendship?" He whispers, his eyes not leaving mine. I tilt my head slightly, thinking about my answer carefully. "I think if you know it can work and there wouldn't be a reason for you guys to split then you should tell them, but relationships are tricky for friendships, they usually go right, but i think me and Harry are living proof that even the best of friendships can make a relationship go sour" I chuckle. He nods his head. "So, would you tell your best friend you liked them more than friends if you knew there was a chance that it could be ruined?" He asks, his eyes leaving mine for a short time before they come drifting back. I look at Sam. I knew where this conversation was going. "I think some friendships are best left as friendships" I whisper, watching his face fall slightly. He nods his head. "Yeah that's what i thought" He mutters before pulling me into the shopping center.