Twelve Reasons.

Chapter Twenty Seven.

Monday 8th October

I spent the weekend with Perri just chilling in my new apartment. Once he had stepped through the door he basically refused to leave not that I was complaining, I loved the fact he wanted to stick around and help me put furniture together, making positive memories for me in my next chapter. Sam had been really supportive of us, and it was decided that we would all go out at the weekend to celebrate my birthday, I couldn't wait to spend time with everyone and have a chill down time since the last few weeks had been hectic for them with rehearsals, and from what was being discussed now in the studio, it really was only the beginning.

"So, I think it's safe to say were going to do a small tour of the UK, it's nothing major, just two shows in every city that has shown interest in us from the polls we set up over the Summer after the latest competition" Ashley starts, sitting next to Jordan. Everyone was gathered around on the studio floor talking amongst themselves, talking over songs for new routines, seeing what older routines they could re-do and make better, and it was honestly a lot to take in. I was sat in Perri's lap, much to the disapproval of Sam but right now I was tired, I just wanted to be asleep, but I wanted to be the supportive girlfriend and best friend. 

"Em what did you think of the 'Blow' routine?" Jord smiles in my direction and I look at him. "Honestly, I love the routine you do for 'Born Ready' it's one of my favourites but I feel like 'Blow' is something you did for a one off and it needs to get the credit it deserves because its genius, I love it" I smile. "I couldn't agree more, maybe it could be a contender for tour?" Ashley suggests and the rest of the room agree. "Any other comments babe?" Perri asks from behind me, making me smile. "I like 'Lifted' I think it really shows the development in you guys" I smile, Ashley nods his head, writing it down on his whiteboard. "Anything else you wanna add?" Sam asks from next to me, it was one of the first thing's he had really said since i'd walked into the room with Perri, the awkward tension building. "No, that's it" I whisper, looking down at my shoes. I feel Perri rub my back, trying to be comforting but right now all I wanted to do was walk out of the room and get some air. "Shall we take a break, can run through some of the new mixes we have done after" Jordan states, almost as if he can feel the tension. I jump up from Perri's lap and walk to the door before anyone can say another word.

Perri's POV;

"Was there really any need for that comment?" I mutter to Sam as we stand up from the floor. "It wasn't sarcastic or anything, I asked if there was anything else she thought would be good, not like I told her that her boyfriend is a fucking liar" He mutters. "I'm hardly lying to her" I chuckle, walking over to the door. "No you just said what you fucking said didn't you, i'm the one who's liked her for ages you all knew this, i'm the one who comforted her when her boyfriend was cheating on her, yet here you are taking her, she doesn't need you, you don't deserve her" He shouts, walking out of the studio. I sigh and run my hands through my hair, I had left it out of its usual bun today, I didn't see the point in making an effort for a paperwork day at the studio, it wasn't like we would be dancing today and if we did dance it wouldn't be something as complicate as it usual is when we have the routines in place.

I walk out of the studio, looking at Emmie who was stood peacefully looking at the sky. She did this when she wanted time to think about things, when she needed time away from people, when she needed to look for a sign that the world was right. I walk out quietly, trying not to interrupt her thinking process, but she turns around to look at me before I have the chance. "Is he always going to hate me?" She mutters, looking down at the ground. "He doesn't hate you, he hates me, there's a difference" I whisper, pulling her close, embracing her in a hug that I knew she needed more than I did. "I just feel like he hates me, I don't like not having my best friend around" She whispers, breaking my heart, this was my fault, it was my fault Sam hated me and I couldn't change that without breaking Emmie's heart in the process. I knew I was living on borrowed time with Emmie and having the perfect relationship we had because as soon as she knew the truth I knew she would run, and I knew she would run to Sam, meaning there would never be a chance to try and make things right. "He will come around in the end, you're happy right?" I ask, as she pulls away from the hug. "Of course i'm happy, why would you ask that?" She chuckles. "I'm just checking" I mumble, pressing my lips to her forehead.

I look behind us and see Sam stood at the door. I look over at him and give him a small smile which he returns much to my surprise. He walks over to us slowly, and I take a deep breath not really sure on what could come out of his mouth right now. "Can I talk to Emmie?" He asks, as he gets close enough for Emmie to turn around. I look down at her, studying her face, looking for her reaction. She nods her head, I sigh and get ready to walk away. "Wait, Pel, I didn't realise how much you really cared about Emmie, i'm glad you guys are together and i'm sorry for being such a dick" He states. I nod my head. "It's fine" I reply, before leaving the two of them to talk.

Emmie's POV;

"Do you really mean that?" I ask, sitting down on the bench with Sam opposite the Dance Studio. "I hate the idea of you two together don't get me wrong, only because I know what his been like previously and I don't want you to be one of them girls, but if his making you happy then I guess I will stand here and accept that" He whispers. I nod my head. "Why do you hate him so much? you guys seemed fine to begin with" I whisper, looking up at him. He shakes his head. "It's complicated, to complicated to process right now but I promise when the time is right I will tell you everything, just let me figure it all out first" He whispers, smiling down at me. I nod my head, I wasn't really sure on what else I could say, or do for that matter. I wasn't going to push Sam to tell me something he didn't know fully.

"Shall we head back inside? Ash said about ordering Pizza" Sam chuckles. "You had me at Pizza!" I laugh back, before walking back into the studio with Sam, looking around for Perri which was something I had begin to do regularly. "Emmie, I can't believe how much happier you are" Warren states, coming over to me and Sam. I smile up at him. "What do you mean?" I chuckle. "You just seem so much happier, you're a positive influence on Pel, it's nice to see you both happy" He smiles. I nod my head smiling back. "If we're talking about Emmie changing lets talk about how much of a glow she has, when she was with Harry she just looked monotone" Mitch chuckles, causing me to roll my eyes at him.

We all walk back into the studio laughing about silly little things. "Can we take a group selfie? I wanna document this moment" I whisper, pulling my phone out and smiling at the lock screen photo, it was me and Perri in bed, cuddled up together, and I didn't have to hide it from anyone. "that sounds like a great idea Em" Ash smiles. "Okay but I want a group one and then I want one with me in it" I chuckle, indicating for them all to get into a group pose.

It only took them all a few minutes to make sure they all either looked good, had a decent pose, or was stood in height order. "Right are we all smiling or are we all copying Mitch with a serious face" I state, as Mitch cracks a small smile which I snap a quick photo at. Everyone always said Mitch didn't smile, but in this studio he was the one who smiled the most. "Okay, after three everyone shout Diversity" I chuckle, as they all roll their eyes at me making me laugh some more. "One.. Two.. Three" I shout. "DIVERSITY" I hear back as I snap a few photos. "Right, Em get in then, i'll take this one" Dani smiles, coming into the studio. "Wait, I want one with you in it too" I smile, pointing for her to and stand next to Jordan and Ashley. She smiles at me and walks over to them, embracing her sons in a hug. I snap some more photos smiling at them all. This was a moment that needed to be documented, this was the moment where everyone in this room knew their dreams were coming true, that everything they had worked hard for was now happening. This was the beginning of Diversity.

"Right come on Em, we can put it on a timer" Ash shouts, indicating it was now time for me to be involved in a photo. I walk over, standing in between Sam and Perri, who surprisingly had stood together and smiled and laughed with each other. My two boys finally getting along, everything felt complete, everything felt right, which is why my smile was probably a lot bigger than everyone else's in the final photo we took.

"I love seeing you happy" Sam mumble, from beside me making me turn and face him. "I am happy, but i'm happier than you are accepting this" I whisper, making him smile slightly, but it wasn't the smile I was used to seeing everyday. "I just don't want you to get hurt, and more importantly, I don't want to be the person that does it" He whispers, I look at him confused as to what he meant, but before I can ask him what he meant his at the back of the room talking to Jordan and Ashley. I guess it could wait till later.