Twelve Reasons.

Chapter Six.

Friday 15th September.

It had been two days since me and Harry had broke up, I didn't really remember anything from the last two days, it was like everything had blurred into one and I didn't even know what day it was. I felt like I shouldn't be this bothered, but part of me felt like I had lost everything I had. It felt like I didn't even know what life was anymore, I felt stupid for thinking this way but the last two years of my life had gone down the drain.

I had been at my own house for an hour before I felt like I couldn't stay in my bedroom. It was late afternoon and I was cuddled up on the sofa in one of Harry's old tops and some shorts, my duvet draped over the sofa, watching some sad love film. I couldn't help it but feel sorry for myself.

I was watching 'Five Feet Apart' I had a low key crush on Cole Spouse, and I felt that a sad film summed up how I was feeling today. But it wasn't long before my phone was ringing and Sam's name was flashing on my phone screen. "Hey" I whisper down the phone, hearing him sigh. "If you're watching another sad film I ain't going to be happy" He states, the dull tone in his voice, he had didn't really have any sympathy, he was still mad that me and Perri had kissed, but was fairly happy that I wasn't with Harry anymore. "I'm coming round, I want a tea" He says as I roll my eyes. "Yes Sir" I mutter. "And if you're still in yesterdays PJ's i'll flip" He chuckles, making me smile slightly. "Actually, get dressed we will go out for food" He laughs, Sam always thought of food, but he always tried his hardest to cheer me up, I was glad he was my best friend. "Okay" I whisper, not really in the mood to see anyone, even if it was Sam, I just wanted to mope around by myself and deal with it in my own way, which consisted of junk food and sad films. "I mean it Em, i'm not letting you sit there on your own and cry over that dick" He chuckles, I roll my eyes. "Yes, okay Sam I get it" I mutter, before hanging the phone up, not wanting the argument.

I look at the time on the clock in the lounge and see that its 4:58pm, I wasn't really feeling food, but maybe getting out the house would be better than sitting here thinking about things. I get dressed into some leggings and a baggy jumper, I leave my long hair down, not bothering to do anything with it, knowing Sam would be here any minute, knowing him he rang me when he was getting in his car and we didn't live that far apart, it was probably ten minutes walking distance if that. I leave my face natural, I wasn't impressing anyone so I didn't see the point in making an effort, a typical break up phase 1.

I jog back down my stairs to try and make my lounge more presentable, throwing my duvet into a pile in the corner and re-arranging the pillows on the sofa, taking the empty chocolate bar wrappers and my tea cup into the kitchen, knocking the kettle on in the process, getting both tea cups ready. I spray some air freshener around the downstairs area, trying to make it nicer than it was ten minutes ago as Sam knocks on my door. I open the door, and let him in, saying hi in the process, before we both walk to the kitchen. "Have you really just cleaned your house because I was coming over?" He chuckles, smelling the air freshener. "Maybe" I whisper, pouring the hot water into the cups as Sam passes me the milk from the fridge. "How are you feeling?" He asks, sitting down on a stool in the kitchen. "Sam old?" I state, but it's more of a question. "I know how you're feeling Em, I did go through a break up when Jade broke up with me." He whispers, he never spoke about it. All he ever used to say was that he wasn't mature enough for a relationship that serious at the time and that he wasn't the best boyfriend he could be. "I know, but every break up is different, it's typical for it to effect the females more than males, were more needy" I mutter, looking up at him as I sit opposite him, drinking my tea. He shakes his head. "You're not needy" He whispers, taking a sip of his tea. I shake my head "I'm not saying I am, but google says that's usually the case" I whisper, not wanting to look at his eyes. "As if you googled it" He chuckles, after swallowing his tea. I roll my eyes.

We sit in silence for a couple of minutes, but it was a comfortable silence. Me and Sam could be in the same room and stay silent and it never be awkward, it was just how our friendship was. "So, I was thinking we could meet some of the lads at nandos?" He asks, standing up from the counter and putting his cup in the sink, and washing it up, he always did it when he come round to mine, I think its because he thinks I would kill him if he didn't, he knows I'm a overly clean person. "When you say lads, do you mean the whole of Diversity?" I ask, rolling my eyes. "Emmie, I just want to get you out of the house, if you're not ready to be back here the spare room is still vacant at mine" He replies, standing in front of me. I shake my head. "I need to be an adult about this" I mutter, tossing my hair to the side of my head, running a hand through it. "Just come for some food, afterwards i'll let you watch as many sad films as you want, I will even sit with you" He whispers, smiling. I didn't know how Sam was still single, he was a great guy. Yes, he was immature at moments, and didn't always make the right choices in relationships, but he was always faithful, always full of love and I knew that the girl who ended up with him would be loved, I just hoped it never come between our friendship like mine and Harry's relationship had. "Lets go get food then" I whisper, walking to the hallway and slipping my converse on, I wasn't making an effort for no one today.

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The drive to Nando's consisted of me and Sam singing awfully, trying to dance along to upbeat songs, and for the first time in a few days I had smiled a real smile, a smile that I didn't think I was capable of smiling right now. "You seem happier already" He states as we pull into an empty parking space. I shake my head, laughing slightly. "Maybe" I whisper, stepping out of the car. "Shall we?" He asks, linking my arm through his. "We shall" I laugh, as we skip into Nando's seeing the rest of Diversity looking at us like we are mad. "I swear you two are secretly together" Jordan laughs, after drinking his water. I shake my head. "Besties" I chuckle, sitting next to Jordan and Sam on the other side of me. "Ordered everyone's usual if that's okay?" Ashley asks from the other side of Jordan, I smile at him. "So, I have some good news" Ashley starts, capturing everyone's attention. The whole table turn around and look at him, and that's when I notice Perri sat opposite me, this night just went from okay to bad in a second. "We've got some shows coming up in London, this is our time guys" He smiles, and the table erupts into cheers and claps, i'm happy for them, I am, but did this mean this was where Sam left and I was just a wondering memory in the back of his mind? "Aw, well done guys, you really deserve this" I smile, but it wasn't a forced smile, I really was happy for them despite the thoughts in my head. Sam gives me his award winning smile, because that's what it would become. They would be award winning dancers, they would sell out arenas and stadiums, they would have sell out tours, they would be big, they were Diversity.

"I'm just going to the toilet" I whisper to Sam, who nods his head as I stand up from the table, walking to the toilet. I just needed a few minutes, in the last few days I had gone from a happyish relationship, to cheating on my boyfriend, to finding out my boyfriend had been cheating on me for a while, to breaking up with my cheating boyfriend, to now finding out I would be losing my best friend for a while.

"Em?" I hear Perri ask from behind me, did he really follow me to the bathroom?
"What do you want?" I mutter, turning around and looking at him. "To start again? Start better than what we had" He whispers. I look at him, he looked genuine. "I shouldn't have kissed you and I shouldn't have said what I said at the cinema, so i'm sorry" He states, his brown eyes staring in to mine, making my heart stop for a moment in time. His eye's were really captivating, I found myself lost in them more times than I should be. "Do you accept my apology?" He asks, stepping forward and at that moment I realized I hadn't said a word to him since he had apologized. "I guess so yeah" I whisper, realizing how close he had got to me.

My heart was beating out of my chest. I didn't know why. "Because I think you're a really pretty person, I want to get to know you the right way" He whispers, his face inches away from mine, I think my heart had finally stopped in my chest, or it was really beating to fast that I couldn't feel it beating anymore. "Think about it?" He asks, kissing my cheek, his lips lingering there longer than they needed to. When I see his face again, he shows me his award winning smile, a smile that would stop people dead in their tracks to look at him. The cheeky smile.

His smile was the last thing I seen, before watching him away, the smile that made my stomach do flips the way Harry used to.