Twelve Reasons.

Chapter Eleven.

The dinner itself was awkward.

It was like there was tension between Me, Sam and Perri, and Mitch's comments about how cute me and Sam looked dancing was not helping the situation. I felt like I wanted the ground to swallow me whole. "Em, do you want to go and help Perri with the drinks please?" Ash asks across the table, I hesitated at first, did I really want to go to the bar with Perri when he was giving me what would be classed as a death stare across the table, but then I did want to get away from the awkward comments Mitch was making about Me and Sam. "Sure" I smile, forcing the smile.

As I walked to the bar to meet Perri, Craig David's voice filled the room, it wasn't loud music, but it was music that made an awkward situation better. "Hey" I whisper to Perri when I find him at the bar. He nods his head, looking at all the different drinks behind the bar. "Are you ignoring me or something?" I ask, turning to face him, touching his arm. "Why don't you go and ask your boyfriend if you can speak to me" He scoffs, making my jaw drop. "My what?" I chuckle, watching as his face turns serious, he wasn't joking. "You know there's nothing going on with me and Sam" I mutter, looking back at the barmaid who was listening to our conversation. "Why don't you just order the drinks and get this over with" I mutter, looking at the bottle of wine, I didn't drink but right now this wouldn't go a miss.

Perri goes ahead and orders everyone's drinks, looking down at me every so often. "I'll have a lemonade" I say to the barmaid, as she looks between me and Perri. Perri nods his head as if to confirm what I was saying, the barmaid bending over more than she needed to give Perri a glance at what she had to offer him. He rolls his eyes, and touches my arm, turning to face me. "So, I don't need to worry about you and Sam?" He smirks. I shake my head, a small smile on my lips. "There is nothing going on with me and Sam but he is my best friend" I whisper, realizing that Sam didn't ant anything to happen between me and Perri, well that's what Perri had said. "Why don't you stay at mine tonight?" He asks, smiling down at me. "I wouldn't get away with that, i'm staying at Sam's remember" I mutter, picking up the lemonade that had been placed in front of me. "I'm sure we can figure something out" He chuckles, carrying the bottles of beer to the table.

I follow Perri with the other drinks, placing myself back in between Sam and Mitch, looking at the left over Pizza on my plate, I honestly wasn't that hungry and I knew someone at the table would finish it off, food never went to waste with these guys around. "You okay?" Sam whispers. I smile and nod my head. "Just tired I guess" I whisper back. He nods his head. "We can head back in a min if you want? get an early night in" He smiles, I smile back, his smile was infectious. "Can do, I know I was going to ring Alex" I smile. "Alex?" He asks. I shake my head laughing, making Perri look over at me. "Other best friend" I smile. "No, you only have one and his here" He smirks. I roll my eyes, the jealously seeping in to the conversation and his tone of voice. "We will finish our drinks then we will go" He smiles, putting his arm around my shoulder, earning a death glare from Perri who I try to smile at, what was going on with these two?

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"Ill let you ring Alex, i'm going to get into the shower, if you fancy it afterwards we can watch that film you wanted to watch the other day" Sam smiles, walking around the apartment in his boxers, this was nothing new, but it made me see him in a different light. I honestly didn't know how he was still single, he had a great body, he had matured and was a lovable person. I definitely didn't have feelings for him, the thought of us two being together made me laugh, he was literally just my best friend, but thinking of people to be with, Perri would always drift into my mind. I had thought about it briefly, but I felt like I needed to get to know him better before we went down that pathway.

I pick my phone up and dial Alex's number, I didn't need to ring her, we text everyday but I didn't like the thought of lying to Sam. "Hey, you okay? You never call me anymore" I hear her voice fill my ears and I instantly smile. "Been a rough time, thought I would check in" I chuckle. "Yeah, cant believe you and Harry are actually over" She says sympathetically. "I know, but its for the best, his happier with whatever her name is and I guess its nice to be a free person" I chuckle, trying to block the thought out of my head that he is happier with someone else. "Still shit though isn't it? How's Sammy" She chuckles, I roll my eyes, of course she would ask how my attractive best friend was, I swear she had a crush on him. "His fine, dragging me to places, seeing different people, i'm crashing at his for a while, I'm looking for a new place if i'm honest" I whisper, not wanting Sam to hear what I was saying. "When you say new place, do you mean a new place to live or are you coming back here?" She asks. I would be lying if I said the thought of going back home hadn't crossed my mind. "I honestly don't know" I whisper. "I've thought about coming back home, but then I don't want to leave everything I know here" I whisper. "There's someone else isn't there? Because when you said the other day about a new place you said you had some viewings booked next week for here" She chuckles, I roll my eyes. "There isn't anyone else here" I whisper. "There totally is, you even dressed up for an Instagram post today, is it one of Sam's friends, is it Sam?" She chuckles as I shake my head. "It isn't Sam" I mutter. "So there is someone else" She chimes, I laugh. "I'm not saying anything, but I will come and see you soon because I miss you a lot" I whisper, I did miss her, Sam was my best friend and I wouldn't trade him for anything, but it wasn't the same as having the girls around for girly chats and girly time. "I need to go anyway, I've got to get to work night shift, but I will hold you to seeing you next week when you still come and view these flats" She chuckles. I nod my head. "Yeah, i'll see you next week" I whisper, as I hang up the phone.

"You looking at going back home then?" Sam says from behind me, how long had he been stood there? "I'm not sure, its just an option isn't it?" I laugh. He looks at me and tries to smile his famous smile, but it's faulted, it isn't real. "Sam, it's honestly just an option, I don't think i'm going to take a place there, plus its a chance to see Alex and everyone" I smile, trying to tell myself that I didn't want to move away from him, but when he was going to be going on tours and doing shows everywhere what did I have here once he was gone? "I know, I just I guess I haven't thought about us not seeing each other all the time, I guess the excitement of London got me all hyped up and now I've realized that one day you're not going to be here to tell in person, it's going to be over the phone" He whispers, sitting down next to me. "Right, we are not depressing this night, we are going to watch Adam Sandler till our stomachs hurt from laughing and then were going to have the best night's sleep and tomorrow you're going to go and rehearse you're little backside off until you can't walk and i'm going to go shopping and cook us a nice dinner" I smile, making him laugh. "This is why your my best friend" He whispers, kissing my forehead. I nod and smile up at him. "Exactly, you're my best friend, you're not getting rid of me that easily" I chuckle as Sam turns Sky Movies on and we get ready for a night of laughter.