Twelve Reasons.

Chapter Twenty.

Wednesday 3rd October.

I was sat with Alex, I had decided that I needed a girly chat before heading down to meet the boys. I had argued with Ashley all morning about him coming to pick me up after their show, I didn't think it was fair but he wouldn't take no for an answer, and kept saying it would be time to catch up, and by catch up I knew what he meant-  he knew about me and Perri.

"Are you sure this is the right thing to do? I mean its a big step for you not just your relationship" Alex mutters as we sit in Starbucks whilst I wait for my train. I had decided to go down late afternoon so that I'd be able to meet the guys at the hotel, but part of me knew Ash would be at the train station waiting for me. "It's something I want to do" I whisper, taking a sip of my latte. "Are you sure his not pressuring you into this? We never, and I mean never had this conversation when you was with Harry" She murmurs, rolling her eyes, I shake my head. "I want to do this" I reply, looking at my phone, I had a message from Sam saying how he couldn't wait to see me and that he missed me loads, I didn't bother replying, it was the same message I had received an hour ago.

"Why are you ignoring Sam? you usually cant get to him quick enough" Alex mumbles, drinking the last of her coffee. "his sent me three of the same texts in the last two hours.. i'm not ignoring him i'll see him later" I whisper, locking my phone. My lock screen had always been the same photo, it was always a picture of me and Harry but I had recently changed it to a photo of me and the guys during a rehearsal. Me and Sam was sat next to each other, I was grinning at the camera like everyone else, apart from Sam and Perri, Sam was smiling at me and Perri was looking at me, smiling slightly but you wouldn't know it if you didn't look at the photo close enough. "You're ignoring him and you know it" She whispers, checking her phone. I nod my head, she was right, but I didn't fully know why I was ignoring him, but part of me assumed it was the guilt of keeping a secret from him. I had never kept secrets from Sam, we was fully open about everything, I knew I could count on him for anything, the same as him with me. He had my back and I had his, and he was always there when the world seemed like a dark place. "You should get moving your train isn't that long away" She chuckles, breaking the awkward silence. I nod my head, standing up from the table and giving her a hug. I couldn't wait to see everybody again, some more than others, but part of me felt like everything I had heard from Perri and Sam wasn't true, I felt like they hadn't got on as well as I had hoped they would, I just hoped Perri hadn't let anything spill.

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Perri's POV;

"Why are you messing up the step? It's not even that hard" I groan to Sam, who was deliberately turning left each time instead of right, making him walk into me. "I'm not, you're supposed to go to your right" He shouts. "That is my right!" I shout back, squaring up to him. "I cant wait for Emmie to get here, it seems like you never argue in front of her" Jordan mumbles, pulling me to one side. "You need to calm down" He mutters, pushing me into the chair. "I'm fine" I mutter back, taking a sip of water. "You're going to hit him, you're going to tell him and it isn't you that needs to tell him" Jordan states, giving me the warning eyes he had given me for the last few days. "I just cant wait to see Emmie" I whisper, avoiding his eyes. "and her best friend feels the exact same way, I don't know how you guys are going to cope with sharing her" He chuckles. I roll my eyes. "She's my girlfriend" I mumble. "She's also Sam's best friend, this aint going to go down well" Ashley mumbles from behind us. "I like her a lot okay" I whisper, watching their eyes both go wide. "But you said-" Ashley starts but I cut him off. "I know what I flipping said okay, I didn't mean it, I don't mean it. I like her, I like her a lot" I whisper, looking down at the ground, smiling at the thought of Emmie being here later. "Then you need to make things right with Sammy before you tell him else he is going to kill you" Ash warns, before taking the new costumes to a different room. I sigh shaking my head. "I know I fucked up with saying what I did but I just want everyone to forget" I whisper. "Sam wont forget, he will hold it against you for as long as he can remember it" Jordan whispers.