Maybe This Time

Break

Jhoana

"And we haven't talked since this morning na tumawag siya sakin." I finished the story. Itong dalawa naman titig na titig sakin parang di makapaniwala sa nangyare.

"Gaga ka talaga! Bakit sinama mo pa kami kanina?! Dapat nagusap nalang kayo. Bes seryoso kelangan niyo magusap." Sabi ni Jia pagtapos akong batuhin ng unan. Ito naman si Beatriz parang batang nakikinig sa chismisan ng mga nanay nakatingin lang at nakanganga pa.

"Ayoko! Ayoko pa makipagusap. Hindi dahil ayoko makipagayos okay? Di ko palang alam sasabihin. Tsaka nagiisip isip pa ko at hindi pa ko tapos mag isip" I answered Jia.

"HA?! HUY DON'T TELL ME INIISIP MO KUNG?" Jia said shockingly. "Kung ano?" I asked curiously. Jusko ayoko talaga sa lahat yung di tinutuloy yung mga sinasabi nila. "Kung makikipagbreak ka na? Jusmiyo por santo Jhoana Louisse Agno Maraguinot. Isipin mong mabuti yan. Huwag kang magsasalita at magdedesisyon ng tapos. Hindi pinaglalaruan ang feelings ng isang tao tandaan mo yan!" Jia told me seriously. As in dead serious. "Kalma bes! Hindi naman yun yung iniisip ko! Nung sinabihan niya ko na gawin ko din part ko napaisip din ako siyempre. Masyado na ba kong selfish? Pangarap ko kasi talaga 'to, alam niyo yan. At feeling ko naman na pangarap nating lahat 'to ang maglaro in front of the crowd. Mahal ko naman si Marci pero parang hindi ko kayang pakawalan yung pangarap ko na nandyan na dahil lang sa love. Ayokong dumating yung point na magsisisi ako sa mga decisions ko kaya nagiisip ako. Sagutin niyo nga kong dalawa, selfish na ba ko?" I asked them seriously. This time medyo seryoso na din ako at deep inside medyo nalulungkot na din ako.

"Well honestly, coming from me na kakabreak lang from a relationship because of 'time' issues, I think no padin. I mean beh you know why Kianna and I broke up, and based on what you said, maybe I chose my dream. Right after break up it hurts so bad but now, yeah it hurts padin, but don't get me wrong, it felt a little better because di ko na siya nasasaktan while both of us reach for our dreams. I don't know, I don't make sense ata hahaha but that's just my opinion. You know better when it comes sa relationship niyo of course." Bea, na hanggang ngayon ay parang di padin tapos magbuild ng thoughts niya.

"No bes, hindi ka selfish. Like what you said pangarap natin 'to, pangarap mo 'to at walang masama na tuparin ang mga pangarap mo. Maybe kelangan mo lang ipaintindi pa lalo kay Marci how this means so much to you. Some more explanations I guess? Feeling ko naman maiintindihan ka ni Marci. We all know how understanding he is." Jia.

"Ayun na nga yung problem ko he's been sooo understanding, we all know that. At siya na nga mismo nagsabi nung nagaway kami na pagod na siya at gawin ko naman daw yung part ko. Ibig sabihin pinuno ko na siya ng sobra sobra at hindi ko na alam kung kaya niya pa kong intindihin." I answered.

"Oh maybe that's why he wants to talk to you kanina? Hey give him a chance" Bea, at this time mukang tapos na siya isolve ang puzzle sa utak niya. "Hay okay I'll think about it. Pwede relax muna tayo ngayon😭 baka malagot nanaman ako kay coach sa training mamaya." I said. I know naman na medyo naapektuhan performance ko kanina. Kasi nung tumawag si Marci medyo napaisip nanaman ako. "Yea right lagot ka na talaga. But talk to him asap!" Bea.

Beatriz

Y'all know how I get annoyed when Marci watches our trainings right? Pero sa kwento ni Jho I understood where both of them is coming from and knowing Jho? Matagal tagal na pag-iisip 'to.

Anyway, we watched some movie while resting. Can't eat alot din because baka antukin kami sa training. Afterwards we went straight to training na. As expected, Marci wasn't there.

"Water break guys!" Ate ly. We all went to the bench and if you can just see us you'll see how dead tired we are right now. "Jhow! Bat wala tayong audience ngayon?" Maddie jokingly asked Jho while me and Jia just looked at each other. "Wag niyo nang tanungin!" Jia answered then Jho smiled at her. "May topak ako! HAHAHA" Jho said which made everyone laugh🤦‍♀️ "Beh seriously talk to him ha don't ghost him naman and then pag tapos ka na magisip you'll come back to him, wag ganon ahaha" I reminded her. "Yes I will. Thank you😊" she said and sakto our water break is done na.

Training went on and as expected it was hell. We decided to have a team dinner. At first we can't decide where to eat buti nalang nag text si mom to invite everyone for dinner. Her treat daw to us before the season starts.

I'm now waiting for Jho, Jia, Mads, Trey and Pongs. Sila mga sasabay sakin sa car. The rest of the team naman nauna na sa house, they know where naman and my fam knows them na din so it's okay. "Ang tagal niyo naman" I told them. "Ate Bei alam mo naman si Ate Mads. Kala mo buong team pinaliguan sa tagal." Said Ponggay. When we are finally complete, we went to my house na din agad because we're so hungry na.

I'm seated beside Jho and Jia since we're the last ones who came here. While having dinner everybody's just laughing at each other's funny moments during trainings. I swear if you can see our faces when we're dead tired already you might laugh at us also.😅 Coach Tai loves that the most, more drills when we're all tired af already.

"Guys wait lang ha" Jho whispered to me and Jia while showing us her phone. Marci's calling. "Remember yung mga sinabi namin sayo kanina ha?😊 Talk to him. Try to make him understand you." Jia reminded and Jho just smiled at us.

The team's having dessert now and thinking if we should have a drink or not🤦‍♀️ Coaches reminded us na may training tomorrow and these girls justified na onti lang daw🤦‍♀️ "Nako wag na si baby besh! Look after us nalang. Di pwede malate yan bingo na yan kay coach! HAHAHA" Ate Ly said. "Oo nga aren't you guys tired hahah" I said. "WEH BEI IS THIS FOR REAL? YOU DONT WANT TO DRINK?" Trey said. "Hey! Duh I don't drink kaya" I said jokingly then everybody just laughed at me.

In the end everybody agreed to have some drink. Training? Coaches agreed. Little treat din daw nila sa amin since everybody's doing good in training naman. Let's think of it as a mini team building daw before the season starts. "Guys good news and bad news!" Ate Ly, who convinced the coaches, announced. "Bad news first. May training pa din tomorrow." No one was shocked😅 "Eto na good news! No morning training tomorrow!! Moved nalang daw sa afternoon. Whole day training ganun😊" then everyone rejoiced.

"Huy Bea! Tagal ni Jho ah" Jia. "I was just about to say that. Puntahan natin?" I asked Jia. "Oo baka mamaya ano na nangyare dun!" She said then we looked for Jho na. Either she's by the front door, right outside the gate, or my room lang yun for privacy.

Jhoana

*On the Phone*

"Hello Marci"

"Jho"

"I need to tell you something"

"Yes, I think we need to talk."