Maybe This Time

Alone

Beatriz

Marci and I were looking at Jhoana waiting for an answer. I asked Jho first but Marci's the boyfriend so whatever hay maybe it's time to try and spend the night alone again. "uhm beh sige go ingat kayo. i'll go ahead na we have training tomorrow morning pa." I said and tried to smile.

"ha? hindi Beatriz sama ka nalang samin gusto mo? Sama nalang natin si Bea! diba? Marci?" Jhoana said to and Marci. I'd love to have dinner with Jho but to be a thirdwheel sa kanila ni Marci? No way. I dont wanna look too single naman no.

"No na Jho :) Sige na i'll go na ingat kayo ha. We have training tomorrow wag masyado pagabi." I said and this time umalis na talaga ko. Buti nalang my house is so near ateneo makakapagpahinga ko agad.

When i got home i saw mom in the sala playing with george, my dog. "Oh anak andito ka na pala. Where's Jho?" Mom asked.

"Nag dinner kasama boyfriend niya. Do we have food? Im hungry na eh training was so intense awhile ago." I answered and immediately changed the topic. "Anak, can we talk? I will listen you know that." Mom said as she followed me to the dining area. Maybe it's time na din to tell her."Kianna broke up with me." I said. Since i'm still eating she just gave me a quick smile. After i ate my dinner i thought mom won't ask questions anymore since she knows that i'll talk about it when i'm ready na, i'll be the one to bring it up pa but then she told me that she'll go to my room pa because she misses me.

While waiting in my room mom went in with a white wine and sat on my couch. "Mom really? I have training tomorrow morning pa" i said with a face palm. "I know anak i just want to have some time with you! Eto naman." She answered. We had some few drinks pa before she asked me "Why? What happened? Can you tell me? I'm willing to listen, always." Hay it's time, I need to tell her. I took a drink before beginning my story.

"Well to make the long story short wala akong time for her. She needed me and I wasn't there. I declined some of her invites. I thought it was just the usual dates and she would understand because syempre pagod din sya sa training but no, she needed me pala talaga. Plus woke up late on our date that i planned pa i was supposed to make bawi that day and apparently pinuno ko na siya and just had enough of me. So yah, she broke up with me at 6 o'clock in the morning." I said. She's my mom of course she deserves to know that also. While saying those things it still hurts but i managed to control my tears naman.

"That's it?" Mom asked. "Uhm yes?" I said confused. "Do you still love Kianna?" Mom. "What do you mean? Of course ma we just broke up like yesterday" I answered. "I know you Beatriz, if yes, you must have planned already how to get her back. So what's the plan?" Ah yes about that.

"I wanted to win her back but then," I said with a sigh. I don't know why but i don't have this ~i'll get you back~ feeling? It's like there's something in ne that pushes me to just move on. I know it's my faul and I hurted Kianna sooo bad, maybe Ate Mika is right, Kianna needs to heal and me also. "You know mom Ate Mika, her teammate, talked to me. Maybe she's right maybe Kianna and I needs to heal on our own first." I continued. "If that's what you think Beatriz😊, basta remember that I am always here for you okay? Kahit mukang hmm I'm next to Jho kasi magkwekwento ka lang sakin pag tapos ka na ikwento kay Jho" Mom said with a laugh. Yea right well aside from mom si Jho lang din kasi yung di ko natitiis kaya kahit I want to be alone if I have a problem I just let her be with me. Aside from the fact that she won't stop until I let her, I guess it's also good to have a shoulder to cry on and that's Jho for me. Mom then gave me a hug then took a rest already.

Speaking of Jho, gabi na ah tapos na kaya date nila ni Marci? Pag yun di naka attend ng training tomorrow hay nako talaga.

From: Jhowjhow 💛🌻

Beh!! Are  you sure you're okay? I can cut this dinner short naman if you need me.

Huyyy okay ka lang ba? Tetext ko na si Tita Det di ka sumasagot masyado

Hay nako otw na ko Beatriz wag kang makulit.

Huh? She's on the way? Baka akala nito nagtatampo ako? Well partly yes because hey, I was the first one to ask Jho for dinner no. "Hay nako Beatriz! Akala ko nagkukulong ka nanaman diyan kaua hindi ka nagrereply pinakaba mo ko." Jho said as she entered my room. "What? No! Mom and I were just having some wine and talking, about Kianna." I said "I know i know! Ano ba beh kausap ko si Tita Det kanina! HAHAHA wag ka na magtampo! Dessert? Di ako nabusog sa dinner namin eh" She answered as she pulled me down to the kitchen. Hay nako this girl sobrang weird talaga but she always cheers me up.

This brought ingredients for smores for us to cook together, bonding daw.🤦‍♀️ "So what's the plan?" Jho asked me after putting our late ~dessert~ in the oven. "Huh what plan?" I said curiously. "Plan. Diba sabi ko sayo i'll help you to win Kianna back. Syempre di naman pwedeng basta kausapin ko nalang siya, I need to know your plan. So what's the plan?" - Jho. "Alam mo pareho kayo ng question ni mom kanina. Wala, walang plano." I said.

"What? Yung Beatriz na kilala ko di sumusuko, palaban, at laging may plano. So anuna? Beh I want you to be happy, I want your heart happy." - Jho told me. "I am still that Beatriz beh grabe naman I won't change okay. I mean I have you, I have my family, george, our teammates. I'm okay Jho don't worry I'm happy." I said. "Ako lang 'to Beatriz! Walang taong nagiging okay ng isang gabi lang! Pero ano nga bakit ang bilis mo naman ata sumuko?" Jho asked, and this time we're already eating our smores. "No naman it's just that I think Kianna and I needs to heal and rethink pa. Sige na let's eat nalang it's midnight na oh we have morning training tomorrow Jho!!" I managed to change the topic for the night.