SHAPESHIFTED (✓)

27. Oh my.... Magnus!

As Magnus started drifting off to sleep with his shadowhunter's soft long fingers wrapped around his fur, he didn't have the slightest idea that his messed up mind was about to resurface a memory he had buried deep down in the depth of his subconscious a long time ago.

~~~~Magnus' dream~~~~

"Stop being ridiculous, Math!" Magnus yelled, causing the blue-eyed boy's fist to tighten with rage. It was just a normal winter afternoon for the rest of the world, but for them, it was one of the worst fights in years. It started with a normal argument over their relationship but escalated quickly to one of their worst fights. They were now standing in Magnus' living room, throwing tantrums at each other.

"I'm being ridiculous! Are you serious!? I'm not the one who is trying to put something in place knowing it can never get like that!" He yelled back.

"Something! Something! Our relationship is just something to you!?" Magnus yelled furiously.

"You know what I meant, Magnus! Don't try to put words in my mouth!" He tried to say calmly, but anger was visible in it.

"I'm not putting words in your mouth, Math, that's exactly what you meant." Magnus seethed.

"No, I didn't! What is wrong with you today?"

"Oh! What's wrong with me? What's wrong with me is that my boyfriend of 15 years doesn't act like my boyfriend at all. He acts like I'm just a doormat for him. He only comes home when he needs me, else he always lives in that INSTITUTE of his, 15 years and I still don't get to call my boyfriend my husband, leave that, we don't even live together. Is it really too much to ask!?" He shouted at the top of his lungs, emphasizing the word Institute, dipping it with a venomous tone.

"Yes, it is!" The shadowhunter shouted back. "Yes, it is, Magnus. The Institute is my home, that's where I grew up. And you know really well how the Clave is! A Shadowhunter and a downworlder relationship might be acceptable, but getting married to one is still illegal. And, I'm sorry, but I'm not risking everything, everyone around me just to be married to you. We are living together as much as I can, I try to stay the nights here as much as I can, for 15 years we've struggled but are still together, why are you trying to risk everything just for a stupid wish!"

"Stupid! Are you kidding me, Matthew!? Wishing to be married and living with the person I love seems stupid to you. Is that what it is? Is that what we downworlders are to you Shadowhunters? Just a fucking doormat!" Magnus shouted, anger was pulsing through his veins. By this time his glamour was completely gone and his cat eye's pupil had a narrowest vertical slit, looking like a predator ready to attack.

"Stop it right there, Magnus!" The blue-eyed boy yelled back. "You know it really well I'm nothing like that stupid Clave, I don't see the downworlders as they do. I've always treated your kind equally, so don't you dare compare me to them. I try, and you know it. I've been trying my best for 15 years, what else do you want from me? Don't say marriage, because you know I can't give that to you!"

"If you can't, then why are you with me, huh? To use me as your shadowhunter's personal lifesaver? I'm so done being used by your kind! You Shadowhunters, Lightwoods, Augustines, Pangborns, Youngbloods! All of you only know how to use us downworlders for your benefit. To save your own ass!" Magnus shouted, anger taking control of him.

"MAGNUS! You're not being-"

"AND, WHAT ABOUT LEXI, MATTHEW? Is she the same for you!? Just an object to use like me!?"

"What the fuck, Magnus!? Why are bringing up Alexiane in this, she has nothing to do with our fight!"

"She has everything to do with our fight! She has everything to do with this! Do you have any idea how I put her to sleep at night when you don't come back here? When she asks about you!? How I manage to answer her questions about you? You're supposed to live here, with us!"