Why Am I Here? I am lost

- Pondering Thoughts -

I know there was never... anyone there, trying to speak to me.

"Just get some sleep" people would say.
Then the moment I wake up; arises the same thing, over and over again, to no different outcome.

They say that's the definition of insanity.
Isn't that ironic?

If things were different... would the insanity go away?

"There's no one around me, no one beside me. So why do I hear voices calling me, as if they were sitting right there in front of me?"

"Everything is so confusing"

Then...

"I know! I can hear him!"

I just wanted to be some place different than the place where it happened the worst. My fears and worry grew deeper and deeper until it hurt...

"I know, look at his face"

"Look at him"

"I know that face"

"That's the face of The Evil One"

"Seb"
"Seb"

"Go away from me."

"Seb, you are not The Evil One"
"You're seeing and hearing things again"

"Huh! Isn't that ironic."

"No, listen to me. Are you sure this is what you want?"

"I just want it to end."

"We can hear you"
"Look outside..."

It was calm. Relaxing. None of the feelings Sebastian could hold on to for a very long time. At that moment... he felt bliss.
Still annoyed at the fact no one was there when he looked.

"I guess these voices are real then, huh?"

"They're not! Are you kidding me?"

"What?"
"Then why can I hear you, and not see you? Why aren't you outside when you tell me to look!! Why? Is this some kind of joke?"

...there's so much more to life
for you to see...