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Chapter Eighteen [Its Me Who Makes The Monsters]

Its me who is my enemy.

Me who beats me up.

Me who makes the monsters.

Me who strips my confidence.

-Unknown.

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My warm breath turns to fog as it escapes my lips. I sit alone on the curb. I can't seem to hold a simple thought for more than twenty seconds. Every time I think of a positive, a negative laughs its way into my heart.

I had tried walking home. But I gave up when I realized I wasn't paying attention to the direction I was going in, I would end up getting lost if I didn't sit down. So I sat on the frozen curb. My jeans soaked in water from the melting ice under my butt, it doesn't bother me. The cold is refreshing, almost.

Ryder was supposed to drive me home from school today, but I didn't give him the chance. After Olivia came up to me and delivered the heart crushing news, I walked out the school doors.

I'm trying to tell myself that Ryder wouldn't do that to me, and that I should never listen, or trust Olivia. But I don't trust anyone, so why should I trust Ryder?

That's when I realize, I already do.

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I think its been an hour. I don't know.

My butt is numb to the point I can't feel it. My hands are dry and cold. So are my feet. I'm still sitting on this damn curb, my head in my hands. My legs asleep.

I think I heard a noise, but I can't be sure. My frozen fingers are covering my frostbitten ears. I suck in a deep breath when I feel a hand on my shoulder. I uncover my face to look at who is touching me.

"Hayden. . ?" Ryder asks. He is the last person I want to see right now. I still haven't decided if I want to believe Olivia yet.

"Go away." I whisper. I inwardly curse myself for sounding hurt.

"No. Whats wrong? What happened. . ?" He sits on the frozen curb beside me . I put my head back on my knees and try to ignore him. "Hayden, please."

"Why do you care?!" I rage.

"What?"

"I said, why do you care? Why do you care so freaking much about me? I'm nothing, and if what you told Olivia is true, I will fucking hurt you for hurting me, and I can't believe I trusted you. I trusted you. But I don't know if she was lying, if she was I will hunt her down and kill her. But, Why do you care about me?! I'm noth-" Ryder cuts off my emotional screaming rant by placing his hands on the side of my face and crashing his lips to mine. It lasted only a mere six seconds, but I was so surprised I swear the universe stopped spinning for those six seconds.

Ryder pulls away from me, but he is close enough that our noses touch. "Wanna know why I care so much about you?"

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A\N Super short, but that was intentional. The updates might be a little slow till Christmas, I'm working on a long chapter that I can upload either,

1. Christmas Eve.

2. Christmas Day.

3. The Day After Christmas.

You guys decide. I'll still probably have one or two short updates before then, but I want to have a super long, action filled, enjoyable chapter for Christmas, kinda like my Christmas present too you:)

Anyways, what did you think of this chapter? Why does Ryder care so much about Hayden? What are your thoughts on the band Falling In Reverse?

TELL ME!!!:D

(Please point out any typos)