love is like a roller coaster

♥ forty four ♥

no these are not tears in my eyes.
don't you dare come near me.

my eyes are releasing the frustration i feel.
i was so close, so close to being loved by someone.
what happened?

was it me?
i know i don't deserve you and i never believed that i did, no matter how many times you told me.
but i thought, that if you only loved me,
that i could hear your words,
and trust them.

i've never trusted anyone as much as i should.
not that i've been lied to so many times.
but i'm afraid that i will be.

even if you did love me,
it probably wouldn't last.
this is young love.
people change.
they grow.
they grow apart.

i just want to stop crying for once in my life.

because you were there,

and i thought,

for once,

that someone cared.