♥ sixty eight ♥

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i've been trying not to think about her.
not anyone in particular, just her.

the her i'll wake up next to,
the her i'll laugh with,
the her i'll love in the future,
whoever it may be.

i've been trying not to think about her,
because i know that if i think too much,
i'll realize that there's a very small chance
that there'll be a future
that i'll recognize.

things out of my control,
things i'm told i'm too young to change.
things that are changing,
whether or not certain people choose
to acknowledge them.

it aches to see this.
it hurts to know
that there might not be a her
waiting for me in the future.
there might not even be a me.

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