love is like a roller coaster

♥ ninety three ♥

for all intents and purposes,
you're not mine.

all these words,
they're empty.
they're pretending
to be something they're not.

but i never meant to make you cry.
so i should stop this now.

and yet,
i'm still a coward,
still that girl who's scared of love and roller coasters and who overthinks everything because all she wants is someone that finally loves her back.

and that's not you.
and i wish it was,
that we could be happy together and it could be easy.

but love isn't easy.

i cry whenever you do,
because it breaks my heart even more,
and although you don't
have a grip on my heart,
i care far too much for my own good.

still,
saying goodbye
might not hurt
that much.