love is like a roller coaster

♥ seventy four ♥

it's raining outside.

even though rain is supposed to be sad,
i feel oddly comforted sitting in the dark,
listening to songs
that i've never heard before.

the quiet rhythm of the rain outside only makes me feel safer.

yes, you are safe here, under the covers and only half-hearing the music from your phone. you're going to be ok. breathe. nothing can hurt you right now.

i learned to live with the rain at first, and now i depend on it more than i thought i would.

i need it to keep coming back so that i can remind myself of how human i am.

i can sit here, listening to the rain outside my window, and knowing that the middle of the night is when i can hear it best.

so i'll stay up late, and hug myself to sleep, and smile because i know i'm ok.