love is like a roller coaster

♥ eighty two ♥

i guess there's nothing really wrong.
i feel fine.
there's not anything big happening now.
i'm just a little tired.

i'm in a temporary inbetween,
between life and what's real.
and i can't decide what i'm supposed to feel.
or how i'm supposed to deal.

i'm horribly indecisive,
something that i hope you know.
but there's not anything to choose.
so i just feel a little cold.

it's kind of sad.
but i know soon i'll be busy.
and i won't have time for myself to just feel bad.

so i'll lay in bed,
with an aching head,
and tell myself i'm doing great.
and maybe tomorrow i won't go to bed quite so late.

and everything is fine.
i guess there's nothing wrong.
i just wish i wouldn't cry so much.
because my tears just aren't that strong.
and that makes me think that they aren't real.
so i cry more so i can feel.

but everyone's like this, right?
always thinking and itching for a fight.
i'm just kind of cold.
and i've never felt less bold.

so clearly everything is fine.
i'm just trying
not to let something define me.
i'm cold and and i cry and i'm gay.
but things could so easily just go another way.

so thank you for always listening,
i guess i'll hang up now.
just remember that i'm ok,
and don't listen to what i have to say.