Heartaches Made Her Changed (COMPLETED)

Chapter 13

"On how he stares at you which he didn't do to us from the very first day he stepped here. He stares at you like you're only the star in a dark sky. If you thought he stares at you emotionless? You got it wrong. Because in what we saw on the way he laid his eyes on you, it's passionate... it's priceless."

I was dumbfounded again. I don't know on how to react. Bakit parang...parang... the way he said those words, parang may kinalaman ako sa nangyayari? I am not stupid not to think that thing. But hindi ako puwedeng mag-assume na lang...

"W-what is your... point--"

He smiled sadly. What? "He is...inlove with you."

This time, I got the right prediction. Hindi na 'ko nagulat pero bakit parang the way he said it, he wasn't happy? It sounds like... he sudden feel loss?

"That...quick? And your voice... it's..." I don't know the right word to determine his voice.

"You are my sister and I know you very well. But...he is also my Senior. Kellie, I know na, hindi pa siya nag-confess sa'yo... busted na agad siya." He laughed bitterly. "That's how cruel you are with them. That's why I'm kinda scared of him because this is the first time I looked at his emotionless eyes turned into a warm, passionate, and effusive burning eyes. Nakakaawa siya, Kellie. Dahil...nakakatakot kang mahalin."

Of all the hurtful words he uttered at my whole life, this is the offensive and painful words that made me scorched. Ang sakit pa lang marinig sa kuya mo 'yong mga salitang sinabi niya. Not because he said it effortlessly, but because it's true. Pero hindi naman ako gan'on kasama. May rason naman ako kaya ko ginagawa 'yon.

"Hindi porke nam-busted ako, masama na 'kong tao, kuya--"

"I did not said that. What I mean is--"

"Hindi eh, yes! You didn't said that but... the way you delivered it, parang nayayamot ka sa akin. 'Di ba sabi mo nga noon, it's not bad to tell the truth? Bakit parang---"

"Yes. But after they confessed to you, you shouldn't just run away like you're not considering their feelings... 'wag mo silang takbuhan na para bang nakakatakot silang tao--"

"But if I do that... aasa sila---"

"That's your problem, Kellie. Nilalahat mo. There are still people who aren't desperate. Basta nakapag-confessed sila sa'yo, that's enough for them. They just wanna expressed their feelings kasi hindi sila mapapakali. They took the risk, then they'll face the consequences of it. If only friends that you could offer, then give it to them. Don't get used to reject people who aren't doing bad to you. Befriending with them won't hurt you. Tao rin kaming mga lalaki. And I do know on every rejection, could destroy us... if we are not that strong enough to accept it." Then he left me there. There was something hit my chest that pains me. Alam ko naman na nakakatakot akong mahalin kasi hindi pa sila nagtatapat, busted na agad. But what can I do? Ayoko silang umasa sa'kin kaya pati kaibigan lang ni-re-reject ko na. I just...just don't want to. I'm not fond of having many friends. Okay na ko roon sa iilan lang pero tunay. Kesa naman sa marami, pagtalikod mo may sinasabi.

Kinausap na ni kuya 'yong mga Seniors and students niya na pwede na silang umalis. Bale, kami 'yong nahuling umuwi. Hindi na nga kami nagka-imikan hanggang sa makarating kami ng bahay. Ewan ko. Bakit parang ako 'yong may mali? Ako 'yong may kasalanan? Napaisip ako. Ang swerte pala n'ong mga taong walang nagkakagusto sa kanila kasi wala silang pinoproblema. Na hindi sila makakasakit ng tao kapag ayaw nila ito. Kasi in my position? Ang akala nila maganda. Akala nila masarap 'yong maraming nagkakagusto sa'yo pero hindi. Kasi sa totoo lang? Mahirap. Ang hirap-hirap mag-reject. Kasi ikaw 'tong magiging masama sa paningin nila. Bakit ba hindi ako maubus-ubusan ng problema? Nagpapahinga na 'ko sa kwarto ko when my phone rang again.