Retributed

Chapter 40

Retributed: Chapter 40

~One Month Later~
~LJ P.O.V.~

In the last month, holy shit, Mercedes and I done broke up and got back together at least fifteen times and now we're officially done because I got bored with going back and forth. I don't even know why we kept breaking up, it was like one morning I'd wake up and be like "yeah, we not together anymore" and then two days later she comes back with some "okay, so we're back together again" and finally I said fuck off because it was just too much for my ass.

So ya boy is back to being single and I'm happy about that.

Also in the last month, I haven't said a word to Dad. That talk really just pissed me off because it told me all I needed to know about the mindset he's in. Kinda petty and over dramatic for me to completely stop talking to him but to be fair, I wasn't home much in the last month to begin with. So it was more of I just wasn't home to talk to him and when we were home at the same time, I just had nothin' to say. Mom was tryna talk to me to get me to talk to him but I kept telling her fuck no. All I'm gonna hear are words comin' from a man who's just gonna sit back and let himself go. I swore I wouldn't let him just sit back and go down easy, I'm gonna make it hell for him, make him keep on top of my ass, I don't care. I've already noticed how he's not even as concerned about his empire anymore, it's been a month of everything slowed down and he's not phased by it.

Right now I was sitting with Breezy at his place. He was smoking his cigarette while we kicked it out on his front porch. It was hot as hell today, easily in the high nineties and at this point I had to slip my shirt off. I didn't feel all the much of a difference but it was nicer than with the shit on. He already had his off when I came by and I saw his complete collection of the tattoos he had, damn nigga. Makes me wanna get all tatted up already but no one gonna do it for me so I'm stuck with the skin I got.

"That's your second one in like half an hour, nigga." I said when he took another drag, he looked down at me and blew out the smoke. "You good?"

"Relationship problems got a nigga stressed out. Don't even know where Vonnie and I stand anymore, she been stayin' at her friends house the last few nights because the arguing ain't getting any better. Kid, keep to being single, no kids or anything because you gonna be tied down to a lot of shit." He said with a shrug of his shoulders. His hair was back to being hella fuckin' blonde and I kinda wanted that too now just 'cause it looked interesting. Then again, being blonde is Breezy's thing so I ain't tryna hop on his bandwagon. 

"That bad?" He nodded. "Does Breezon know what's going on?" He shook his head 'no'. "Damn, I'm sorry to hear about that. Why not just break up and do that co-parent shit?"

"I'm in love with that woman and I don't want us to call it quits. We got way too many years between us to just walk away. It's too much to even try to explain and you don't needa hear me bitch about my issues. How are you though? Heard you weren't talkin' to Dad." He looked down at the cigarette, teeter tottering it between his fingers before bringing it back up to his mouth. I ain't used to seein' Breezy down like that, from what I heard he used to be wild and full of a lot of life but Trey said he hasn't been the same since what happened with Christian- which I wasn't around for so I don't know how to feel about all this. I just don't like seeing my brother hurting the way he is. I just feel like in this month alone, a lot has changed with me, like I'm really noticing just how people really are and I hate how down people are. Trey being completely shattered hurt me the most because I idolize the fuck out of him. The only two people who are truly happy are the two that smoke weed all day long- well Ty is always sad about Tilly Beans- which I don't understand his fascination with her. Never once have I understood it, am I missing something?