What is love: 2020

Chapter 10

"Halika na Martina Ellie napakatagal mo naman kumilos!" nakabusangot na bulyaw sa akin ni Krazielle

"Eh kung tulungan mo kaya ako Krazielle Tolentino,what do you think?" nakataas kilay na tanong ko pero umiling ito "Carry your own luggage, and excuse me what's the use of my stiletto kung magbubuhat lang ako ng luggage?" tukoy nito sa bago nitong biling stiletto.Natawa na lang ako saka dali daling hinila ang maleta ko pasakay sa SUV na dala nito

"Hoy Eidren umalis ka nga diyan, pwesto yan ni Ellie eh!" napakaingay talaga nitong babaeng to. I just gave Eidren an apologetic look he shrugged na para bang sanay na siya sa ganoong ugali ng kaibigan ko. Umalis siya sa may shotgun seat at pumwesto sa likod

"Hindi mo naman siya kailangang paalisin Zielle, okay lang naman ako sa likod" natatawang sabi ko but she just made a face "Bakit ayaw mo na ba ako katabi?" She acted like a dramatic idiot "Bobo" sabi ko na lang saka isinuot ang earphones at isinandal ang ulo sa may bintana

It's been 4 years since he left me. I still remember how he turned his back to me and how he stepped his feet away from me. I can still remember everything vividly as if it was yesterday. I was left with full of unanswered questions pero ngayon nasanay na lang siguro ako. Wala naman na akong magagawa kung ayaw niya na eh

Matapos niya akong iwan noong gabing yon ay nakita ko na siyang nagpapaalam kay mama Bel habang dala dala ang maleta niya.At that very moment,alam ko ng hindi ko na nga siya makikita at doon ko na rin sinimulang kumbinsihin ang sarili ko na hindi na siya babalik sakin. What we had is something that only the two of us could understand. After he told me what he feels for me, doon nag sink in sakin lahat. Kung para saan yung mga galaw niya noon. But I neither love him or like him that time.Until now. Maybe I just miss him. I miss my Mighty.

After he left, I tried consulting psychiatrist and talking to my parents. Noong kinausap ko sila about doon hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako, that accident that happened to me is like an angel in disguise. My parents were in the verge of separating but after knowing what happenned to me they bacame a parent. A stronger one. They always say sorry to me and I keep saying na hindi ako galit. What happened in the past,remains in the past. I thought nagka serious problem ako sa brain pero sabi ng psychiatrist normal lang daw naman. Normal lang naman daw kasi na automatic na kalimutan ng utak natin yung mga events na traumatic para sa atin. It is a way to secure ourselves.

During my first year of healing, Krazielle was there for me. She stayed by my side. Tinuloy namin yung business na hindi natuloy noon ni Daddy but I am managing it. I insist na magkaroon na lang ng sariling business. I didn't get everything for free dahil I want to be independent. I want to heal myself by being strong and not depending by anyone.Inutang ko kila mommy yung pinampuhunan ko. Nagtayo ako ng Laundry Shop. Inukapahan ko yung space yung may baba ng condo. Naghire ako ng ilang mga staff. It is getting bigger.I am proud of myself dahil noong una pa nga ay nagdadoubt ako. May mga times din na halos walang pumupunta at gusto ko na talagang tigilan yung kalokohan ko

Everything seems so surreal in my business when Krazielle introduced Eidren to me. He helped me with everything. Ngayon ay pumapatok na ito. Nagkaroon din ako ng mga suki from the other condos nearby mine. Halos lahat ng umookupa sa buong condo ay nagpapalaundry sa akin,well ako lang naman ang may laundry shop sa baba.

These two idiots is always by my side. They never left me kahit na sabihin kong okay na ako. At ngayon ay pupunta kami sa private resort nila Eidren. Noong una nga ay ayoko pang sumama kasi walang magmamanage doon sa laundry shop ko pero wala akong magawa nang kauspain ako ni Feigh, my most trusted staff, na siya na lang muna ang magmamanage and she will report everything to me. Wala na akong nagawa kaya sumama na din ako and I also need a space to breathe. Puro trabaho na lang ang inatupag ko noong mga panahonh sinasabi ko na gagamutin ko yung sarili ko. I never had a time for myself, to relax, to think about of everything bravely. I guess this is the time for it. Tatlong araw rin 'to!