What is love: 2020

Chapter 12

He immediately grabbed me in my arms and then he walked so fast "Hey where are you taking me?" Halos magkanda dapa dapa na ako sa bilis niyang maglakad "Why are we heading back there? Can't you see, I'm going home!"

"What's home? Whose home?" Mabilis na tanong nito habang dala dala pa rin ako

"Eidren!" Naiinis na sambit ko "Eidren might look for me, where the hell are you taking me Martin?" Tumigil lang kami nang aakyat na kami sa bato. Nauna siyang makaakyat and he led his hand to help me but I crossed my arms and refused "No Eidren might lo—"

"Oo nga at sinong may pakielam?" My face react disbelief  "Halika na sumama ka na sakin, ibabalik kita" I held his hand and we continued to walk

Pumasok kami sa isang katamtamang bahay. It look small on the outside but amazed is written all over my face when we went inside, it is very spacious! It's also clean

Inabutan niya ako ng baso ng tubig matapos akong paupuin sa sofa. He sat on the table in front of me and looked at me intently "Are you sober now?" Mariin nitong tanong. I shrugged

"Anong ginagawa mo rito? Did you look for me?" I saw how his brows furrowed but I smirk at him "You think so?" Bumuntong hininga lang ito "I told you that I need to stay away from you"

It's like a dagger to my chest. Nothing has changed from hearing it 4 years ago and now, still painful.

I grinned at him, hiding my pain "Yes and who the hell cares?" Confusion is written on his face, I smirk at him "You really think I would look for you?" His eyes became cold and I faked a laugh "Well damn you, Mr. Dale Martin Hernale who are you?" I saw pain crossed his eyes but it remained at me

I crossed my arms at him, I couldn't stop my self from being this angry "I never looked for you and I never cried when you walk away, hell no! Bakit naman ako iiyak eh iniwan mo na nga ako. You know what I felt huh?" He remained silent "It's remembering you. I should've never remember you—no, We should've never met" I saw how pain invaded his stoic face. I saw his emotion again after being away. He gulped and looked down

"I never thought that remembering would be that painful. Wala akong kaalam alam no'n dahil kakaalala ko lang. I was so happy damn it! Ansaya saya ko!" Pinunasan ko ang mga naglandas na luha sa pisngi ko "Kasi bestfriend pala kita! Na ikaw ang bestfriend ko! I was so happy that I want to talk to you all night long about those memories that almost fade pero anong ginawa mo? Iniwan mo ko dala yung memories na 'yon. I hate being your bestfriend! I hated it" Doon na ako humagulgol, naramdaman ko na lang na niyakap ako ni Martin at isinadal niya ang ulo ko sa dibdib niya

"Sorry, natakot ako Martina. Natakot ako na baka ngayong malaki ka na maisip mo na kasalanan ko bakit nawalan ka ng memorya noon. Natakot ako na baka layuan mo ako kaya—"

"Ikaw ang lumayo" I said in between sobbing. He tried to hush me but I kept crying and crying my lungs out "Best friend kita eh, paano mo yon nakaya?"

Hinaplos niya ang ulo ko tulad ng lagi niyang ginagawa "Hindi ko kaya. Everyday feels like hell. There's been many times that I've been wanting to come back, to come to you and to joke with you but everytime I thought about the pain I could give you, my feet starts to walk away further more" 

"Huwag mo na uulitin" Tumingala ako sa kaniya na basa pa rin ang mga pisngi ng luha "Huwag ka na ulit aalis, kapag naiisip mong gusto mo ng umalis talk to me. Let's solve the problem and Let's not walk away to each other" pinunasan ng hinalalaki niya ang luha ko at nakangiting tumango "Antok na ako, uwi mo na ako" I yawned and he laughed

"Hindi kita iuuwi kay Eidren" My eyes widen, I glared at him "Yes I said that I'll take you home but I never said when and whose home" tatawa tawa ito sa akin . I grabbed the throw pillow and throw it at him but he just avoided it