Perfect Heartbreaker (Heartbreakers Series #2)

Chapter 26

Chapter 26

Tahimik lang kaming dalawa ni Leion habang pauwi. Hindi ko na masubukang maghanap ng masayang mapag-uusapan dahil sa mga iniisip ko.

Ang ganda ni Eva kanina. She's smart and talented too. She's kind with other people except me. She has all the time in the world.

That's why she was so confident; because she has control over everything.

Ako ba? Why was I so confident before? I was just the average student. I joke around. I don't take things seriously. Everything is light for me before.

Ang lagi ko lang iniisip noon ay kung ano ang magpapasaya sa akin. I take things head on kung iyon ang tingin kong magpapasaya sa akin. It's alright to make mistakes because there's always another day. I thought I can always do better the next time. No need to rush things. No need to have a hard time.

It's always your choice kung pipiliin mong maging masaya o hindi. That is what I believe in before all of this happened.

Yeah right, Nicodaine.

What an actual mess.

Ngayon alam ko na na kahit naman piliin mong maging masaya, hindi naman agad -agarang mawawala 'yung sakit na nararamdaman mo.

It's easier said than done.

How can you be happy if everything just hurts? How can you choose to be happy when everything is dark and blurry?

Piliin ang maging masaya... kahit na nasasaktan si Mama? How can I?

Tumanaw ako sa labas ng bintana para hindi makita ni Leion ang mga luhang namumuo sa mga mata ko.

I plan on finding a part time job. 'Yung malapit lang para hindi ko masayang ang oras ko.

Naghahanap na rin ng universities na papasukan ang mga kaklase ko. Ang iba, mananatili sa Torrero University. Ang iba, maghahanap ng university na forte ang art-related courses. As for me, I don't think I'd be able to stay at Torrero University. Malaki ang tuition. I don't think we could afford it right now. Siguro pagkatapos na lang ng pagpapagamot ni Mama... babalik ako.

I sighed. Ang dami ko nang plano sa isip ko para sa susunod na mga taon. I wanted to organize my thoughts in order to work everything out.

Hindi na kasi puwedeng magpakasaya na lang ako tulad ng dati.

"My Mom..." Agad akong napalingon kay Leion nang magsalita s'ya. He glanced at me and I smiled. "She wants a painting for our living room." Aniya at agad akong napatitig sa kan'ya.

His mom... okay na sila?

"Really?" Ngumiti ako.

Tumango si Leion at ngumiti s'ya. I bit my lip and a warm hand covered my heart.

"Sure! Anong painting ba ang gusto n'ya?" I asked.

Kumunot ang noo ni Leion at napa-isip. He glanced at me and he looks like he doesn't really know what to say.

"Anything." He said.

Nagtaas ako ng kilay at ngumiti.