Spectacular Love

Chapter 02

Acting

"Okay."

We both stood up. He was the one who left first. Napanguso ako. Hindi man lang nagpaalam sa tatlo. Since nakalayo na siya, ako na ang nagpaalam muna kila Tonia.

"Hey. We're just going to talk outside." I said and the three of them looked so serious and worried na. I sighed. Kahit ako worried na rin, sobra sobra na kaba ko.

"Tell him, Tinay." Ace reminded and I just let out a faint smile. I smiled at them for the last time bago tuluyang sumunod sa kanina pang umalis na si Cob.

I just noticed na nasa roof deck na ako ng Straight Up and I saw Cob sitting on some bench. Nagdalawang isip pa ako kung lalapit ba ako, but I did anyway. He's looking at me now, again with his eyes screaming suspicion. My heart started to pound so fast again.

"Come here." His voice was a music to my ear. 'Yong tipong mapapasunod ka dahil sa lambing at ganda ng boses niya. No wonder he sings well.

Nang makalapit ako sa kaniya ay umupo ako sa katapat na bench na inuupuan niya. Before saying anything, I observed the place. May mga tao pero mabibilang lang. They all looked like they're having fun. I want that too. I just want to have fun and get wasted. If I could only escape from here, I would do anything. But the thought of Cob being here made me change my mind. Gusto ko pa rin talagang makasama siya kahit abot abot langit na ang kaba na nararamdaman ko.

"What do you want to talk about, Cob?" I said, hiding the uneasiness I'm feeling right now.

"Why didn't you tell me agad, Tinay?" Now I'm confused.

"About what?" Then my breakup with Ethan popped up in my mind. Oh that!

"You and Ethan." He confirmed.

"It's no big deal, Cob. I just thought that it wasn't necessary for me to tell you guys anymore." I apologetically said. I saw his broad shoulder going up and down, sighing. "Tsaka, kanina lang nangyari 'yon, e." Halos hindi ko na marinig ang sarili kong boses dahil sa hina nito.

"Kahit na, Tinay. We are best friends, alright? It's only natural for us to tell each other everything. Lalo na kung nasasaktan na pala tayo." I stiffened the moment I heard what he said, 'yung panghuli. "So, tell me, Tinay. Are you hurt?" I didn't answer. I couldn't answer. This is too much to bear.

I felt my eyes heated as tears started to form in my eyes. Tumungo ako so that he won't see my face, as I was about to cry already. I'm hurt, Cob. I am so hurt but not because of my breakup with Ethan but because I am so damn in love with you and I can no longer contain it. It's making my heart ache so much.

"Let me rephrase the question, Tinay." He stopped, not wanting to continue but he did anyway. "Are you hurt because of what happened between you and Ethan?" Again, I couldn't answer. This is too much.

My tears started to run down my face. I sobbed as I can no longer suppress the pain that overcame my heart. Hindi ko na alam kung paanong dahilan pa ba ang sasabihin ko. I don't fucking know anymore. Nahihirapan na akong mag-isip ng idadahilan sa kaniya para lang hindi niya malaman na mahal na mahal ko siya.

"Or..." I waited for what he's about to say. He sighed before continuing. "Perhaps you are hurt because of me." The latter broke my heart into pieces and that wasn't even a question but a strong suspicion. He said as if he knew how hurt I was. I tried not to let out a loud cry. I need to get my shit together.

"Tinay," he sweetly said as his hand tried to reach my chin so he could lift my head, but it stopped midair. He was confused. Ibinalik niya sa pagkakapatong sa tuhod niya ang kamay niya. Nanatili akong nakayuko.