Spectacular Love

Chapter 16

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I felt like my world sank as well. So, she's back, huh? Hindi naman sa ayaw ko pero tangina, parang ganoon na nga. Natatakot kasi ako. I'm scared because Jacob might go back to her now that she's back. I'm scared that I might suddenly become a rebound.

It's not that I don't trust Jacob. I just don't trust myself with anything. I felt like something that would totally break my heart would happen. I may be overreacting, but what can I do? I'm really scared.

"So, she's back?" I asked, trying my best not to sound bitter. He nodded and then parted from our hug. He looked away.

"And you knew about this?" I asked him another question.

"She came back 2 days ago and kanina ko lang nalaman," he said, and I sighed, trying to contain my emotions. As of now, gusto ko na lang makauwi. Ayoko na makipagtalo or makipag-usap kung tungkol lang din naman kay Mara.

I want to hate her so much and yes, I really hated her. But as I thought of Jacob loving her so much, I couldn't hate her anymore. Because I am well aware that there is something good in her which made Cob love her. For five whole fucking years. And alam kong wala akong panama roon.

"I-I should go," I said, opening the door of his Sedan.

Nang magbukas 'yon ay lumabas na ako. I didn't even wait for Cob, but I knew he was following me from behind. Tumungo ako, wiping the tears that started running down my face again.

When I was about to enter the building, Cob pulled my hand which made me face him. I looked at him in the eye, didn't even bother wiping the remaining tears on my face. He looked shocked, though. He suddenly hugged me and caressed my hair.

"I am sorry," he said, still caressing my hair. "I really didn't know that she's back, please. I love you, okay? I love you..." he reminded me of his love for me, but I couldn't grasp my own thought of believing him. I wanted to believe him so bad pero nauunahan ako ng takot at sakit.

A lot of what if's invaded my mind that night. Halos hindi ako makatulog. Ace wasn't home. And I knew that Lei and Tonia were already sleeping at this hour. It's 12AM and I'm still wide awake. I couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about a lot of things that might happen soon even though I didn't want to even think of it.

Nang mag-1AM na at hindi pa rin ako nakakatulog, I went outside my room. Dumiretso ako sa kitchen para kumuha ng gatas sa refrigerator. I poured some on my glass at ibinalik ang box sa ref. Umupo ako sa couch sa living room at binuksan ang TV para manood saglit ng Netflix. Pampaantok lang.

I was in the middle of watching a series when someone knocked on my door. I arched a brow with the thought of who might that person be, sa ganitong oras pa. Oh well, ibinaba ko saglit 'yong glass sa coffee table and I stood up. I went to the door and opened it.

My eyes widened when I saw Jacob standing outside. He was about to knock again. He smiled when he saw me. A tired one. I opened the door widely so he could enter my unit. I closed the door and watched him took off his shoes.

"Bakit nandito ka? Anong oras na, o." I said, while checking the time on the wall clock above the door. I looked at him again and saw him staring at me, with so much affection.

"I didn't want to leave you all alone here," he said calmly habang inaabot ang kamay ko. When he reached for it, he pulled me to the living room at pinaupo ako sa couch. "I want to be with you," he added. However, I just stared at him. I didn't know what to say.

He leaned forward to kiss my forehead, then down to my nose. He moved away a little bit while staring at my lips. He gulped for a second before talking. "Can I?" He asked, still staring at my lips. I nodded.