Just By Putting On a Smile

Chapter 4- You're Blushing

**Demi's POV**
Tears well up in my eyes. I've been trying to hold it in all day, and I feel I have to let it out. I scroll through some stuff on my phone, reading all of my hate comments and threads on Instagram and Twitter.
'Demi Lovato's Thunder Thighs.'
'Demi Fatsvato'
'Demi Should Kill Herself'
'Demi is so Ugly'
Just some of my favourite phrases.

"Dem can I come in?" Shit. My eyes. They're red and puffy, she'll be able to tell I've been crying. I could say I fell asleep and just woke up now?
"Yeah just coming."

I make my way over to the door and open it.
"Sweetie.." She takes my hand and leads me over to the bed.
"What happened?" She said.
"What do you mean? I was- asleep and I just woke up." I reason.
"Dem, give my your phone." She demands.
"Why? I'm okay!" I just shouted at her, she's gonna hate me. Her face softens.
"Dem I just want to help," She says in a voice filled with emotion and sadness.
"You don't know me and you don't want to. I'm an absolute nightmare, I'm okay."
"I don't know you? B-but I've tried so hard to get you to open up." She has a hurt face, watching her like this makes me want to burst out in tears.

A tear falls down my cheek, I notice a tear on her cheek and I burry my head in my hands and silently cry. I feel a hand on my back.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry-" I say really quick freaking out.
"Dem, shhh I know." She says with a comforting smile.
"But I just made you-"
"Dem it's fine,"

We hear a knock on the door.
"Hola guys can I come in?" Kelly looks at me and I nod. Kelly gets up to let Paulina in,
"Hell- wait Demi are you okay little sister?" She says noticing my tear tracks.
"Nothing."
"Is she okay?" Paulina directs at Kelly.
"I mean no but she wouldn't tell me." Kelly responds.
"Because there's nothing to tell." I say.
"Dem can I fix your makeup?" Kelly says.
"Yeah we should that's fun to do." Paulina says.
"Ye- I mean only if you want to." I say.
"Dem we wouldn't have asked if we didn't want to." She takes my hand and leads me over to the chair.

She passes me a makeup wipe to wipe of the remainder of my makeup from earlier. I don't want them to see me with no makeup on, I look awful! I reluctantly hold the wipe to my face and rub of my makeup.
"Dem you look so pretty without makeup on!" Kelly gushes.
"She looks always beautiful," Paulina says muddling up her words.
"No I don't guys," I say looking down.
Kelly applies my concealer and foundation, then moves onto highlight and bronzer.
"Kel your so good at makeup!" I compliment her.

Paulina then does a bit of dark eyeshadow and mascara. I just let my blonde hair down in slight waves with my pink dip dye.
"You look so cute!" They both gush over me, honestly I hate being the centre of attention.

We all make our way down to meet Simon in the lobby. We see him and 4 other boys, who are they?
"Who are they?" Paulina says.
"I think they're managed by Simon, I don't know though." Kelly says.
"Wait! Are they One Direction?!" I whisper scream.
"Fangirling there Dems?" Kelly chuckles.

We make our way over to them and Simon turns around.
"Oh hey girls. This is One Direction, they were driving back from the studio and it's near here so I invited them, they're from the UK so they're not often here." Simon said.
"I'm Harry, nice to meet you,"
"I'm Louis."
"Hello I am Liam."
"Hey I'm Niall," His voice makes me melt with his Irish accent. His blond hair is perfect, and his sparkling eyes.
"Nice to meet y'all, I'm Kelly."
"Hola, I'm Paulina."
"H-hey I'm Demi." Niall makes eye contact with me and it makes my heart melt.

We all walk into the restaurant and sit at a big table. Kelly nudges me,
"Hey, you're blushing." She smirks
"No I'm not Kel."
"Yes you are, you're so into Niall." She says with a big smile on her face.
"No, I don't even know him." She just shakes her head and we all sit down.

We all talk till the menus come, I get to know Niall, he seems really nice. I look at the menu and try and find something light. I guess I could get a chicken burger with a side salad? Chicken has barely any fat in it and I won't eat the bun. I can't make anyone suspicious.

We all order and talk till our food comes, everyone starts eating and I can barely get myself to pick up my fork. I feel like everyone's staring at me and nobody's even laid an eye on me, I hate being like this but I need to loose some weight. I eat some of the salad and my shaky hands pick up the burger. I reluctantly take a bite, and repeat this until it's 3 quarters of the way done. I excuse myself and make my way to the bathroom.

I check nobody is in any of the stalls and rush into a stall and shove 2 fingers down my throat. I keep on gagging until finally everything from that night was spilled out in the bowl. I make my way back to the table and act like nothing happened.

"We should hang out some time," Niall says to me.
"Yeah, that would be fun." I say trying to contain the pink appearing on my face.
"Can I get your phone." My face drops.

I've got so much on there, I'll just swipe up Instagram at least to get rid of all the hate comments I was reading. I pass him my phone and he goes to contacts. He enters his number and his name as 'Nialler <3'. He smirks at me and gets up to leave with the rest of the boys, leaving me with rosy red cheeks.

Kelly nudges me,
"Stop." I warn her in making her giggle.