(obv i have no clue if Taylor was even at the wedding or any details at all so this one shot is purely fiction)
Taylor's POV
I stand next to the alter, looking around as the entire place is dressed in delicate pastels and white accents. Ben is standing about six feet away from me, his best man and groomsmen standing next to him. I'm Laura's maid of honor, dressed in a tailored pastel dress, my makeup done and my hair curled as we wait for Laura to walk down the isle. I see her daughter who is like my child sit with Laura's mom, giggling happily on her grandmas lap. I helped Laura raise Ella ever since she was born, I took care of her on set when Laura was directing or filming, I babysat her when their babysitter cancelled last minute and Laura and Ben were going on a date night, I experienced Ellas first steps with Laura, I treat her like my own. Suddenly a song starts playing in my head, the lyrics coming in so clearly even though no music is playing.
Summer after high school, when we first met
We make-out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my eighteenth birthday, we got matching tattoos
I laugh inwardly to myself as I think of Alex's love is pain tattoo and Pipers beauty fish tattoo. God those scenes felt real, the chemistry was so real when we were shooting I couldn't help but crave more and more each time.
Used to steal your parents liquor and climb to the roof
Talk about our future like we had a clue
Never planned that one day I'd be losing you
My chest tightens as I think about the day Laura came into my trailer, announcing that Ben had proposed to her. I was happy for her because I saw the joy and excitement on her face but I couldn't help but break into a million pieces knowing that I've officially lost her. Knowing that she doesn't feel anything towards me, I'm just a co star that she has to kiss for money. Music starts playing and everyone turns to Laura walking down her isle, everything about her is breathtaking. Her dress, her eyes, that smile, Laura in general. I can't help but tear up a bit as we make eye contact, my heart being torn in half each step she takes. I strain a smile on my lips as tears silently fall down my face.
In another life, I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away
She walks up next to me at the alter, glancing at me as I give her a reassuring smile but the pain truly showing in my eyes. Thank god I make a living as an actor because if not I would've completely broken down by now. Their hands slide into each others as they look at each other, a smile on both of their faces as I feel another pang in my chest.
All this money can't buy me a time machine, no
Can't replace you with a million rings, no
I should'a told you what you meant to me, whoa
Cause now I pay the price
I think back to all the times she would hold me on set. When I had a bad day she was the only one who would and could comfort me. She would always hold me extra close in group photos or in scenes. When we played Alex and Piper she made it feel like she really meant it and she wasn't just playing a character. I wish I told her how I felt when I had the chance, before she met Ben, before she got engaged. I grip the flowers in my hand as they say their vows. I know she only likes me as a friend, I know it's selfish of me but I wish Laura could see how Ben truly is. When I mentioned Laura on a show, saying how great of a kisser she is, that night Ben came to my apartment and threatened me, telling me that I need to stay away from his fiancée or else he'll beat in my money maker. That night I cried myself to sleep, Laura's contact on my phone but I didn't call her, I couldn't..she loves him..and I can't get in the way of that. "Do you, Laura Helene Prepon take Ben Foster to be your lawful wedded husband, through sickness and through health, through love and through pain?" The suited main says and I feel myself starting to shake. This is it. I bite my lip to keep myself letting out a cry of heartbreak as she nods her head, smiling that heart warming smile.
In another life, I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
"I do" she says, squeezing Bens hands. "And do you, Ben Foster take Laura Helene Prepon to be your lawful wedded wife, through sickness and through health, through love and through pain?" The suited main says once more, looking at Ben. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. My chest feels like it's going to explode as my lungs contract, watching them. "I do." he says and I look down at the floor, the forced smile still on my face as tears stream. "By the power invested in me, I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride." He says and everything goes in slow motion. Ben wraps his arms around Laura and kisses her passionately, jealously, pain, and anguish flowing through my veins as they hold hands and walk down the isle together. I quickly excuse myself, not knowing if I could make it back down the isle as I walk into the empty reception hall. I drop my flowers onto the floor and lean up against the wall, letting it all go and crying out in pain. I wrap my arms around myself as I my knees buckle, allowing myself to slide down and crumple against the wall. I sob hard into my hands, my body shaking as I feel my lungs gasp for air. "Why..why.." I keep repeating over and over again. I miss the feeling of her soft lip when we were doing scenes, I miss just Laura and Taylor, Vauseman, both of us against the world. It's never going to be the same again. I continue to sob so hard that I don't notice as Laura and Ben walk into the reception area, the procession following behind them. "Taylor?" Laura's voice pierces through my sobs and whimpers. She's standing in front of me and I freeze, my tears still silently flowing as she helps me up, our hands intertwining. "Taylor are you okay?" she asks as I look at Ben. He gives me a death glare and I quickly tear my hands from Laura, tears still flowing heavily as he wraps his arm around her waist. "Yeah..yeah I'm okay..congrats Laur, I need to go home now I'm sorry" I quickly say, putting my flowers on a table and running out of the procession area as fast as possible, ignoring Laura's calls to come back.
The one that got away..
