That Loveless Marriage(Completed)

Chapter 28

I was up all night thinking what did Blue mean by what he said.It gives me so much meaning.

I don't know what to think anymore.

Why is that he became like that?I couldn't remember what did i do to him that can make him act like that.

Why is that he's torturing me with his words?It hurts me alot,so much that I can't stop myself from crying.

I badly wanted to talk to him.A serious talk.But...so many but's.

But the time i look at his face,i can't utter even a single word.The words that wants to slip out from my mouth backfired.His cold gaze at me makes me sick.

I can't even see any single emotions in his eyes.It's dark and blank.

The Blue that i love is gone.He's gone.

I am supposed to be angry at him for what he did.For what they did.For cheating on me.For lying on me but I'll just fool myself if I'll tell him to leave me because i know i can't.

I am afraid,scared,hurt and pain is slowly eating me inside.Frustration is killing me.

And...and he doesn't told me who's with him.

It could be her,Elexa.And i also wish that it was Zarith with him.

Shit!What to do?

Nakatulog ako sa sobrang kakaisip at nagising ng madaling araw ng may marinig akong kalabog sa labas ng bahay namin.

I slowly get up and see it on the window.

It's his car.It's him.

I look at the wall clock to see that it's already 3am.

Again,i bring back my gaze at Blue's car.Only to see him w-with Elexa again.

I did what i can only to hold back my tears but it burst out when they kiss each other like there's no watching them.Like they were not in front of our house.

H-how could he?

Is he really serious on what he said yesterday?

Nilinisan ko na ang bintana at dahan dahang napaupo sa gilid ng kama.

All went back.From the day when i first meet Elexa.To Palawan.W-when i saw them kissing in front of our house.A-and the sex video.And now,again!He do it,again!What just i see is them,kissing.I don't know before they get here.I don't want to think what they do earlier.It makes me mad and i wanted to wreck that bitch neck but i know, I can't.I just can't put my baby's life in danger.

Humiga na lang ako ng patagilid at humarap sa bintana,only to see how the stars shine.I just find my self crying and wiping my tears away.

How ironic that what all i said way back before we get married,backfired.

Nung sinabi kong hinding-hindi ko si Blue mamahalin but here i am.Crying in disdain because I'm hurt.Kahit anong reklamo ko noon kung gaano ako nabibwesit sa kanya ito ako ngayon at minahal ko sya.Kung paano ko sya isinumpa at kung paano ako nanumpa sa sarili ko at sa harap ng mga magulang ko na kailanman hinding-hindi ko mamahalin ang taong pinakasalan ko at pinakasalan lang ako just because of needs.But who the heck i was fooling?I know i am inlove with him and i just can't easily get rid of it.