Closing the Books

C22

Napilitan akong hilahin palayo sa booth namin si Andrew kasi alam kong hindi kami makakapag-usap nang maayos kung nandoon kami

I told him that I would listen to him and I just can't forget about that just because he seems to be enjoying himself

"Saan kayo?" Ale asked

"Jan lang. Balik lang kami mamaya" she nodded and then I pulled Andrew away from them

Narinig ko pa ang mga pang-aasar nila pero hindi ko na pinansin

"What's the matter?" Andrew asked me

I motioned him to sit on the high chair beside mine. I called the bartender to order us some drinks then I gave my attention back to Andrew

"You tell me what's the matter"

He looked confused for a moment but it didn't take him long to realize what I meant.

"Oh" the bartender placed our drinks in front of us and Andrew played with his glass first before sighing

Masyadong malakas ang tugtog at alam kong hindi ko siya maririnig kapag nagkwento siya kaya inurong ko ang upuan ko palapit sa kanya

"What happened to your confession?Basted ka?" hinaluan ko ng pang-aasar ang tono ko para pagaanin ang loob niya pero sinamaan niya lang ako ng tingin kaya natawa ako

"She was actually my ex. Well, not technically pero parang ganun kasi mutual. Ah basta ang gulo!" ginulo niya ang buhok niya habang nakapatong ang dalawang siko sa counter top

Tumaas ang kilay ko sa inakto niya at uminom muna sa baso ko bago inisip ang susunod na sasabihin. So he was actually asking for a second chance?

"Hoping that love will be sweeter the second time around?"

"You can say that, it's just that...I messed up the first time and I really want to make things right with her but it's like she doesn't even want to look at me, less alone listen to what I have to say" he was really frustrated while saying that. Inubos niya ang alak sa baso niya at tinawag ang bartender para humingi ulit ng panibago

May naisip ako dahil sa sitwasyon niya kaya inubos ko rin ang nasa baso ko at humingi ulit ng bago. Why do I feel like we're in the same situation?

He told me everything that happened to them and it's just funny because I was supposed to give advice to him but I ended up wallowing too because we're just the same. I don't even know if I have the capability to advise him on what to do because I don't even know what I'm doing myself

"I really love her" he said for the 5th time tonight and drank on his glass again

I lost count on how many drinks we had. I tried keeping up with him but with my low tolerance- I am already drunk

"I can relate" I blabbered then raised my glass to meet with him. I giggled mindlessly when I heard the clink sound

"Huh?" he looked at me and I can still see how his eyes widen like he was just made aware of how wasted I am right now although we were drinking for too long now

Well, I couldn't blame him. I didn't really talk while he was talking and I just listened to him because I really don't even know what to say!

Gusto ko nalang yayain siyang umiyak kasi parehas kami ng sitwasyon. We let go of the person we love just because we thought it's the best for them

"But it's the best for him!" I wailed and then drank another glass again

"Leren, you're drunk" Andrew tried to take my glass away but I glared at him at pat his hand away