Having Fayth

Deals and Breakup sex

Blain POV

Lunch was awkward. The whole time Fayth avoided eye contact with either Ren or I, but every time she glanced over at Ren and caught him smirking or looking at her she blushed.

She's never like that. Usually, she would throw out a playful punch or make a joke, but she surely never blushed at his attention. She treated him like a nuisance. Like she would treat an annoying, little brother despite the fact that he is my best friend and a year and some change older than her.

I have to believe this is just because he saw her naked this morning and they shared a kiss last night... it was just a kiss right?

My knuckles turn white while I grip my fork over my half eaten pancakes. I'll kick his ass if it was anything more than a one time, drunken kiss. Best friend or not, he knows how I feel about her, even if she has no idea.

Ren has a reputation. I'm not going to act like I'm perfect, but I'm damn sure not in the same class as Ren. He has strict friends with benefits relationships with all of our single girl friends and it's not a 'one at a time' type set up. It's a 'whichever is up for it when the mood hits' kind of deal. If I weren't sex positive I would be inclined to use the term 'man whore'.

Fayth thinks I'm just as bad, but she has no clue. I've only ever brought home girls I was dating. Yes, I date a lot. I just never bother to correct her. It's not like it matters to her anyway. To her I'm just her big brother. She doesn't see the 'step' in 'step-brother', except this morning before the sun came up. For that fleeting moment I was just a guy she trusted who showed her intimate physical attention and then no thanks to the alcohol, she forgot how I held her, how our lips moved perfectly together, how I could make her feel and it's driving me crazy.

For three years I have lusted after her, fallen in love with her, and buried every bit of that feeling. I can't say I treat her like I would if I actually had a sister.

She's not my fucking sister!

I hold her a bit tighter...longer, look into her eyes with all the love and care I have for her, defend her as if she were my girl, and we talk. Not just the basics of "how was your day". We have deep talks. It's how I know how she likes her tea, because she hates coffee, how I know her favorite movie is beauty and the beast and not for the princess, but for the way the beast is set free by the simple return of love. Its how I know every dream and aspiration that has ever passed through her mind.

It's how I know she's pure. Until the early hours of this morning no one had ever touched her the way I did and that includes herself. It's not because she's waiting for marriage or something like that. She's waiting for someone who loves her like I do. That's what she said... someone who loves her like I do... but not me. To her I'm her brother and that kills me.

"You ok, B?" Her angelic voice snaps me out of my thoughts and back to the present.

I give her a small smile that I hope is convincing, "of course, bug."

She scrunches her nose up at the nickname I gave her when we were younger. When I tried to convince myself it was just a little crush and tried to push her away. She would follow Ren and I everywhere, always wanting to be included in our games and when we went out anywhere. I told her she was annoying like a little bug, but really she just made it harder for me to stop liking her.

She looked up from her scrambled eggs "I was going to ask if you would drop me off at the library today? I have a report that's due next week and I wanted to get it done early." Always the little over achiever. It's kind of adorable really. The most popular girl in her school and she's an honor student. Next semester she is going to be duel enrolled in college courses at my school with only two courses at hers to finish.