Having Fayth

What do you want?

Blain POV

"I asked you a question, Fayth." I can feel my blood heating in my veins and it's only made worse by the guilt in her eyes. I grab her phone off her nightstand looking at a picture of her kissing Axel's cheek while he wears a shit eating grin. It seems to be recent. She's wearing the same top she came home in.

I glare at her while she fumbles to grab the phone from my hand. On the last ring I answer putting the phone to my ear. "I'm sorry, Fayth can't come to the phone right now. She has a lot of explaining to do." I hung up before the dimwit could utter a word.

Tossing her phone onto her bed I cross my arms over my chest. "Now, explain."

She's playing with her fingers in her lap and I'm almost distracted by the fact that we're still naked. Almost.

"I thought you were with Haven and Axel is nice to me." She looks anywhere but at me. "He asked me on a date." She nearly whispered.

"Cancel it." The words come abruptly from my lips more harshly than I had anticipated.

She looks up shocked "what?"

I glare down at her "what do you mean what? Cancel the date Fayth."

"Why?"

Is she fucking serious?!

Did she just ask me why?

I give a frustrated groan. "What the hell do you mean why, Fayth? I don't share. You are mine. Always have been. Cancel the fucking date."

She gives me a challenging look. "I don't remember you asking me to be your girlfriend." She paused "is that what you want Blain? Do you want me to be your girlfriend? Are you going to hold my hand in public and kiss me for all of our friends and family to see? Are you going to ask my dad if you can take me on a date? Are you going to tell your mom all about me and have me over for dinner? Oh shit! Can't do that B, we fucking live together! So what the hell is it Blain? What is it you want from me? What exactly am I to you?"

I stand looking dumbfounded. I hadn't thought about that. Every scenario flashes through my mind. None of them end well. But my thoughts are cut off when she shoves me. "Answer me Blain! What the fuck am I?"

I don't have an answer for her. I never thought I'd get a chance with her so I never thought further than my fantasies of having her to myself.

"I... don't know." I answer quietly. Filled with guilt.

She shook her head before grabbing her hoodie and a pair of shorts, hurriedly putting them on. "Get out."

I reach for her to try to explain but she pulls away. "No, B. Please, just go. It was hard enough accepting my feelings for you. I can't.... Talk to me when you figure out what you want."

With that I leave her room to mine and lay on my bed feeling like the biggest jackass.

What do I want?

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Axel POV

I had just finished tying up loose ends for my father and decided to call Fayth. After the last couple of hours her soft voice was all I wanted to hear, but wouldn't you know it... her jackass of a step-brother answered like an overly possessive caveman.

I don't know where he gets off talking like that to me, but he obviously doesn't know who he's messing with.

He seems to think he has some kind of claim over her because he's known her longer, but he can't give her what I can. He messes with other girls while telling Fayth he loves her. In my circle, that's not how you treat your lady.

Your woman is an extension of yourself and when you disrespect your woman, you disrespect yourself.

Seeing the hurt in her eyes at the movies nearly drove me to ripping out his tongue, but I knew that hurting him would hurt her more and that in-turn would hurt me. So I did what I did the only thing I could think to do. I got her out of there and took her to a place she could relax and feel free.

I know she loves him. It's clear to see. But she likes me and I know I could change that like to love if she gives me a chance.

So when I told her that I'd do anything to make her mine and she responded with a kiss, I mumbled against her mouth "go on a date with me."

I'm well aware that it wasn't a question, but she answered anyways agreeing to see me tomorrow night for dinner.

I can't tell you how happy that made me and that's saying something, because things rarely make me happy anymore. It's to be expected in my family. Our line of work doesn't really open you up to the little joys that life has to offer, but Fayth... she brings out a different side to me. A side I thought was long forgotten.

I smile and laugh with her. I feel at peace with her wrapped in my arms or playing like kids.

She's my happy place and I'm not giving her up without a fight.

Blain better be ready, because I'm coming for my girl and I will stop at nothing to make her mine... and once I do, I'm not going to be dumb enough to let her go.

Fayth: I need to get out of here for a bit. 😒 Want to hang out? 🤞🏻

Axel: I'll be there in 30. 🙂