Having Fayth

Lesson 1: make them want it.

Fayth POV

"How is kissing going to show me anything?" I ask on a huff. "I've kissed lots of boys." This is pointless. Part of me is really thinking about backing out right now. It's my curiosity and stubbornness that's holding me back from saying the words. The want to know is becoming more of an obsession. I need answers.

Ren shakes his head laughing quietly to himself. "You need to relax. You're always so tense when someone kisses you."

"I am not!" I defend crossing my arms. How dare he?! No one has ever complained about how I kiss before. It's a blow to my pride as a woman. This has to be untrue. He's just fucking with me now, isn't he?

All Ren does is raise a brow at me like a child caught in a lie.

Do I really tense up? Am I that bad at it?

We've been in my room since he picked me up from school about half an hour ago and all we have done is talk about this. When he picked me up he kissed me in front of Toni and his friends, but once we got in the car we were back to just being us. Just two friends hanging out. Nothing has changed.

We just added one little thing...

And Blain can never know.

Ren sat on my bed looking at his phone. "Blain will be back in a couple of hours. He stopped off to see the guys." He patted a space on my bed.

Following his direction I stopped pacing my room and sat down facing him not knowing how to initiate this whole thing.

He cocked his head to the side with a grin. "Now... lay it on me, cutie." He tapped his lips.

Ok, that was kind of adorable.

I got nervous for a moment. Biting my lip and playing with my fingers, I took a deep breath and released it before placing a hand on either side of his face and pressing my lips to his in a quick kiss and then pulling away. I didn't bother looking up at him. He'll probably regret agreeing to do this with me.

I may be a people person, but when it comes to boys and intimacy I tend to be awkward. It doesn't matter that he and I have kissed before. I'm not drunk or desperate to get away from Toni right now.

Ren burst out laughing a deep belly laugh clutching his sides "What... was... that?" He spoke between jolts of laughter.

I just shrugged, embarrassed. I could feel my cheeks heat up. I'm sure I'm blushing fiercely. I know I don't live up to the girls he's usually with, with good reason. I'm completely inexperienced. I've asked him to go beyond anything I've ever done before. I'm nervous and I've never initiated anything in my life. I'm a reactor not the aggressor.

He shook his head with a smile I caught from the corner of my eye.

Ren laced his hand through my hair and pulled me to him. His lips hovering just out of reach from mine. "When you kiss" he said looking into my eyes "take your time making them want it more than anything." I swallowed hard as his warm breath fanned over my mouth. He looked down at my parted lips. My tongue darting out across to wet them. After a few moments he smirked releasing me.

"What does that have to do with showing me how it feels to be with someone?" This confused the hell out of me. I just wanted him to show me and be done with it so I had answers to my questions, but he's treating this like he's my hoe yoda or some shit. It's infuriating.

He chuckled and tapped my nose. "You're adorable."

I glared openly at him and Ren simply rolled his eyes and blew out a deep sigh.