Their Tale (Sanders Sides x Harry Potter) (DISCONTINUED!)

Chapter 30; This Far Already!?!

Unrelated, but what Sanders Sides character do you guys see me as? Ignoring how I've mentioned kinning a side already, what do you see me as?

I'm just asking to see how different my online and real life personalities are-

I don't know if this is a trigger warning, but, there is slight mention of self - harm in this and following chapters, but it's so vague in this one that I don't even think most people would get the hint-

Remus' quill scratched faintly against the parchment.

Dear Thomas Sanders,

He begun. Janus and he had stayed at the man's house during Summer Break after the death of Janus' mother and he seemed to know a lot about romance, or at least that he was a hopeless romantic at times.

I know this is sudden, but I wanted to ask you something: is it normal to not feel love? For a month or so, I've been questioning my feelings for Janus. I realised I just had a strong platonic care for him and a hint of sexual attraction. I thought that was love, but I can tell it's not.

Every time someone says boyfriend, lover or relationship, I just feel uncomfortable. When Janus says it, I also feel guilty.

Is this normal? Am I just too lustful to fall in love?

Yours sincerely,
Remus

He signed off. Should he really send the letter? Should he actually do it? Thomas really cared about Janus and vice versa, what if he hated Remus after this? Remus inhaled deeply and went to the overly before he could turn back on his decision. He sent off the letter, now just needing to wait for an answer.

As he walked back, he saw Virgil and Roman talking. They seemed... Close. Almost too close. Remus shook the thought out of his head as he walked past them, his head down. He was hoping to ignore them, but things don't always go as planned.

"No dirty remark when you pass us anymore?" Roman sneered.

Remus avoided Roman and Virgil's eyes.

"Do you want the dirty remarks, dear brother?" He asked, innocently.

Virgil looked at Roman with an emotion Remus didn't recognise, but it caused Roman to huff and shake his head. Virgil stared at Roman harder, forcing Roman to drop his gaze and nod. Remus walked away, not understanding what they were doing.

"Actually, Remus." Virgil's voice stopped him.

Remus raised his eyebrows.

"How about you and Roman talk for a bit?"

Roman glared, but there was a hint of sadness in his eyes. Remus frowned at that.

"You're a goddamn Gryffindor, Ro, talk to him." Virgil hissed, "I know you want to."

Roman looked shocked, but nodded nonetheless. Virgil walked away with a small wave.

"So, what do you want?" Remus asked, defensive.

Roman inhaled deeply, looking depressed. He stayed silent. Remus wanted to check if he was okay. Despite everything, he still loved Roman as a brother. Remus grit his teeth in anger at the thought. Remus exhaled, letting out the anger which was sooner replaced by sympathy.

"You alright, Roman?" Remus mumbled.

Roman's eyes widened, and he was too shocked to nod or speak.

"I'm allowed to care, you know." Remus snarked at his shocked look. "I'm not all evil, I still have enough of a heart to give a damn when my old best friend is upset. Of course, it's not like you'd trust me enough anymore so it's useless." Remus began to walk away.

Roman heard the hurt in his tone, and how he looked genuinely betrayed when he said old best friend.

"Remus!" He called back. "Sorry... I just -... I never expected anyone to notice, let alone give a frick. Especially since I thought you hated me at this point..."

"You really think I can let myself hate you?" Remus mumbled. "I've tried, trust me. But... I never can. There is always something forcing me to care about your well being, despite how much you hurt me in the past."

Both twin's looked shocked at Remus' words. Roman noticed how Remus rugged at his sleeve when he said this.

"Remus...?" Roman whispered softly. "How about we talk about what happened?"

Remus nodded hesitantly, his eyes questioning Roman's motives, but also just being like frick it, I don't give a damn anymore.