You saved me from myself • Kairi Cosentino(Complete)

8 • Helping Bambi

Y/n pov:

I pulled into my driveway and we sat in my car in silence for a while.
"Bambi?" Kairi said softly. I looked at him, indicating for him to continue. "Do you want to talk about it?" He asked softly. I shook my head and looked down at my knees.
"Can you tell your mum I don't want to come for dinner tonight?" I asked quietly.
"Sure I can, but why?" He replied as he took my hand into both of his hands.
I shook my head and looked at him, then back at my knees. "I don't feel up to it tonight," I whispered.
"I'll tell her. I'll let you go get your homework done. I'll ring you later, okay?" He softly said, knowing I needed space. No no. Please don't leave. I nodded. He leaned into me and softly kissed my cheek. He moved back to his seat and opened his door. "I'll talk later Bambi. Call me sooner if you need me though okay?" He said.
"I promise, goodbye Kai," I said as he got out of the car. He closed the door and I watched from my car as he walked into his house. He looked back at me before he walked in and waved. Once he'd closed the door, I got out of my car and went into my house. I grabbed a glass of water and went up to my room to start my homework. It was 6pm by the time I'd finished my homework and I laid on my bed. Why does it hurt so much? I need to write it down. Maybe I'll write to Dad today.

'Dear Dad,
Hi Dad, I really do hope mum's taught you how to read in the time you've been gone else she'll be reading this letter to you right now. I miss you, not a day goes by that I don't think about you, think about the big hugs you'd give me when I was sad. Nothing can beat a Dad hug, not even a Mum hug and say this knowing Mum is probably reading this to you. But there's things Mum can do that you could never beat, like cooking. I miss coming home from school and seeing you sat on the sofa and I'd come and lay down and rest my head on your lap and tell you about my day and how I didn't have any friends or my maths teacher told me off for talking when it was Charli and Chase. I miss you so so much. I've decided I'm coming to see you. I can't take this anymore. I hope by the end of today I'm inside one of your hugs again, I really do. It's so difficult. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. But Kairi. I can't leave him. He's done so much for me already. I can't give up just yet. You should ask Mum about Kairi. I told her all about him. He's so amazing, you would have treated him like a son. I love you so much Dad,
Your not so little princess, Y/n xx❤️'

l put my journal away and walked into my bathroom and opened up my drawer with my razors. I looked at them. No y/n. You made a promise. You promised him. You can't do this. You can't. But it'll help won't it? It'll take away the pain. No stop. You can't think like this. I turned my head from side to side fighting with my thoughts. Then I gave in. I took off my hoodie and ripped of the bandage and took out a blade. I took a deep breath and dug into my skin, opening up the old scars. I squirmed at the pain. Took a deep breath and breathed. It's okay. I'm okay. I dug the blade in again, next to the now bleeding cut and did it over and over again. I then threw the blade in the skin and turned on the tap. This is the first time I've been able to breath and not hurt in so long. I took my arm and rinsed it under the water, washing off the blood. I took a deep breath and wrapped it in bandages. I left my room and put on a hoodie and sat on my bed. Staring into space. I heard a knock on my bedroom window. I stood up from my bed and looked out. It was Kairi throwing pebbles at my window from his to get my attention. I opened my window so he could talk to me.
"Can I come round and we order pizza and watch a film?" He asked.
"Sure, why not?" I replied.
"Wanna invite the boys?" He said.
"Which ones?" I questioned.
"Dino and Monkey as you call them, the others live the other side of town." He explained.
"Sure, let them know to meet at mine yeh? We'll order pizzas when they get here," I replied.
"Okey, I'll be round in a minute." He responded before closing his window and walking out of his bedroom door on his phone. I closed my window and walked downstairs.
I sat on the stairs on my phone and waited for Kairi's knock. When I did I jumped up and opened the door, to be greeted by Kairi.
"Hey Bambi," He said as he walked in. He kissed my cheek and walked past me. What? Did he just? Omg. I'm pretty sure I'm looking like a tomato right now. I closed the front door and walked over to Kairi who was sitting on the sofa, where my dad used to. I decided to lay down and rest my head on his lap, like I did with Dad. I sighed as I stared at the ceiling.
"I used to do this every day after school with my Dad," I said as I looked at him. He started gently playing with my hair as he looked down at me.
"You can do it everyday with me if it'll make you feel better," He softly replied.
"That would be nice," I smiled. Then I heard a knock at the door.
"I'll get it, you stay here." He said. I nodded and sat up slightly to let him get up then I flopped back down on the sofa, staring at the ceiling. "Hey guys," I heard Kairi say as he opened the door. I heard people walk in. They sat on the two sofa chairs. I looked over at them.
"Hey Dino, hey Monkey," I said softly. Kairi came back and I sat up letting him sit back down where he was. When he did and I rested my head on his lap and he played with my hair.
"What pizza do you guys want?" Kairi asked.
"I'll have Hawaiian," Mattia replied.
"Sausage and mushroom," Monkey replied. Everyone laughed at him and looked at him weird. He just shrugged his shoulders.
Kairi looked down at me, "And you Bambi?" He smiled.
"The meaty one but with jalapeños," I smiled.
"Wanna share?" He offered. I nodded. "I'll order them." He took out his phone and ordered them. "10 minutes," He said as he put his phone back in his pocket and went back to playing with my hair.
"What film do y'all wanna watch?" I asked.
"Fast and furious? We can make it an every Tuesday night thing?" Monkey suggested. We all nodded in agreement.
"Do you guys wanna sit on this sofa or are you comfy?" I offered them, looking over at Mattia and Monkey.
"I'm comfy," Mattia said as he slouched on the chair.
"Me too," Monkey added as he copied Mattia.
*Ding dong*
I got up from the sofa and went to walk towards the door, "I'll pay," I said. Kairi grabbed my wrist. I widened my eyes, trying not to scream in pain. Tears rolled down my cheeks. "Kai." I whimpered. He immediately let go.
"Mattia, can you get the pizzas?" Kairi said as he stood up and stood in front of me.
"Yeah sure," He said as he got up. I took some money and held it out to him, "No y/n, let me pay." He said, walking passed my money. I shoved my money in my pocket. Avoiding eye contact with Kairi as Mattia opened the door. I felt Kairi take my hand and look at my hoodie sleeve.
"Y/n," He whispered softly. I looked down at my arm. The blood must have seeped through the bandage and onto my hoodie sleeve. I snatched my arm away and hid it behind my back quickly. At this point Mattia was walking back in with the pizzas. "You guys start the film, put mine and y/n's pizza on the coffee table. We'll be back in a minute." He said bluntly. He grabbed my right hand and dragged me up the stairs behind him and into my room and into my bathroom.
"Take your hoodie off y/n," He said bluntly.
"I don't have a top on though." I replied, returning the same attitude.
"Just take the hoodie off, I'll get you a top," He walked out the bathroom and when he walked back in. He had a top in his hand and I was sat in my bra since I listened to him. He didn't even pay attention, just gave me the top and I put it on. He sat me on the counter beside the sink and took my left hand. He peeled the bandage off and I flinched at the pain. He put the bandage in the bin. I watched him as he leant against the wall opposite and slid down it and sat on the floor. He put his hands on his face, rubbed his eyes then pulled his hair back in frustration. He then stood up and grabbed a wash cloth and soaked it with warm water. He began gently cleaning the dried blood. Once he was finished. He patted it dry with a towel, put cream on it and put clean bandages on my wrist. He then left the bathroom and came back a few minutes later with one of my hoodies. He handed it to me and I put it on. He stood between my legs on the counter and looked at me. He brought his hand up to my cheek and I looked at him.
"I wish you would let me help you," He whispered. "I can't help you if you don't let me, it's so difficult."
"You don't have to help me. I'm okay," I whispered back.
"No y/n. You're not okay. Stop lying to me. I'm trying okay? I'm really trying here. I care for you so much, just let me. Let me help you. Let me help you be happy. Please," He whispered, as tears left his eyes.
I took his face in my hands and stared into his eyes. "Why? How do I know you're not going to leave? Like everyone else does. Like my parents did." I said as I cried.
"Y/n, your parents didn't leave you, they died," He whispered softly.
"No, you're not getting it. THEY LEFT ME. they left me." I said, slightly raising my voice as I cried.
"No y/n listen to m-" Kairi started to talk.
"No kai, you listen to me," I said, cutting him off. "They left me, if they didn't leave me and go on that plane to see Jaden, they would still be here. In my arms." I explained. "But they're gone," I whispered as my voice broke.
He pulled me tightly into a hug and met me cry on his shoulder. "Let me help you y/n. Please. Promise me you will." He whispered into my ear. I pulled from the hug and looked at him.
"You really want to help me?" I said quietly, looking down at my fingers.
He took my face in his hands, "Yes y/n. I want to help you and I'm not going to leave." I slightly smiled at him.
"Let's go join them downstairs and eat our pizza," I suggested. He nodded and took a step back. We went downstairs and sat beside each other on the sofa and began eating out pizza.
"What took you guys so long?" Monkey asked.
"Kairi needed me to pop his spots," I laughed.
I felt Kairi glaring at me, I turned around at him and awkwardly smiled. "I'm kidding, we needed to talk about something personal." I said. Kairi's eyes then softened and he smiled at me. I turned back the the film. Once we'd finished eating, Kairi put the box on the coffee table in front of us and lean back on the sofa. I felt Kairi's arm snake around my shoulder and his hand fall onto my waist. He pulled me closer to him. I wrapped my arms around his waist, sideways, and rested my head on his shoulder whilst still watching the movie.

I woke up in my bed. I rolled over and found a note on my bedside table.

'Hey Bambi,
You fell asleep on me whilst we were watching the film. The boys left when the film ended and I brought you up to your bed. I hope you slept well. I'll see you at 8 in the morning.
Kai :)'

End of pov.

A/n
Word count - 2260 words
Interesting chapter. What is going on with Kai and Bambi? Cheek kisses? Cuddling on the sofa? Next chapter coming soon :)