You saved me from myself • Kairi Cosentino(Complete)

12 • Jaden

Y/n pov:

I walked into my house to found Kai asleep on my bed. How did he get here? I sat beside him and played with his hair. He moved towards, rested his head oh on my lap and hugged my legs.
"Hi Bambi, I came here to wait but your bed is so comfy," He mumbled.
"It's okay peaches, you stay here. I'm going to put my shopping bags in my closet then get changed okay?"
"Be quick, I want cuddles," He mumbled sleepily as he let me get up. I did as I said and got into bed beside Kairi and pulled the covers over us. He quickly came closer, he wrapped his arms around my waist and he rested his head on my chest. I started playing with his hair.
"How was Mattia?" He asked.
"He was good, he helped me pick out our outfits," I told him.
"We're going to wear one tomorrow then Saturday. Then just us two are hanging Sunday and matching again okay?" He mumbled, still with his eyes closed.
"That sounds perfect." I told him. He then opened his eyes and lifted his head. He kissed my cheek and put his head back where it was.
"Goodnight peaches," I said softly.
"Goodnight my Bambi," He sleepily mumbled. 'My' bambi? That's new? What do I do? what am I supposed to do. I fell asleep holding him.

I woke up to someone softly placing a kiss on my
cheek.
"Hi Peaches," I mumbled, not opening my eyes.
"Damn how did you know it was me and not a 52 year old?" He chuckled.
"1 you smell nice and I can smell you since you're so close 2 you're the only one who gives me cheek kisses and 3 you did sleep here last night," I explained, still having my eyes closed.
"Okay then Sherlock," He sighed.
"I prefer Bambi," I mumbled so he couldn't hear
me but he did.
"Good thing really, because you'll be my bambi forever," He whispered, I don't think I was supposed to hear. What does he mean my bambi? And forever? That's a really long time.

The day was boring. I'm at home packing for Mattia's. Kai is coming round in like 2 hours to pick me up. I was packing when I heard my phone.
*Ring ring*
No one ever calls me?
*Ring ring*
I don't have this number saved? Who could it be?
*Ring ring*
Maybe it's one of the boys? I should answer it.
I pick it up.

You
Person ringing

Hello?
Hi, is this y/n Hossler?
His voice was trembling. At least is sounded like it was.
Yes, who is this?
I heard a sign of relief.
Hi y/n, it's Jaden.
His voice broke.
Jaden? As in my brother? Don't be playing games because you know full well I'll murder you through the phone.
I heard a weak chuckle. Jaden's weak chuckle. Somethings wrong. 
Yes y/n. This is Jaden your brother. I'm so so sorry for leaving you like I did. I thought you died along with Mum and Dad so I didn't bother contacting you. I'm so so sorry.
I could hear his voice breaking behind the words. He wasn't okay. 
It's okay Jaden. I'm okay now. How are you? I know thinking you lost your whole family couldn't have been easy on you.
It's okay I guess. I needed to hear your voice one last time. I needed you to know I love you so so much.
The last time? Why can't he tell me again? On another day?
Jaden, I love you too. Please come home, I miss you.
You'll see me soon. I promise. But for now, there's some people I need to go and visit. I need to make my emends. And to do that, you won't see me for a long while.
Who is he on about? A long while? No. He can't be talking about - I refuse to believe. I start crying.
Jaden please don't leave me. I only just got you back.
I have to y/n. It's the only way.
No it's not, come home. Come live with me in New Jersey. You'll be happy here. Please Jaden. I need you with me right now.
You'll be better without me y/n. I have to go now y/n. Just know I love you with every good part of my dark heart that is left. I love you okay? I'll see you again one day.
He then hung up.

"No no no, this can't be happening. I can't lose him too. What do I do? I can't just go to LA! I won't be there in time to save him," I spoke to myself as I paced back and forth around the room.
*Ting ting*
I looked down at my phone. A message from an unsaved number? I opened it.

Unsaved Number

Unsaved number
Hey y/n, it's Jaden. We had so many good times today. From the times we'd ride our bicycles together down the hill beside our road to the times we'd play hide and seek in Walmart and get kicked out. I miss those time. I miss being by your side through thick and thin. I miss feeling happy. Finding out I lost mum and dad broke me, but when I found out no one had heard from you, I was shattered. I shut myself away. Everything in my life turned grey. When I was told they were on a flight to LA to see me. My grey turned to black and my life was full of sadness. I can't live like this anymore. I know you love me and don't want me to do this. But it'll be okay. You survived 10 weeks without me, you can go forever. I love you okay? So so much. But I can't stay. I can't stay in a world with no light, no smile, no happiness. That's not me. Everyone was given a life to live it. That's just not working out for me anymore, so I'm deciding to leave. I hope you understand I really do. I'm so so sorry I left you alone for them 10 weeks you've spent without mum. I heard what you went through. But it's okay, I'm getting ready for my punishment now. I'll say hi to mum and dad for you and tell them that you love and miss them so so much because I know you do. I love you y/n. Until we meet again, Jaden Hossler xx❤️

"NOOOOO!!" I screamed. I started throwing things around my room. I can't do this. I can't lose him. Not again. I punched my walls repeatedly until my knuckles were purple and bleeding. I took off Kairi's hoodie and smelt it one last time before throwing it on my bed and going into my bathroom. I pulled open my razor draw. I then looked at the bathtub. I can do this. I'm allowed to do this. If we go down, we do down together. I put the plug in and turned on the taps. I grabbed my sharpest razor and sat in the freezing water with my clothes on. I can't stay here in a world that he's not. I look down at me wrist covered in a bandage Kairi left there after cleaning it last time. I ripped it off and threw it out of the bath. I took hold of my razor and slowly when to pierce my skin.
*Ring ring*
Just piss off.
*Ring ring*
What do you want?
I looked out of the bathtub and found my phone on the floor. I answered and put it on speaker. Not knowing who it was.
"Bambi, I've been knocking the past 10 minutes. What's going on?" Shit it's Kairi. No he's going to stop me. I can't have him stopping me. I just want it over. But can I really leave him? He'll be so so hurt. He means everything to me. He's all I have. "Bambi are you there?" He said anxiously. I couldn't talk. I couldn't breathe.
"Y/n is everything okay?" He could here me breathing. I was breaking down silently at this point. Still in the bathtub in my clothes.
"Kai," I forced out. My voice broke and I broke down even more.
"I'll be there in a second. Wait for me," I heard my door opens downstairs. I heard him try to open my bedroom but I locked it. He barged in and looked around my room.
"Y/n where are you?" He shouted, he was scared.
"Kai," I struggled to whisper, due to the lump in my throat.
He came into my bathroom and saw me. He looked at me with the softest eyes he could and dropped to his knees beside the bathtub and cried.
"Oh y/n, why didn't you call me? I would've helped." He whispered.
"I-I didn't do it," I tried to say but couldn't talk due to the tears. Kairi stood up and picked me up out of the bath. He sat back down on the bathroom floor. He sat me on his lap, ignoring the fact my clothes were soaked. He wrapped his arms around me, pulled me closer to him and tightly hugged me.
"Please don't do that," He whispered to me, he was crying.
"Kai you don't understand," I whispered. "He left me again." I cried.
He pulled away from the hug and held my face. "Who hurt you, baby?" He said as his face was covered in tears. I didn't say anything. Just picked up my phone and opened the text before handing it to him. He held it in one hand and read it whilst the other hand stayed on my cheek and he caressed. He looked up at me and put my phone on my floor. He pulled me into another hug.
"He left me," I cried. "Again."
"It's okay baby, let it out. I'm here. I'm not leaving.  I'm staying until you don't need me anymore okay?" He said soothingly whist running my back. I pulled away and looked at them.
"Can you stay with me please? And cancel on the boys," I quietly said.
"I would have even if you didn't ask," He softly said as he pulled me towards him and he kissed my
cheek. He texted someone then pulled me off his lap and stood up.
"Now would be a good time for a change of clothes. I'll go get you some," He said as he went to walk out.
I walked behind him and wrapped my arms around him and followed him.
"So you're coming with me?" He asked. I nodded into his back.
"You were leaving," I whispered. I don't think he heard me. But I had to go with him, I didn't know what I would've done if he left.

End of pov

A/n
Word Count - 1854 words
Next chapter will be a follow on from this obviously. A bit emotional. Let me know what you think! Remember to vote!