You saved me from myself • Kairi Cosentino(Complete)

17 • A fresh start

Y/n pov:

I'm out the hospital now and I'm laying in bed with Kairi. He's been really sweet lately and I don't know whether it's just the fact I tried to kill myself. Who knows?
"Hey peaches?" I ask.
"Yes baby?" He says and rolls to look at me.
"Can we go to mine and invite Mattia round?" I ask. I miss Mattia.
"If you want to, are you bored?" He asks.
"A bit, but you're not boring. It's just nothing to do." I say.
"Yeah I get you, come on," He says. It's October break at the minute and we've got one week left until we're going back. I've been going to therapy and it's really helping. I don't feel as sad anymore but I don't feel as connected to Kairi. Maybe I just relied on him. But he's sweet and maybe I'll fall for him when I'm not sad.

We get to mine and wait for Mattia. After 10 minutes, he gets here and we all sit on the sofa.
"So what we doing?" Mattia asks.
"I don't know, I just wanted you to come round but I don't have a plan." I explain.
"How about a pizza and a movie then?" Kairi suggests. We all agree and Kairi orders our usual.
"So beanie, how's therapy going?" Mattia asks as we wait for the pizzas.
"It's going really well actually. I feel a lot better with myself." I tell him. "I feel free."
"I'm really happy for you." He says and smiles. "What are we planning on doing with the boys when we go back to school?" Kairi asked.
"I think we should forgive them. I understand why Ale cheated. Every time he'd try and kiss me I'd turn him down and every time he'd touch me I'd freeze up. I didn't give him anything so I understand." I explain.
"Damn beanie, you got mature," Mattia laughed.
"No I didn't, I just got rid of my depression," I chuckled. "I got rid of my depression," I mumbled repeat. I turn and look at Kairi quickly. "I need to do something." I quickly got up and ran to my room. Where's my journal?? Where'd I leave it? Never mind found it. I started writing.
'Dear Mum, Dad and Jaden,
I'm writing to all of you today so it's guaranteed either Mum or Jaden is reading this as Dad can't read. I want to tell you something. I'm happy. I really am. I'm happy with myself. Like me alone. I don't hate myself anymore. I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I just feel like so much weight has been lifted off my chest. I can finally fall in love with Kairi like a normal person would. I want to thank you. For sending me back. For sending
me home. I love you all so so much. This will be the last time I'm going to write to you for a while so I want to say goodbye. I love you all so much but you know that already. I'm going to live my life the way you guys would want me to. I'll make friends, make tons of memories and have at least one epic love with I hope with all my heart is Kairi. He deserves the world and I want to be the one to give it to him. Until we meet again,
Your not so little princess, Y/n xx❤️'

I closed my book and put it in my draw. That's the end of a difficult time in my life. I go back downstairs.
"Guys?" I say.
"Yes bambi," Kairi says.
"Yes beanie," Mattia says.
"I want to decorate." I tell them.
"What do you want to decorate?" Mattia asks.
"The house. I want to change it. I want a fresh start. When I come to live here, I don't want remember all the bad things that happened here. I want to make new memories with the new me." I explain.
"When do we start?" Kairi asks.
"Today?" I suggest.
"I mean we can eat then go and buy the supplies then make a proper start tomorrow?" Mattia suggests.
"Yeah sure, also I want to donate all my clothes, minus a few and the ones me and Kai bought together to charity and buy new ones and you guys can pick them out for me okay?" I said.
"Sure thing beanie." Mattia says.
"Sounds like a plan bambi," Kairi agrees. The food comes then we go to walmart and target for supplies. We buy paint, new decorations and other supplies. I've decided to commission a company to redo the kitchen so that we have an island and redo the spare room downstairs into a dining room. I've decided to change a spare room into a gaming room for the boys.

•Skip a week•

The builders finished up the changes yesterday and I can go in today and it'll be like going to a new house. Me, Mattia and Kairi are going shopping for clothes today. I'm feeling confident and I've decided I don't need to hide my arms anymore. People should know my story. I'm proud of my story.