You saved me from myself • Kairi Cosentino(Complete)

3 • I miss them.

Y/n Pov:

Kairi's mum made homemade pizza for tea. She was serving it up and handed us. We all sat at the dinner table and began eating.
"This is amazing," I exclaimed as I took my first bite. Kairi smiled at me.
"I'm glad you like it y/n," his mum softly said.
We all continued eating and talking. Once we'd finished, Kairi's mum asked to talk to me. She took me into the backyard and we sat on the steps leading to the patio.
"Y/n," She softly said, "Has Jaden contacted you?"
I softly shook my head. "Has anyone?" I softly shook my head again.
"No one has spoken to me since they died on that plane. They said a few words at the funeral but that was it. But anyway, how do you know me?" I curiously asked.
"I was your mother's best friend. I was planning on moving here to live near her, but when I found out they died, I was devastated and knew you would need someone and I didn't know your situation. So I moved and sent Kairi over. I knew you were his age so I figured you could get on. He came back and told me you didn't want to be friends, he told me you looked like you hadn't eaten for weeks. I got scared when he told me about you passing out. Y/n, do you want to eat here every night for tea? I'm sure no one would mind." She softly explained.

I looked over at her, she was looking at me with her eyes filled with sympathy. She cares about me. She was my mums friend so why does she care about me? But her food is good and her family is really nice. Maybe it'll be good for me.

"I don't want to cause any trouble for you though," I replied.
"It's not trouble, there's usually leftovers anyway. I can send Kairi around every night to pick you up once it's ready if you'd like. And if you don't fancy eating with us that night, you can just let us know." She reassured me.
"That would be really nice actually," I replied. It feels nice to have someone care about you for once.

"I should probably get home, it's getting late," I said before standing up.
"Do you want Kairi to walk you back?" She offered.
"If he really wants to, but it's only two minutes away," I chuckled. It really felt good to chuckled. To feel the slightest bit of happiness even.
"I'm sure he will," She said as she pulled me in for a hug, "Be safe y/n, I'm here for you to talk to, to cry to. You're not alone anymore," She softly said whilst rubbing my hair.
"I just miss them so much," I sobbed.
"I know, I know, let it all out," She softly said. I sobbed into her shoulder. She probably thinks I'm a mess. Great first impressions I supposed. After a few minutes, I pulled away and rubbed my face.
"Thank you Miss Cosentino," I said softly.
"It's okay y/n, but call me Jane." She replied.
"I'm going to go home, thank you for tea." I said as I walked back into the house.
"You're welcome, I'll see you for tea tomorrow," she softly replied.
"Goodbye," I shouted as I found Kairi in the living room laying on the sofa watching tv.
"Let me walk you home," He said as he jumped off the sofa and put his shoes on.
"Okay," I said as he opened the door for me.
We walked back to mine and I unlocked my door.
"Are you okay y/n? You look like you've been crying," Kairi asked softly as he looked at me with worried eyes. I turned my body round to face him.
"Yeah, I'm okay. Thank you for inviting me tonight. Your mum said I'm welcome to come every night for tea, since my mum isn't around anymore." I started, "If that's okay with you?" I questioned.
"That's perfect with me," He smiled. "Your parents aren't on a business trip though are they?" He softly asked.
I looked at him, and slowly shook my head. A tear slowly rolled down my cheek. God y/n. You have to get used to it. They're dead. Accept them.
He lifted his hand up slowly and took his thumb and wiped away my tear, I flinched when his skin first touched mine. "It's okay," He softly said. "You can tell me about it when you're ready."
I smiled at him and then turned around to open my door. "You should get home, it's cold out," I told him. Why am I concerned for his health? I don't usually care for people.
"I guess I'll see you tomorrow then y/n. It'll be about the same time yeah?" He said.
"Okay Kairi, I'll see you then," And with that. I walked into my house and closed the door. What is this weird feeling I have in my stomach? Is it butterflies? No it can't be. I can't catch feelings. You can't fall in love with someone else if you don't already love yourself.
I got myself a glass of water and made my way up to my room. I took out my journal in which I wrote letters to my mum, knowing she'll never get them but I needed somewhere to spill my heart out. I started writing.

'Dear Mum,
Today was more difficult than usual. But I went to the mall. It was the first time I've left the house since you died 6 weeks ago. I bought more clothes but I've considered going out to buy clothes other than sweats. I can't live in sweats forever can I? I gave Kairi a lift home. You know the short guy I told you about the other day? Yeah, I remembered his name. But I think I upset him a bit when I snapped and said I didn't want to know his name. I didn't tell him why. It would have upset him even more that I didn't want to know his name because that means that he'll have to mean something to me. And I can't have people caring about me, just for me to hurt them when I come to reunite with you. I hope it's soon to be honest. I went to Kairi's house for tea and I met your best friend, Jane? Do you remember her? She told me I looked like you, she said you were beautiful. Were. I hate that. I wish you were here and I could say, My mum is beautiful, not that you were. She told me to come over for tea everyday, she wants to look after me. She seems to care about me but I don't know why. No one seems to care about me, not even me. I've been about a week clean of hurting myself and my most fresh cuts are healing. You'd be proud of me if you were here. But then again, if you were here, if anyone was here, I wouldn't have done that in the first place. I miss living with you, dad and Jaden. We loved each other. We were so close. That all changed when you decided to go on a holiday to LA to see Jaden, only 1 week after he moved there. He never spoke to me after that day. He didn't even come to the funeral. I don't know what happened to him. Anyway mum, I should probably stop writing since it's getting to 12am and school starts next week. I should get my sleeping schedule in order. Night mum, love you lots.
Your not so little princess, y/n xx❤️'

I closed my journal, placed it into my drawer and decided to get changed for bed. I went to close my blinds and noticed my window was opposite Kairi's. He was laying on his bed doing something on his phone. He looked up, he probably felt me staring and he smiled and waved at me. I waved back and then I closed my blinds. I got into bed and drifted off to sleep.

End of Pov.

A/n
Word count - 1408 words
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