The Grim Reaper's Possession

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

Maeve's POV

I gaze at Grim as soon as magsalita sya, he wore no expression.
“B-buhay sya?”

Instead of answering, tinalikuran nya ako to face the pond, he lifted his hand and wave his palm on top of it.
Agad akong tumayo at pumunta kung nasan sya.
And then I saw Felicity in there,
I could see her family jumping in joy as she opened her eyes.

“Oh thank god.” I said really relieved.

I turn again and saw him leaving.
“G-Grim?” I called out.

But he didn't stop walking away, and I feel a pang inside my chest.
Bakit ang sakit? I'm pretty sure he heard and know that I'm calling him. He is this place after all.

I wanted to call him again, but I was too embarrassed of the rejection I received a few seconds ago, but still, I swallowed it and repeated his name.

“Grim.” I said, my voice louder than before and I stepped towards him,  mas malayo na sya but he didn't even gaze at me.

“Grim, look, I'm sorry okay?” I said kahit na hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nagpapasorry.

Yet he didn't even look at me and just acted na parang wala talaga syang naririnig which made me angry. I have swallowed my pride and tried to call him, even apologize and now he's acting like a child?!

“Grim, you know what?  I don't care kung bawal magmura dito,  but f-ck you and your attitude.  I'm trying to say sorry diba? Para kang bata who doesn't know how take any rejection!” I seethed and with that he finally stopped.

He slowly turn to look at me, his face blank of any emotions.
“Anong gusto mong gawin ko Maeve? Mas lalong saktan ang sarili ko?”

I was taken aback by how cold his voice was.

“Alam mo na mahal kita pero alam ko na masasaktan lang ako lalo kung pinagpatuloy ko pa ito kaya ako na mismo ang lalayo.” he said seriously.

I gulped,
“Grim.. I..”

“Narinig ko ang mga pinaguusapan nyo ni Felicity,  naguguluhan ka samin ni Zephyr. Hindi mo alam kung sino ang matimbang samin kaya ako na ang sasagot para sayo.. Piliin mo si Zephyr.”

“A-Ano..?”

“Hindi ka naguguluhan Maeve, nararamdaman mo lang na nag-iisa ka kaya akala mo may nararamdaman ka para sakin, tanggap ko na Maeve na kahit maging akin ka man ngayon,  hindi ka magiging akin sa oras na gumising ka.”

Yung mga sinasabi nya, sinasabi ng utak ko na totoo ang mga sinasabi nya, but how come na sobrang sakit?  How come that deep inside me, I feel that what he's saying isn't true.

Hindi ako makasagot, hindi ko alam anong isasagot ko.
Tama ba sya?

It was very awkward. Nakatayo lang kami, malayo kami sa isa't isa pero parang malapit din.
Naguguluhan nako lalo.
Si Zephyr.

“Mahal kita Maeve pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi tayo pwede. Tanggap ko na yun,  kaya pakiusap kahit ngayon lang ay wag mo munang paganahin ang pagiging makasarili mo. Hayaan mo akong lumayo at baka balang araw ay makakalimutan ko ang nararamdaman ko para sayo.”

Bakit ang sakit?
He turned his back to me again, walkig away then he disappeared, just like Felicity.
May pumatak na tubig sa kamay ko at tiningnan ko ito, umuulan ba?
But then I felt something trickling down my cheeks, and realized I was crying.

I hate for him to see me like this pero hindi ko mapigilan, and before I could stop it a sob escaped from my lips and I collapsed in the ground.

Hugging my knees and let the sobs rack my body.

I'm not sure kung ilang oras nakong umiiyak or kailan ako natapos, I just found myself motionless and staring at nothing. My mind going elsewhere, hoping na hindi nangyari yung kanina..  That Grim didn't just call me selfish, na hindi nya ako sinukuan.

My eyes wandered around and found the two flower crowns na ginawa ni Felicity when she was still here, hanging on the lowest branch of a tree.
If she was still here maybe she'd comfort me or aasarin nya ako.
I want to say na sana nandito pa rin sya but somehow the word selfish suddenly popped in my mind.

Stop it Maeve, just like Grim had said, stop being so selfish. Be happy for Felicity.
I dipped my hand in the pond which seems to be the millionth time na ginawa ko, then it rippled and it showed my body, still unconscious on the hospital bed.

Zephyr was there, holding my hand in his, yet I feel numb from the crying. Wala na yung kilig na nararamdaman ko, the appreciation was still there but I don't think it was necesarry for him to hold my hand like that.

'Wouldn't it be nice kung si Grim ang nakahawak sa kamay mo?  Yung nasa posisyon ni Zephyr ngayon?’ A small voice inside my head asked.

When I imagined it,  I feel butterflies erupted from my stomach and I felt my lips twitch slightly until it formed to a small smile.
But that smile fell when I remembered kung anong nangyari kanina.

Impossible. He hates me now.

'Maybe so, ang landi mo kasi eh.' The voice giggled and I found myself chuckled slightly.

'Anyways, how does it feel like Maeve? To be in Grim's position?'

I stopped.

'Remember? When he confessed his love to you? How could you not remember? You were ogling at a guy and brutally rejected Grim, wanting him out of your house and life, How does it feel now?'

But he didn't reject me. He called me selfish yes, and he's just hurting because I can't give him what he want.

'Of course, cause you kept forcing yourself na si Zephyr pa rin, sabi nga ni Grim hindi ka naguguluhan, but he didn't know na the reason was not because of your loneliness. Alam mo sarili mo Maeve kung sino talaga.'

Yes, and I like Zephyr maybe mahal ko na nga sya.. I only pity Grim. I.. I don't love him, not in that way..

The voice inside my head, my own voice. I could feel her sarcastic tone.
'Of course you don't.’