The Grim Reaper's Possession

Chapter 26

Chapter 26

Maeve's POV

I was just sitting alone there, tears still streaming endlessly down my face as I gaze at myself.
I don't know what to feel. Betrayal,  hurt, disappointment, heartbroken, confused. It feels like different kinds of emotions bottling up inside of me.

Grim just left me alone, and I want nothing more than to jump in this pond and strangle the man that strained my relationship with my parents. I know he's old but I'm too angry. Ang daming babaeng mas maganda dyan, so why does it have to be me?
Seeing him inside the room my body was in and in good terms with my parents parang hindi ko gusto ang mangyayari as soon as I woke up.

If I could just stay here forever. I would definitely miss all of those na nakasama ko nung buhay pa ako.
Si Tita, si Alexis, yung mga alaga ko, yung Mama ni Zephyr, si Zephyr at si Felicity. Sila lang yung mga naging importanteng tao sa buhay ko. Isama mo na rin ang parents at mga kapatid ko, kung hindi lang sana nila ako tinalikuran at nagpabulag sa laki ng pera ni Emesto.
I don't worry about my pets kasi alam ko na even if I die ay may mag-aalaga sakanila. It's either si Alexis, si Zephyr o yung kapit bahay na nakakapasok sa apartment ko.

But staying here is impossible. If my body dies, then ihahatid na nila ako sa pinto, where the unknown waits for me.
Maybe, maybe habang nandito pa ako susulitin ko na na maging masaya kasama sya.
For once in my life mararamdaman ko rin what true love feels like kahit na hindi nya malaman.

Yes. It's not necesarry. Hindi nya na kailangan malaman. After I disappeared in my world and this world then hindi na ulit kami magkikita.
Just like he said, I should stop being selfish.

In my remaining time here kailangan ko ng makipag-ayos kay Grim and be happy and content for what we are now.

My chin was on top of my knees and continued pondering to myself when I something violet was in front of me.

Agad napataas ang tingin ko and saw Grim, holding a bouquet of lilacs in front of me.
“A-Ano to?”

“Nakita ko kanina habang nagsusundo ako ng kaluluwa.” he said.

Staring at his face, and realizing that he came back for me and is now giving me a gift, somehow made my mood lighter. I chuckled.
“Anong nakakatawa?” Tanong nya at umiling ako.

“Did you know that lilacs symbolizes first love?” I said and smiled at him.

Nanlaki ang mga mata nya and he looks embarrassed.
“H-Ha? H-Hinde,  nagandahan lang ako sa kulay kanina kaya kumuha ako.” He said and my grin got wider.

“Kinuha o ninakaw?” Tanong ko kasi alam ko wala namang pera to.

Napakamot na lang sya ng ulo nya,
“Er, kinuha ng isa sa mga Reapers para sakin sa sementeryo daw.”

I rolled my eyes at this,
“Pati para sa mga patay kinukuhanan nyo.”

“Hindi naman nila kailangan eh.” Grim said and sat next to me, at tumingin sa mukha ko.

“What?” I asked.

“Nakangiti ka na, lagi ka kasing nakasimangot eh o umiiyak.” he said,

“I wonder who is the cause of that?” I asked sarcastically.

“Ako? Anong ginawa ko?” Parang nagtatakang sabi nya and gusto kong ihampas sakanya tong mga bulaklak.

I rolled my eyes,
“You kept on ignoring me, and you even told me harsh words. Alam mo ba kung gano kasakit yun?”

There was silence between us until he spoke.
“Pasensya na.. Nasaktan lang ako.”

And suddenly the light atmosphere became heavy once again,
“De okay lang, naiintindihan ko naman eh.” I said and forced myself to smile.

Tell him Maeve, tell him what you really feel.

Don't. You're so selfish you know that? Either way ay iiwan mo din sya at kakalimutan, so mas mabuti pang wag mong sabihin.

But you'd feel true love, kahit ngayon lang ay magiging masaya ka.

He's trying to move on. Wag ka ng magpabigat.

“Pasensya na..” he said again,
“Naging makasarili din ako, pero aaminin ko mahal pa rin kita kahit alam kong si Zephyr lang talaga ang nasa puso mo.”

Hindi sya. Ikaw.

“..Pwede ba habang nandito ako wag tayong mag-away? Let's be.. friends.” I said and hold back the tears na gustong kumawala.

Please, Maeve. Don't be selfish.
Wag mong sabihin.

“Ayos lang sakin.” Sabi nya at ngumiti, but I could see the hurt in his eyes.

Pero ikaw ba Grim, nakikita mo din ba yung sakin?

“Yeah, let's be friends.. Let-- Let me be with you hanggang sa mawala ako dito.” I said.

“Alam ko magiging magkaibigan na lang tayo, pero gusto ko pa ring sabihin.. Sa huling pagkakataon gusto kong sabihin na, Maeve, mahal kita.”

Hindi ko na napigilan ang mga luha na tumakas sa mata ko.
I can't. I just can't.

Tumayo ako sa kinakaupuan ko at tumakbo. Wag mong sabihin sakanya Maeve, parang awa mo na. Wag mo na syang saktan pa.

Hindi ko alam kung nasaan ako napunta, basta medyo malayo nako.
Alam ko alam nya na umiiyak ako. I'm sobbing because I can't tell him.

“Maeve.. Ayos ka lang?” Grim suddenly appeared in front of me at napatawa ako sa kaeng-engan ko.

Oo nga pala, kaya palang mag-teleport ng g-gong to. Sayang lang ang pagtakbo ko.

“Grim, I'm selfish. I just realized a while ago. Matagal na tayong magkasama rito and mas nakilala kita, your jokes, your flirtings, your teasing everything.. It made me confused. Zephyr, madami kaming pagkakapareho but being here made me realize things.. It made me..” Is this the right thing?

He wanted to speak, I knew that pero hinihintay nyang ituloy ko ang sasabihin ko.
“Grim,  Narealize ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko but I don't want to tell you, I'm selfish if I didn't tell you, but I'll be more selfish kung sasabihin ko sayo because mamatay din naman ako o makakalimutan kita.. But I, I can't.. I can't contain it any longer now that narealize ko na.”

“Maeve, anong sinasabi mo?” Grim asked completely confused.

I ran and took him by surprised when I hugged him.
I sobbed on his chest and held him tighter.
“Si Zephyr.. I don't love him.”

I stared up at his wide unbelieving eyes with my teary ones.
“Grim, I love you.”

And I closed the gap between us. And for the first time, I kissed him willingly.