The Grim Reaper's Possession

Chapter 38

Chapter 38

Maeve's POV

I asked everyone's advices pati na yung kay Felicity and they all said the same thing.
I should give Sel a chance.

Kailangan kong kalimutan si Grim and that nagging feeling inside of me. I need to focus on Sel. Si Sel na hindi ako iniwan kahit ilang beses ko na syang tinanggihan.
Maybe everything really does happen for a reason and the reason why all of this happen is that so I could meet Sel.

Maybe tama sila, na magiging masaya ako sakanya.
I've waited for far too long for Grim pero hindi na sya nagpakita gaya nung mga reapers nya.
Kung pinakawalan ko pa si Sel then there's a very slim chance that I'd meet another like him.
I should use my brain, isusunod ko na lang yung puso.
Wala namang mangyayari kung pilit ko pa ring hihintayin si Grim.
Dapat siguro bumalik na muna ako dun sa psychiatrist ko to check what's wrong with me.

I grabbed my phone from my pocket and stared at Sel's name na nasa contacts for a few seconds.
I sighed as I pressed call and almost immediately ay sinagot nya naman.

“Maeve..?” He said from the other line.

“Hey,” I said and stared at the digital clock next to me. The bright green light telling me that it's already 9 am.
“Pwede ka ba mamayang 5 pm? I made my decision.”

I stared at my reflection in the mirror for what seemed like the twentieth time this day.
I'm wearing a flowy plain white dress and medyo naninibago ako sa mukha ko since I'm wearing a natural makeup.
My eyes looks smaller without the white and black eyeliner and the false lashes above and underneath my eyes.
Wala akong ganang umupo muna sa harap ng dresser for half an hour applying makeup. I just don't feel like it.
My gaze drifted to the phone and saw that it was already 4 pm.
Still an hour before ako puntahan ni Sel.

Oddly enough, instead of the coffee shop kung saan kami laging nagkikita, he wants me to go with him sa bridge kung saan ko huling nakita si Grim.
Suspiciously, I asked him why and he said he saw me crying there kaya maybe I'm holding something painful to that place and gusto nya na whether ireject or iaccept ko sya is that i-let go ko na rin kung ano yung hine-held kong something against that place.
Maybe he's right, dapat nga i-let go ko na si Grim.

I heard a beep outside and alam ko na si Sel yun.
Nagpaalam na ko kayna Mama't Papa, telling them na may pupuntahan kami ni Sel.
I went outside and went inside his car.

He smiled when he saw me.
“Ang ganda mo ngayon ah.”

“So ngayon lang ako maganda?” pabirong sabi ko, remembering na parang sinabi ko rin to nung nagde-date pa kami ni Zephyr.

He just chuckled.
“No, it's just that you look different.” He said and ngumiti ako.

“Well, thank you then.” I said and he started to drive.

It's been twenty minutes na nasa kotse kami and we're now stuck in a traffic.
Nasa harap kami ng simbahan and there were a lot of people in tuxes and dresses coming out.
A wedding?

Medyo umabante na yung kotse ni Sel when the newlywed couple came out. Looking happy while the people around them are cheering happily.

“Oo Maeve papakasalan kita.. Ngayon mismo habang nandito ka pa.”

I shook my head at Grim's voice. No, it's not real Maeve, gawa gawa lang yan ng utak mo.
You're not making any sense.

Finally we're at the bridge. And it seems very isolated.
Sabagay, the road was very bumpy so I doubt na may dadaang sasakyan dito. Kaya nga iniwan muna ni Sel yung kotse nya sa malapit na Parking Lot dito.

“Sel.” I said as both of us are sitting at the edge of the bridge, both our feet dangling.
Sana di ako itulak nito kung ireject ko man sya.

But then again, he's not going to. I'm not going to reject him after all. I'm gonna accept his feelings.

“Hm?” he said.

“I could've told you my answer kanina sa bahay pa lang. Bakit dinala mo muna ako rito?” I asked.

“Di ba sinabi ko naman sayo, gusto kong ilet-go mo yung bagay na nagpaiyak sayo nun nung gabing yun. Alam ko hanggang ngayon masakit pa rin kahit hindi mo sabihin.. Na hanggang ngayon iniisip mo pa rin sya.” he said,

“Sel, I--”

“Mabibigyan mo nga ba ako ng chance, Maeve?” he asked and ngayong tinatanong nya na ko, I felt like nakalimutan ko na lahat ng mga advices nila sakin.

He was staring at me with those angelic eyes, I couldn't tell kung ano yung mga emosyon na nasa mata nya. I gulped.

No, hindi ko kaya.. Hindi ko kayang gamitin si Sel para makalimutan si Grim. Di ko kaya na kalimutan si Grim.
Kahit gawa gawa lang ng isip ko si Grim, I couldn't imagine my future with Sel. Si Grim sya ang gusto ko kahit imahinasyon ko lang sya o hinde.
Baliw nako.

Nababaliw nako. Yes, I'm willing to accept na nababaliw na ko, if that only means that I could love Grim whether he's real or not.

I shook my head, feeling tears falling down my eyes,
“Sel.. I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.”

He sighed,
“Ayos lang. Alam ko naman na ganto ang mangyayari eh. Kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko mahihigitan ang pagmamal mo sakanya. Matagal mo na ba syang kakilala?”

I nodded,
“I'm sorry hindi ko masasabi.”

“Ganun ba. Ayos lang.” he said and he didn't speak for a few seconds kaya tumingin ako sakanya.

He was staring at the skies, their color turning in to a beautiful shade of orange, the shadow of his eyelashes on his cheeks.

“Mahal na mahal mo nga sya eh no? Kahit hindi mo sya natatandaan, naaalala pa rin sya ng puso mo.” he said.

My eyes widened. Grim said that to me too, claiming that I said something like that.

“A-Ano?” I said and he gaze at me.

“Si Kamatayan.. Mahal mo sya.”
At this point lalo akong naguguluhan. How come na alam nya?

“P-Panong..”

He took my wrist gently and pinalad ang kamay ko. At fist I thought na itutulak nya nga talaga ako but with his other hand na nakakuyom, pinatong nya iyon sa nakapalad kong kamay and slowly opened it.
I felt something inside my hand as he gave something to me.

He smiled.
“Pinapasabi nya na mahal na mahal ka din daw nya, Maeve.” he then pulled his hand back, letting me see the thing na nasa palad ko.

There on my palm was a lilac, its stem was bended to a round shape. Making it look like a sloppy made ring.
I felt a new batch of tears escaped my eyes as the memories of being in the garden and the temple hit me like a bullet train.