LIVID SERIES 4: FHIEL THRIME ASTON✔

SPECIAL CHAPTER

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FIVE years had passed but I still remember how I fall in love with him, I fall in love with a person whom I just created in my mind.

In those five years, my feelings for him hasn't change, I don't know why but when I remember his face, the way he smiles and the why he cares... it still stucked like a glue in my mind and in my heart.

Yes, I actually wasn't expected that I can survive from this rare disease which called schizophrenia.

Hindi lahat ng taong may sakit na schizophrenia ay may kakayahan o kahit na pwede itong gumaling. Mabuti nalang at isa ako sa taong gumaling sa sakit na 'to.

I fought my disease just like what I've promised to him. But I can't help to shed tears everytime I remember those memories that we've created together.

I miss his smile, his eyes, the shape of his face, his sweet gestures, his sweet perfume... I can't help but to miss all of 'em. I also miss our son.

But they are just my illusion, I am the one who created them—they are not real but why does it hurt so much to think that you've fallen for someone who doesn't exist?

I sighed and take off my shoes, I'm now a professional business woman, I'm handling my own company.

A company that I've build with my own will, with my own strength and with my own money.

After that incident when we are in hospital, pinagamot ako ni Mama at saka ni Papa sa US, it took two years.

I can still remember the shock face of the doctors when I really fought my mental disease. My parents are proud of me that they even shed tears in so much happiness.

And also I have my own house, yet I'm all alone that's why my parents are always here they were here so that I won't feel alone.

Tumingin naman si Mama sa'kin at saka ngumite, "How's work?"

Ngumite naman ako pabalik sa kaniya, "The work is fine." Lumapit ako sa kaniya at saka niyakap siya.

"Are you tired?"Malambing na tanong nito sa'kin na ikinailing ko naman.

"Nope. I'm not."Nakangusong sabi ko rito at saka umiling na ikinabuntong hininga naman nito.

"Still thinking about him?"Tanong nito na ikinatigil ko naman, I almost forgot to breath.

"Anak, breath."Nag-alalang sabi nito sabay haplos sa likod ko na ikinabuga ko naman ng hangin at saka napahawak ako sa dibdib ko at saka napahingal dahil parang nawalan na ako ng hangin kanina.

Nagsalita naman ito ulit, "You really can't forget about him, huh? That's why you even turned down those men who wanted to marry you because of him."

"I can't marry someone exept him... I don't want to marry someone unless it's him."Mahinang sabi ko na ikinabuntong hininga naman niya.

"Are you really going to trapped yourself from your own illusion, again?"Seryosong tanong nito na ikina-iling ko naman.

"No... I don't want to be trapped in my own illusion again, it's not because I don't love him anymore when the truth is I still love him until now, and nothing's change... I won't let myself trapped in my own illusion again because I don't want you and papa to worry about me, I don't want to see the both of you felt so helpless while looking at me—looking at your daughter who's trapped in her own mental illness. I don't want to see the both of you cry because of me again. So, no, I won't again even if it means I can't see him forever again because I know that if I do, he won't like it. He's the one who encouraged me to fight my disease."Nakangiting sabi ko rito na mas lalong ikinahigpit ng yakap nito sa'kin.