Maybe A Drizzle Of Love [Weather Series 1]

Drizzling 33

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I can't believe this is happening to me again. Akala ko hindi na mauulit. Akala ko hindi ko na mararamdaman 'yung ganitong sakit.

But who else is there to blame? Kasalanan ko rin naman. I let my walls down. I let myself to be vulnerable again. Pero kasalanan ko ba? We have labels, right? At least that means we have something right? That the feelings are mutual?

Well, looked like it's not. Now I'm confuse what's better. With label or not.

I closed my eyes again, feeling the soreness of it. It was swelling red for I don't know how long I've been crying. I felt my stomach hurt so I curled up into a ball.

All I saw was darkness, but my head was filled up with different thoughts.

Am I this drown to Zyle? Did I fall this deep while he's only on the surface?

This agony... This pain is excruciating the most. Farther from what I felt before. Deeper. Deadlier.

Now , I'm asking myself why Zyle said those things? Why did he want to see Arila? What did he want to talk about with her? Is he trying to win her back? Will they continue their relationship if ever they meet again? But why did he decided to be with me on the first place?

Am I really his rebound? So, he can forget about her? Why? Because he's in pain so he's using me?

Because I could think of any reason why we've been together for months but he still hire a private investigator while his with me. So, all along while he's with me... he was looking for Arila... He was still finding a way to see her...

Why Zyle? Why did you do this to me?

Parang hindi ako makahinga sa sikip ng dibdib ko. Marahan kong idinampi ang aking mga daliri sa aking nakasarang mata nang maramdaman ko ang mainit an likidong tumutulo pagilid dahil sa posisyon ko.

Siguro kaya hindi rin siya nakasipot sa usapan namin.

I smiled bitterly.

He just literally chose her and left me alone that night, under the rain, thinking of his wellness while he's thinking of Arila.

Napahagulgol ako. Maga ang mata. Walang laman ang sikmura. Pusong tila pinipiga.

Gusto ko na lang mamanhid.

Napatigil lang ako sa pag-iyak ng marinig ang pagkatok. I tried to open my eyes even in a slit because of its swelling.

I heard footsteps until I saw Leo—standing in front of me on the side of the bed.

"Cass, kain ka muna. Masamang walang kain sa buntis."

I stiffened.

Shit. Why did I forget that I'm not the only one now?

I looked up at him holding a bedtable. We were in my room on my parents' house dahil nagpahatid agad ako rito kahapon pagkagaling sa unit ni Zyle.

Agad kong pinahiran ang aking mga luha at umupo nang maayos sabay hawak sa aking sinapupunan.

Baby, sorry I forget about you.

I bit my inner cheek as tears fall on my cheeks again. I wiped it before allowing Leo to place the bed table in front of me.